I don’t want to run , I don’t want to hide
I wanna be here - don’t care if I’m there
I wanna accept - I wanna let go
I don’t want the answers
I don’t mind the questions
I’m  where I am meant to be
In the void
And that’s ok with me

Pick ,pick, pick myself
Infiltrating inflammation infection  
Scratching at the surface
Obsession fills the void
Until reality hits once more.

Mustard coloured eyes
staring straight into my lies  
Masked with a cheap disguise it’s
Time to face the humiliation

Meet with judgment and disappointment
I forcefully push through the hours of my life …

BUT IM DONE PLAYING THIS GAME!
I’m setting free of this chain
Giving into my pain
And I don’t care what you say!
I’m no longer afraid -
This is the ONLY way

Because through my darkness I am enlightened

Befriending my shadows
I meet myself again