The
Anxiety
Of actions
That never mattered

Haunt me

Like an
Abandoned thought

Stored away
In the back
Of my mind

Digging its way
Into my conscious form

Consuming me entirely

Until
I fall
Once again
Into the oblivion

Selfish
Vain
Asinine

Those are words
That convey
Your entire being

I'd rather see you burn
In a cold endless flame

Than have you lecture me
Of lessons you never learned

Dirtied faces
Tainted with flowing crimson

Walking a dead dusty path
Rotting with decay

Feet dragging with discontent
Splintered bones aching away

The journey endless
Days blistering into nights and

Nights that make sub degree temperatures
A blessing of warmth

Traveling souls
Corrupted by life
Stained by regrets

Walking endlessly into oblivion

To me
You are the epitome of wonderful
You bring the light into my hollow world
But you see
That I am swallowed
By the dark
Every day seems so much
Further away
I return to the depths
And every day
You pull me out
But every night
I return to the depths

Every day
I come to realize
That everything that seems
So much closer
Returns to the distance
Far off in the pale wind
The closer I get
The further I walk
The closer I get
The further it goes
Until it becomes a pin ***** in the horizon
I realize that the end does not stop
But for me
This is the end
For today

Down on the floor
I forget
The sparkling sky
I forget
The happiest moments
Down on the floor
I look up to nothing
For there is nothing
Down on the floor
I coil and remember the things that I abhor