Eggs
They are plain
They are boring
They are wonderful
They are a reminder
Of a simpler time
A time of innocence
A much happier time
I miss that time
The childhood long since passed
Plain, boring eggs
One on my treasured reminders

If we were a movie
I'd be the comic relief
Now, now
It's not that bad
At least I still have your smile
It may not same one that she has
But it's something
I still get to keep your laugh
Even if it's not the one from the bottom of your heart
I'd still be the best friend
Just not the one you'd fall in love with
But I'm okay with that
As long as you're happy
If we were a movie
I'd be the comic relief
And I'm okay with that

I watched you walk away
Step by heartbreaking step
I watched get upset
Get mad
What did I do?
What have I done
To inspire such anger?
I'm sorry
I'm sorry!
I meant what I said
But I didn't mean to say that way
I didn't want to unsettle you
I didn't think you'd take it so bad
Is what I did that horrid?
Is what I said so unthinkable?
What did I do?
What have I done?
I ruined what we had
I'm sorry
I'm sorry!
Can we go back to how it was?
Before I said "I love you"

We plug in so much
Our phones
Speakers
Laptops
Tablets
Mp3s
And so much more
Our lives revolve around them
Every day we plug in something
Why do we need all them?
I bet you can't think of the last time
You went one single day
Without on single plug in
We rely on them
We have become dependent on them
In my day to day life
I haven't come across
One person who doesn't care
About their plug-ins
Not one
I know I can
And Have
Spent days without them
And didn't care
But can anyone else
Make that same claim
Say that you don't mind going days
Weeks even
Without plug-ins?
I'm not saying they're bad
I'm just saying there's more out there

shut up
Shut up
SHUT UP!
SHUT THE **** UP!!
I can't take it
I won't take it
You yell
You fight
It's not alright!
You plaster on these masks
Make it seem like its all fine
But it's not
It never will be
Not like it was
I can't take this ****
Day after day
Week after week
Month after month
Year after ******* year
It's all fake
Until the doors are shut
Behind closed doors it's "handled"
The thing is
The walls are thin
And I'm awake
When you think I'm asleep
Don't "Stay together for the kids"
There are no kids left
You think it's better to stay?
Well it's not
It's hurts more
For you
And for me
I can't take all the fake smiles
Fake laughter
Fake peace
Fake ******* love
Love should not be fake
Love can't be a mask
Take it off!
Take it off right now!
Do you hear me?!
Take it the *******!!
Love is all my dreams have left
So shut up
And don't take my last hope
So please
Don't stay together for the so called kids
My heart and ears can't take it
So please
Stop fighting and just shut up

Dear Sweet Reader,

I feel somewhat indebted to you
I'm guessing you're wondering
"Why"
The reason is that you give me validation
You give me an audience
Someone to hear my voice
And possibly remember my words
I feel you give me a reason to write
I feel better writing this
Knowing there's a chance
If only a small one
That my words may be read
And possibly enjoyed
I hope this meant something
However slight

Until we meet again,
Inspired writer

We all have that moment
that it all changed
That moment something went wrong
and all got rearranged
There's that moment you spoke
words that should never be said
That moment you got mad
and let it go to your head
There's that moment you acted
before you thought
The moment you lashed out
and maybe got caught
There's that moment you never planned
when it all went awry
The moment that went wrong
and it just went by
There are those moments
that catch you off your game
Those moments you knew
things would never be the same

Day after day
We miss it
We walk right pasted
Never igknowlaging it
Not sparing it one glance
It's all around us
Yet we never see it
What is it?
What do we ignore?
The world
That is what we miss
We over look it
Take it for granted
Almost everyday
We don't take the time
To smell the flowers
Bask in the sun
Watch the sun rise or set
Hear the twittering of nature
We are too busy
We have places to go
And people to see
We have emails to check
And statuses to update
We are so involved
In ourselves
Our schedules
Our places to go
And our people to see
Not only do we look over nature
We also neglect our fellow man
We see them everywhere
But we don't notice them
We walk right pasted each other
Not even giving a second's look
We all live on the same planet
The same earth supports us all
Yet we don't see it
We don't see the world around us
We ignore it
We don't see the people around us
We over look them
My original question was going to be
"Can you see it?"
But I think
"Will you see it?"
Is a better question
We all CAN see it
But WILL we?
I take time
Everyday
To just look
Look at the world
That I live in
That I've grown in
I take time
Just to see what
And sometimes who
Is around me
So I ask again
For the very last time
I want you to think
Will you see it?

Can I keep you?
I want to keep your smile
Your kindness
Your laugh
Your humor
Your heart
Your everything
Can I keep you?
Keep you in my head
My heart
My dreams
My presence
My life
My world
I guess the question really is
Will you let me keep you?
Let me see your smile
Know your kindness
Hear your laugh
Get your humor
Be in your heart
Love your everything
Can I keep you?
I ask because
I think its only fair
You already keep me
You have thoughts
Control my heart
Haunt my dreams
Monopolize my presence
Dominate my life
Are my world
So I ask only once more
Can I keep you?

Dear sweet reader
Do you wish to know my hamartia?
Better question
Do you know your hamartia?
Better question still
Do you know what a hamartia is?
Dear sweet reader
I'm not questioning your intelligence
I would never do such a thing
I am only asking
Because it is a new word
At least to me
Maybe to you as well
Dear sweet reader
Shall I tell you?
Tell you what a hamartia is
And of my hamartia
The answer is yes
A hamartia is a fatal flaw
Almost everyone has one
I do
You might
Do you have one?
Do you know what it is?
I have one
I know what it is
My hamartia, dear sweet reader,
Is that I fall in love to easy
And much to hard
So my dear sweet reader,
Care to share your hamartia?

There's no chance
No way
That could make me
Want to stay

It hurts too much
The pain's so bad
There's nothing happy
It's only sad

I wish it was different
I wish it was not true
My heart bleeds
For love of you

I wish I could take back
All that we said
I wish I could wash it
Right out of my head

There's only you in my heart
Only you in my head
But you only see her
I wish you would see me instead

There's so much I wish
So much that will never come true
There's all these "if only"s
About me and you

Wishing only hurts
It only causes pain
The fantasies
Will drive you insane

There's no use wishing
None at all
They only bulid you up
To watch you fall

They make you see
What you want the most
Then take it away
Leaving only their ghost

Wishing does nothing but hurt
So please don't start
Unless you're ready
For them to break your heart

Sometimes I create walls
I hide
I cry
Sometimes people ask what’s wrong
I get scared
I don’t answer
Sometimes I’m okay with that
I’m glad
I’m relieved
Sometimes I’m not
I want them to try harder
I just wanna yell “Try harder!!”
Sometimes I remember why I built my wall
I forget sometimes
I think about the rest of the times that aren’t sometimes
Sometimes I let it all go
It’s only sometimes
Only sometimes

You refuse to see
That you aggravate me
You talk nonstop
I think my ears will rot
You give me so much to think about
That I overload and have to shout
You’re annoying in everything you do
But I’m for some reason drawn to you
You’re the one I love to hate
I’m the one you love to exasperate
You have this weird kind of charm
That causes me the greatest alarm
Your every move is a puzzle
If I could I’d give you a muzzle
You are the one to light my fuse
Forever and a day you are my muse

What is in a name?
Description?
Category?
Definition?
What is in a name?
You chose to read this poem
Based on its name
Or at least that was
Part of it
Or am I wrong?
What is in a name?
It's a greeting
It's a calling card
It's a connection
But what is it really?
Names can change
Through marriage
Through nickname
Through law
Through so many things
What is in a name?
Why do we regard them so highly
Or so lowly?
Names aren't who we are
Names are just our titles
Names are just our covers
What is in a name?
I personally think
They are just placeholders
They hold our reputation
Until we can either live up to them
Fall short of them
Live beyond them
The placeholders are there
For people who think they know us
I know that I hate placeholders
They're ever so annoying
They set silly bars
That I'd like to take down
What is in a name?
Nothing until you fill it
With who you were
Who you are
And who you want to be

Sickness to the right
Sadness to the left
Responsibility ahead
Mixed feelings behind
Crushing weight above
Solid ground below
None of it mine
But all of it with me
No where to fun
No refuge to seek
No place to hide
It’s always there
Always, yesterday
Always, today
Always, tomorrow
What it comes down to
Time to pick a side
Time to break free
Time for just me...

Seconds
Of crying
Of breathing
Of joy
Seconds

Minutes
Of laughter
Of thinking
Of being
Minutes

Hours
Of yelling
Of sleeping
Of sadness
Hours

Days
Of new
Of happiness
Of old
Days

Moments
Of seconds
Of minutes
Of hours
Of days
Moments

Life
Of seconds
Of breathing
Of minutes
Of laughter
Of hours
Of sleeping
Of days
Of happiness
Of moments
Of so much
Life

I've seen you in my dreams
I don't know why but I have
They're all a bit fuzzy
But I remember you
I've seen your face
Heard your voice
Even felt your touch
Can you tell me why?
Can you tell me who you are?
I can't even ask you
I don't even know you
Why do you haunt me?
Why are you in my head?
Why I do see your face over and over?
Who am I directing these questions to?
I've seen you in my dreams
What does that mean?
Why do you haunt me?
I wonder, have you seen me in yours dreams?
Do I haunt you like you haunt me?
I have so many questions
But no one to give me answers.

I frequenly bad mouth you weather you're there or not
I call you all sorts of mean things
I tell you I hate you and to go to hell
I get you so upset at me all the time
I yell rant and rave about how bad you are
I don't mean any of it, really
I know you know that
I also know that the moment anyone says 1/10 of that
I'll say:
"Only I can yell at them!"
"Only I can call them stupid!"
"Only I can make them upset!"
"Only I can..."
And if anyone ever ask why "Only I can..."
I'll say:
"Because only I can call them best friend"

I've known you for years
You're my best friend
I thought nothing would change
Until it did
You told me you love me
But I don't see you that way
You ask for a chance
I say give it your best shot
Get me hooked
Make it so I'll love you
As much as you love me
Get me hooked
So I can't see you
As my brother
Get me hooked
So I want you
With every fiber of my being
I'll give you your chance
Only because I know something you don't
I can't live without you
It's not love yet
But I'm already hooked
Hooked on your sense of humor
On the way you treat me
On all your cute little corks
On you
So can you do it?
Can you get me hooked
In the way you want?
Or will you fall short
And be friendzoned?
All I have to say is
Before it's too late
Get me hooked

I think I'm shallow
"He" said I'm shallow
You say I'm not
I think I'm ugly
"They" said I'm ugly
You say no way
I think I'm insensitive
"She" said I'm insensitive
You say not a chance
There is no
"He"
"They"
"She"
There's just me
Not admitting I feel
Shallow
Ugly
Insensitive
All because I am
Insecure

Welcome to my misery
Here pain is easy to see
But you choose not to care
Because to you its not there
You pretend that nothing's wrong
And simply say "She's strong"
I keep falling
I keep calling
You choose to ignore
Because you don't care any more
This shall forever be the norm
Until I fight through this storm
Until I can fight this by myself
I'll leave my emotions on a shelf
This poem is the last line I'll cast
Saying: Please sent help fast

If I said I never loved you
It would be a lie
And if I said I loved you still
It would be the same
I can't say I'll ever hate you
But I can say I'll never feel for you
Like did back then
Things will never be the same
And I think that's a good thing
I'll never love you like I did then
But I can love in a new way
If you give me time and a reason

Being the girly girl
Would make me hurl
I've never wanted to be the princess
Being the cheerleader would make me stress
To other girls that's the way to be
But that's never been the way for me
I'll call you dude and bud
I'm not afraid of a little mud
I'm not gonna cry over a broken nail
Seeing a spider won't turn me pale
I as good a fighter as any boy
I'm not into playing it coy
I'll fight against what I think is wrong
My sense of friendship is very strong
Its to bad if you don't like what you see
Because I'm happy being I'm me

opposites may attract
but theres no telling how they'll react
one says one thing the other
says another
they don't aways agree
i guess that hows ment to be
i just hope the fighting would end
before something breaks thats imposable to mend

I'm so sad
I'm crying
But I won't tell you
I'm too proud
I'm in so much pain
I can't take it
But I won't call out
I'm too proud
I want your love
I need your comfort
But I won't ask
I'm too proud
I want to tell you
I want to call out and ask
But I can't
I'm too proud
Make my silent cry heard
Show my hidden tears
Because I need you, please
Break my stupid pride.

I'm the only girl
Out of 3 children
I'm the youngest
Of my family
But I'm not a little girl
I am 17 years old
So stop pushing me around
Like I'm a child
I'm not a little girl
You can't tell me what to do
And expect me to blindly follow
You can't lead me around
Like I'm in need of guidance
Stop trying to hold my hand
Like you would when I was little
And would cross the street
It's true I'm not an adult
But that doesn't mean I'm not a little girl
I don't need your constant supervision
I need to make my own mistakes
Not make up for yours
Not pay for theirs
I'm not a little girl
So stop treating me like one

Something warm on a cold day
The kind words that people say
A hug when you're feeling sad
Calming thoughts when you're mad
Going somewhere fun with friends
Something you wish would never end
Something has no true meaning
What can make someone dull or gleaming
Something different for every one
Something that's vaster than the sun

Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me.
That's what I believed when I was young
But now that's not true at all.
True sticks and stones can break my bones
But words hurt so much deeper.
Wounds inflicted by sticks and stones can be easily understood
But wounds done by words are more complex.
When you use sticks and stones you know you're causing damage
But when using words you don't know if what you're saying really hurts.
So really it should be sticks and stoles may break my bones
But those wounds heal so much faster.

I'm sorry
I've been a bad daughter
I'm sorry
I made our reationship bad
I'm sorry
It's my fault
I'm sorry
I only ever think of myself
I'm sorry
I don't help you as much as I should
I'm sorry
I stress you out
I'm sorry
I don't act the way you want me to
I'm sorry
I don't think of your feelings
I'm sorry
I put up a wall
I'm sorry
if I've ever hurt you
I'm sorry
I'm bitter
I'm sorry
I don't know how to fix this
I'm sorry
I couldn't just say this out loud

I tend to write a lot of poetry
For the simple reason it camls me
Onto the paper my feelings fall
From happiness to anger I express it all
Fluent in words they be not
Listen to much and your ears might rot
I write what I like and like that I do
And if you don't like its to bad for you

I read and write to ignore the pain
I cry when its stormy so all you see is rain
I feel nothing but empty inside
And I have no idea where my true feelings reside
Maybe they're locked deep inside my chest
I think leavening them there would be the best
If I unlock them and set 'em free
I wonder what will become of me?
This feeling is no where near new
And yet still have no idea as what to do

"Sticks and stones may break my bone but words can never hurt me"
Took me awhile to see what ******* this can be
Sticks and stones may break my bones yes that's very true
But the one who taught me the pains of words was undoubtedly you
I didn't know this from the start
But words can break my heart
A broken bone can heal pretty fast
But a broken heart proves to last

I've lost my ability to cry with my heart
Hot stingy tears roll down my warn cheeks
Yet there is no real feeling behind them
The tears flow until they see fit to stop
But I feel nothing for them
I can put the emotion behind it that I wish
But nothing real
It doesn't feel like real emotion filled tears
I can smile when they fall
I can put on a sad face as they drip
I can look angry as the run down my neck
Yet I can't feel they're meaning
Its like my heart told me to cry
But forgot to inform my brain of the reason
I'm frozen and unfeeling
I'm broken and a empty shell

You lost a friend
Its gonna be alright
Your pet dyed
Its gonna be alright
You got hurt
Its gonna be alright
You cry
Its gonna be alright
You're heartbroken
Its gonna be alright
Your world is crashing down
Its gonna be alright
But what if it's not alright?
People always say
Its gonna be alright
But how do they know?
What if Its not gonna be alright?
What if you're broken and definitly not alright?
What gives them to right to say
Its gonna be alright?
Does that mean when it's not alright
I can blame them?
Because I don't feel it's gonna be alright
I feel shattered and far from alright
I just wanna shout it's not alright!
I just wanna scream stop saying alright!
But I can't
We both know it's not always gonna alright
But then again those are comforting words people say
Even with that I'm sick of the words
It's gonna be alright.
I'm just not alright!
I'm
Not
Alright!!

I used to write secret codes in the back of my diary
Thinking no one would be clever enough to look there
I used to dream of being a ballerina
Not even knowing where to begin
I used to want to be just like my mom
So I would try on her shoes and think myself grown up
I used to wish on the stars
Not caring if the wishes came true
I used to dream of what I would be
Not knowing it might not be possible
I used to do a lot of things
Until the world yelled: Grow up!

I don't talk I write
because I'm afraid to fight
not fighting as in 1 on 1
I think thats really fun
I mean fight the tears
fight the growing fears
fight who i don't want to be
fight the weaker and scared me
I write all down
to keep away the frown
i don't think I'll ever change
but i don't think its strange
i don't dare go near the hurtle my path
for fear of its crippling wrath
I'll just stay in my buble and hide
I think it's safe and cozy inside

I want to hear your heartbeat
I want to feel your heat
I want to know your every scar
I want to know who you are
I want you to feel my love for you
I want you to know that it is true
All I really want is for you to know
That no matter what I'll never let you go

Why did you seek me out?
I'm not falling for it
I don't think you're serious
You're here now
But you'll leave
Everyone does
No one ever stays
You may want to be with me now
Be you'll get tired of me
No matter how much I try
Or how much you say you won't
You will
I'm not beautiful on the outside
Or even on the inside
I'm ugly and stained
I'll never make you happy
I'll never be your missing piece
So before you and I get hurt
I'll shut that door
I'll push you away
I'll give all I've got
If you stay long enough
I might get tired of pushing
And you can push open that door
And take your place in my heart
It's a long shot
But if you're willing to take it
I'll give you the chance
Just thought I'd let you know
I'm kinda rooting for you to push for me

Someone's playing tricks on me
I don't know if its lady luck or even God
But someone's playing tricks on me
I had finally settled my feeling for you
And suddenly you choose my name and blew me away
Someone's playing tricks on me
And I don't know who to blame
I wouldn't mind the tricks so much
If I knew why they keep leading me to you
Someone's playing tricks on me
And I wish they would play some on you.

Oh God.
He's replacing me!
Bringing in someone new
Telling me I'm replaceable
Oh God.
He's replacing me!
How could this happen?
I haven't even left yet
Am I that forgettable?
Oh God.
He's. Replacing. Me?
I'm irreplaceable
I'm unforgettable
I'm replacing him!
Oh God.
He's irreplaceable
Unforgettable
And looking for someone to fill me shoes
Oh God
I'm done
Forgotten
Replaced...

Things can’t get worse
I feel like I’m dying
Even tho it hurts
I really am trying
You say one thing
I say another
Our opinions differ
We’re not good for eachother
You sit on your throne
Playing with my guilt and sadness
I can’t help but think
You enjoy my madness
You peer at me without a word
I can't stand you judging eyes
I silently let it go
Breathing exasperated sighs
Being so close is definitely not good
We need some time apart
I think alone time is what we need
Then we can make a fresh start

There’s a knife in my heart
I wonder who put it there?
You know who don’t you?
You know how to twist it
To make my feel it
How to **** it
Make me wince
How to cut deeper
Make me bleed
How to slice
Make me feel bad for you
Please make it go away
I beg you, please
Just take it out
Let me bleed out
Let me heal
Or stick it deeper
**** what’s left of my heart
Let me feel some peace
Let me heal

It’s like walking on eggshells
CRACK!
One misstep
CRACK!
Say something slightly out of turn
CRACK!
Do something a little askew
CRACK!
Don’t say what is wanted
CRACK!
Don’t act as planned
CRACK!
Don’t take what is said correctly
CRACK!
Don’t bend to your will
CRACK!
Don’t when the last crack will do it
SHATTER!

Holding on is sometimes harder than letting go
I’m holding on to something i’ll never know
Holding on to my feeling for you
I’m not quite sure what to do
Holding on to what i want so bad
I’m grasping at what i never had
Holding on just for a chance
To maybe find romance
Hold on with a firm grip
Afraid if i let go i’ll rip
Holding on to what will never be mine
Why oh why for you do i pine?
Holding on as if for dear life
My heart and my brain in a strife
Holding on to feelings i’ll never show
Fearing the pain of letting go

You know me so well
I know next to nothing about you
You’re so close
Yet so far
I hate it
I hate it
I hate it!
You’re adorable
You’re funny
You’re hideous
You’re obnoxious
I hate it
I hate it!
You’re the first person I look for
You’re the last person I want to see
I hate it!
You’re just you
The light of my day
The wrecking ball of my week
But I love you
And I hate it

We love each other
We say it
And mean it all the time
I love you so much
And I know you love me
But I love you a little differently
I love you just a little more
Were we love each other for the people we are
I also love you in a romantic way
I treat you almost as if we are dating
You let me do it all the time
You don't see a problem
But I unfortunately do
I don't always mean to do it
I really don't
But you don't mind
And I let you do the same
We walk down the street
You put your arm around my waist
I sit on the couch and play on my phone
You come put you head on my lap and talk about your thoughts
I put my feet in your lap
And you massage them
I eat something
And almost feed you some
You sit on the porch
I know you want to talk
We do so many things
We are so very close
And you don't see it
You only see platonic love
You think this is what friends do
I know that its not normal
I know that I should stop before I get too deep
But it feels so comforting to put my legs on yours
Its nice when you and I talk about anything
I love when its just you and me just being
I should stop this weird situation
Not separate completely
Just stop acting like we're a couple that doesn't kiss
Not get out of our friendship or stop our meaningful talks
Just let go of the fantasies of us holding hands
Not cut you out of my life
Just not be so close
Because as comfortable as it can be
Platonic dating *****

People don't see you
People see your face
People see your body
I see your heart
I see your mind
I see you
I wish you could see yourself through my eyes
I wish I could make you see what I do
Because what's inside
Your heart
Your mind
Your soul
That all shine through to me
They  are what make you radiant
Not your outward appearance
Your inner beauty is all I see
I love you for who you are
Not what everyone else sees
But what I see
So yes
You are beautiful
But, no
I don't love you because you are beautiful
You are beautiful because I love you

Here I am
Once again
Putting myself out there
Going out on a limb
Stepping in front of the firing squad
Praying that this time
You'll save me
You'll swoop in like the hero I see you as
You'll save the damsel I never thought I'd be
Here I am
Opening myself up
Letting you in
Hoping this time might be different
Literally being the definition of insanity
Because that's what love is
It's letting go
Hoping someone else will hold on
Falling
Trusting someone to catch you
Going insane
Wishing to find clarity
So this is me
One last time
Hoping
Praying
Wishing
That this time someone might hold on
This time someone might catch me
This time I might find clarity
Though I don't think this time
Or any other time
Will ever get the result I want
I think this time I might get the result I need
Third time's the charm, right?
Third time may just be the time you finally say yes
Or that I finally move on
Finally realize we won't end up together
No matter how much I want it
Or how much I need it
Or how much others see it
This time I think its the one
The one that either opens you eyes to me
To us
To our potential
Or maybe to one that opens mine
To you
To us
To our limitations
This time
I don't know why
But this time
All I think
All I hope
All I fear
Everything in me just keeps saying
Maybe this time.

Hide with your smile
It makes you look friendly
Who cares if you're dying inside
Hide behind makeup
It makes you look pretty
No one needs to know you're insecure
Hide inside trendy clothes
They make you seem put together
People don't want to see you falling apart
Hide your flaws
They show your human
We only want to see perfection
Hide who you are
People will like you better
Nobody wants to deal with real

Don't ask the question
Don't even try
There's no point in it
And we both know why
You don't want the answer
You don't really care
So don't bother asking
Don't even dare
Don't give me that hope
Or bait me with false concern
Every time it hurts
Oh when will I learn?
You ask to be polite
You ask because we're "friends"
Now I draw the line
Where pleasantry ends
It ends where you'd expect it
It ends where it should
It ends where your care dies
Or at least I wish it would
Don't try to be my counselor
If you're not up to the task
Just do this one thing
Don't ask