it really should be so simple
to do the right things
remembering to eat
and going to sleep
but i stare at the ceiling
unless i take certain measures
and my tongue turns to cotton
my appetite has surely been better
so uninterested in what's left of life's pleasure
unbothered to set myself out to dry
sitting on shower floor
using my little alone time to cry
and life's actually never been this great
in many ways i'm growing
but i only see things i haven't achieved
and pain i'm not showing
its so weird to be in between
healed and healing
for the last couple weeks
i couldn't explain what i've been feeling
but maybe it will come back
the hunger for something more
until i'll just alternate
between being uncomfortable, suffering, or bored

We haven't spoke in a while
I hope you read this soon
Worlds apart yet I miss your presence
We only spoke for a little
But now you're gone
Please come back
Please come back
Just come back
Come back

Starving, craving, begging for a reason to keep going
Please tell me there is light because its not showing
I need every drop, every last ounce
I need a reason to keep showing my face
I tried so hard
Yet you still shoot me down
Then turned your back on your own ideals
******* for running my chances
******* for going back on your word
I cant believe I fell for your trick
I cant believe I took on your lies
How can I still see you as a friend yet pray for your downfall
I pray to go you dont win at all

I hate you, I hate you, I hate you
And you know that I do
You know the rage that sleeps within
You feel the pain creeping in
You hate me as much as I hate you
And when I look at you I hate what I see
I hate the fact and you are me

Where did you go?
I've lost who you were
You're the piece I'm missing
Where did you go?
Part of me wishes you never left
Part of me wishes it ended with you
All of me knows we were happier back then
Young, free and living wild
All of me misses that inner child

A hanus ***** born from the flame
When you do things wrong, I'm still to blame
Ugly in the face, heart and mind
A hateful soul Id regret to find
Using your hate yet you still lose this war
You're the ugliest soul I've ever seen before

Mortal words describing beauty so pure
Words don't exist for that I'm sure
But she was a goddess in my humble eyes
Mortal words hold many truths but many lies
Lying through the teeth like most mortals do
Though I cannot lie when I'm describing you
Because of you I know what I feel
Never I thought a woman could be real