Something warm on a cold day
The kind words that people say
A hug when you're feeling sad
Calming thoughts when you're mad
Going somewhere fun with friends
Something you wish would never end
Something has no true meaning
What can make someone dull or gleaming
Something different for every one
Something that's vaster than the sun

I frequenly bad mouth you weather you're there or not
I call you all sorts of mean things
I tell you I hate you and to go to hell
I get you so upset at me all the time
I yell rant and rave about how bad you are
I don't mean any of it, really
I know you know that
I also know that the moment anyone says 1/10 of that
I'll say:
"Only I can yell at them!"
"Only I can call them stupid!"
"Only I can make them upset!"
"Only I can..."
And if anyone ever ask why "Only I can..."
I'll say:
"Because only I can call them best friend"

There's no chance
No way
That could make me
Want to stay

It hurts too much
The pain's so bad
There's nothing happy
It's only sad

I wish it was different
I wish it was not true
My heart bleeds
For love of you

I wish I could take back
All that we said
I wish I could wash it
Right out of my head

There's only you in my heart
Only you in my head
But you only see her
I wish you would see me instead

There's so much I wish
So much that will never come true
There's all these "if only"s
About me and you

Wishing only hurts
It only causes pain
The fantasies
Will drive you insane

There's no use wishing
None at all
They only bulid you up
To watch you fall

They make you see
What you want the most
Then take it away
Leaving only their ghost

Wishing does nothing but hurt
So please don't start
Unless you're ready
For them to break your heart

We all have that moment
that it all changed
That moment something went wrong
and all got rearranged
There's that moment you spoke
words that should never be said
That moment you got mad
and let it go to your head
There's that moment you acted
before you thought
The moment you lashed out
and maybe got caught
There's that moment you never planned
when it all went awry
The moment that went wrong
and it just went by
There are those moments
that catch you off your game
Those moments you knew
things would never be the same

Sometimes I create walls
I hide
I cry
Sometimes people ask what’s wrong
I get scared
I don’t answer
Sometimes I’m okay with that
I’m glad
I’m relieved
Sometimes I’m not
I want them to try harder
I just wanna yell “Try harder!!”
Sometimes I remember why I built my wall
I forget sometimes
I think about the rest of the times that aren’t sometimes
Sometimes I let it all go
It’s only sometimes
Only sometimes

Why did you seek me out?
I'm not falling for it
I don't think you're serious
You're here now
But you'll leave
Everyone does
No one ever stays
You may want to be with me now
Be you'll get tired of me
No matter how much I try
Or how much you say you won't
You will
I'm not beautiful on the outside
Or even on the inside
I'm ugly and stained
I'll never make you happy
I'll never be your missing piece
So before you and I get hurt
I'll shut that door
I'll push you away
I'll give all I've got
If you stay long enough
I might get tired of pushing
And you can push open that door
And take your place in my heart
It's a long shot
But if you're willing to take it
I'll give you the chance
Just thought I'd let you know
I'm kinda rooting for you to push for me

Welcome to my misery
Here pain is easy to see
But you choose not to care
Because to you its not there
You pretend that nothing's wrong
And simply say "She's strong"
I keep falling
I keep calling
You choose to ignore
Because you don't care any more
This shall forever be the norm
Until I fight through this storm
Until I can fight this by myself
I'll leave my emotions on a shelf
This poem is the last line I'll cast
Saying: Please sent help fast