You're everywhere in this garden
I cant escape your sight
Your the grass by the path
The Moss on the stump
Leaves raked up into a little clump
Algea on the water
Adding life to never-ending blue
Even the depths of that void cannot contain you
For you lay upon the riverbed
Dancing with the stream
You're the weeds in the cracks
Poking through my drive
You embody life in every single way
We'll miss you come winter
When your influence fades
When life feels ghostly
So we wait until spring
And watch you bloom again
You're the colour in this garden
Green Green Green

You're sad
Yet happy?
You're the sun
And the night
No light can escape
But you shine so bright
You're trapped in a loop
And still on the right track
Though one step forward
Is one step back
From our understanding
What we believe to be true
No colour in the world could ever describe YOU
So be the in-between hue
Be Zima Blue

You dance like the burning embers with fiery passion
Though never leaving the fire pit you burn bright and bold
Letting everyone you come across know you're there
Sporadic in nature, never truly tamed
Destructive as all hell
But such a pretty and warm sight
You're a crimson red flame burning down the night

Dark path before me
I've taken it a thousand times
But tonight I was scared of running in blind
Some internal thought holding me back
But this dark path ahead
I knew it so well
Fear took over and caused my muscles to quell
So I run back home
Safe under light
I let fear win

Why is my head so ******?
Someone please tell me
Why do  I drink to feel normal
I'm begging for an answer
Because if you dont know
And I dont know
Then where will this conversation even go?
Just repeat the same cycle
Stop that, try harder
Think differently
Well I CANT
So stop asking
Please
I'm begging please
My head is to ******
I dont think I cant be fixed

Gray clouds looming over my head
Darkness filling my thoughts with dread
Once peaceful a dream now a nightmare filled bed
How is this life? Am I already dead?

Last year I wanted to **** myself
This year I want to do better
Even when life's looking wetter
I heard when it rains it pours
Keep pushing through these pains and soars
But I'm just struggling
Keep pushing myself
Even if it can be bad for my health
I know where I need to be
And one day I will see
That I didn't just do it for me
Or you or them but my whole family
So look at me go
Keep running
And even if I get slow
I'll still finish the race first
And make sure all of you know
I still did it at my worst