once upon a time there was a couple
this couple seemed incredibly happy
everyone thought that they were in love
and that they might just make it
and they thought so too
they promised each other forever
he thought she meant it
she thought he meant it
then life intervened
he changed
like he said he wouldn't
she stayed the same
like she said she would
it wasn't the same
he wanted better
prettier
happier
nicer
BETTER
she wanted HIM
and to be loved
and cared for
they were both disappointed...
now a year has gone by
and they're best friends
she seems fine
he seems fine
they both seem fine
but if you look closely
close enough to see the cracks
you'll be able to see
the falter in her smile
the tremble in her laugh
and the sadness in her eyes
you'll see she's not satisfied
you'll see the love still there
hidden under the friendship
you'll see she wants
to redo the past
change something
anything
to make him stay this time
but she smiles
and acts like its alright
and she loves being
just friends
because her love
was so strong
and so true
that when she said forever
she meant it with all her heart
even if forever
was only to be fulfilled
by being just friends

you are the sunlight in my life
shining through the darkest nights
you are the smile on my face
the one that i hope will never fade
you are my unbridled laughter
slipping uncontrollably from me
you are the reason i am able to face every day
because i know youre right by my side
you are everything ive ever hoped for
and then some
in short, you are the love of my life
and im so glad you found me
and accepted me and chose to love me back

If my bands knew me they would be so disappointed, because they always tell me to stay strong, yet I am so weak...

"I'm fine," she says with a halfhearted grin.
"I'm fine," she says again, waving away a helpful hand.
"I'm fine," she says to herself, several minutes later.
"I'm fine," she whispers, wiping her face.
She's not fine.

"I'm fine," she says moments after the cry leaves her lips.
"I'm fine," she says to herself, sinking to the floor.
"I'm fine," she tells herself, shaking in a ball.
"I'm fine," she repeats, picking up the razorblade.
She's not fine.

"I'm fine," she says to her concerned family.
"I'm fine," she insists as those who love her worry.
"I'm fine," she says to anyone who listens.
"I'm fine," she lies as she slices her wrists.
She's not fine.

"I'm fine," she cries, sobbing on the bathroom floor.
"I'm fine," she wails, but only in a whisper.
"I'm fine," she mutters, watching the blood leave her wrist.
"I'm fine," she practices, stepping from the room.
She's not fine.

"I'm fine," she assures the world outside.

I cant wait to meet the person who looks at me and thinks, 'wow, im so lucky to have her.'

I'm drowning
In everything
School
Friends
Family
Life
It's like everything's trying to suffocate me
Cut off my air
Until i sink
So far down
That I can't be saved
Even if someone bothered trying
Which they don't
My vision clouds over
My head pounds
I try to breathe
Inhaling water repeatedly
Until I stop struggling
And just let myself go
Let myself sink beneath the waves
Never to return to the surface

Go ahead.
Rip my heart out. Break it into a million pieces. Throw it on the ground and stomp on it in front of me.
You already did when you said good-bye. and since you seemed to enjoy it so much, have fun doing it again.
I dont care anymore