The Habits of My Heart

The Habits of My Heart Jan 2013

Fear.

When I said ' I didn't love you' what I really meant was ' I'm terrified.'
The love I have for you sent me running out the door because I knew from the minute I laid eyes on you, this was it for me.
You were my one and only, my freakin' knight and shining armor.
But I ran, I ran so fast that I forgot to look back at all the moments we had together.
Although they were short, I cherished every second.
The fear of another heartbreak sent me chasing after loneliness.
I couldn't bare another heartache, my heart wont survive.
I know once I dive into your love, I'll never be able to get back from it.
You'll be one disease, I can never truly recover from.
When you said you loved me, I ran because I was too scared but I guess the question here is, *why didn't you run after me?

Philiphobia: fear of falling in love.

The Habits of My Heart Jan 2013

The Two F's: Forgive and Forget.

Forgive and forget, that's what they say
but there's only so much you can forget
And sometimes somethings are unforgivable.

The Habits of My Heart Jan 2013

Imagine

Imagine how many times you walked by someone you used to know,
Someone you spent all those cold winter nights with because at that moment it felt like forever.

Imagine how many times you let the moment pass you by because you were too stuck in the past to realize what you've always wanted was right infront of you all along.

Imagine where you'd be, if only you had the guts to say those three words, what you could've seen if only you had the courage to stand out from the crowd,
**Imagine who you could've been, if only they let you believe.

The Habits of My Heart Dec 2012

This Time Last Year

Broken promises,
resulted in horrific damages.
Empty conversations with unfamiliar faces,
If only they could see the changes.
Whispers echoing through memories of what we could've been haunt me,
because I never had the courage to make him see,
Make him believe,
Make him feel a love like ours.
This time last year everything was different,
And if they asked if we'd go our separate ways, id laugh
Cause our love was supposed to be infinite,delicate, intimate.
How could you play so innocent?

The Habits of My Heart Dec 2012

Too Big, Too Small

It's never enough,
Whether you lose a pound or gain a few, It'll always get back to you.
That girl in the mirror, she's not you
If only they could see it too.
You're always ether too big or too small in their eyes
But never just too you, its like you're constantly in disguise.
Trying to be that one girl, that one girl who could have it all
Too big or too small, that girl was comfortable in her own skin
But we both know thats not true.
**It's never enough,
Being just you.

The Habits of My Heart Dec 2012

In Between the Lines

Between every I love you there's a I will forget you,
Between every I'm sorry there's a I will never forgive you,
Between every I'm okay there's a I wish you could see the pain you've caused me,
Between every goodbye there's a I will always love you,
Between every new beginning there's a I wish I could go back in time,
Between every I miss you there's a I won't be staying for you.

The Habits of My Heart Dec 2012

As much as it hurts now, remember there's a reason they left.

Even though he took every piece of your heart when he walked away,
there's that one part of you he left behind, your soul
And trust me he never deserved it in the first place, always remember that.