What goes on in my mind is quite absurd, yet breathtaking.
hopeless feelings, errors, and honesty give me meaning.
A proper gentleman mixed with some sweet wine
I pranced along the journey of lust and faithful lies
Floating on cloud 9, or somewhere many clouds ahead.
Everything is not lost, but I am.
Mind is wandering along the negative sea.
I’m swimming along the shore of dreams
shaken,
I Cherished these wicked falls
They have thrilled my gigantic heart
And I treasure them as I giggle at the wrongs and make things right
I am only human baby let me **** up

1:23 am -this exhale just brought me back to life
The music has influenced my environment
Strangers and lovers and thirsty hearts lingering in my presence
Being pulled by my sides by you and reminded I was beautiful
1:27 am -that moment made me reassure my being
I was loved, I was drunk, I was high, I was in love
And that’s all it took, we danced, we danced, and we danced.
Tongues hungry for each other’s minds
Your knowledge excites me; your heart evaporates in me softly.
Your touch is irresistible, and I’d be a fool if I decided to resist you.
3:00 am- the goodbyes were a mess
Is this forever can we be that again
Can we do that again and again
Come back and love me I want to be around you again.
4:00 am- your knowledge excites me, you’re in my mind, you’re in my tongue, you’re in my breath, you’re in my ear, you’re in my sense, you’re in my head.
Back and forth, it was you, all about you.
5:00 am- intoxicated thoughts.

There is this part of me that will always remain hidden,
And that’s the world, the evolving of beautiful chaos, intertwined in beauty
Have you appreciated sympathy before appealing for an applaud?
What is reward without tears?
What are fears without goals?
Viewing things from my heart benefits the truth
Viewing things from my mind understands the truth
Running from the lack of freedom, why do we feel trapped in our own beings?
**** just got real, **** just got deep, and I just needed to stop and just feel.
I got this part of me that makes me go crazy
Smart people seem like crazy people to dumb people.
Hypocrites are overpopulating our world
Stop bashing on what you hate, yet promote what you love
I don’t want to compare your story to anyone else’s.
It was unique , I separated it from the rest.

I’m brutally exhausted, and all I want is to be held by you
I’m slightly intoxicated, yet all I want is you
Sort of lost in this world twirling upon my chaos
I just want to curl up in a ball and hide
I just want to sit in silence and feel your fingertips gently brushing up on my spine
Planting sweet kisses on my weary shoulders that get me high
All I want is another bottle of wine
All I want is to sit on the past time, rewind back to where we had it all intertwined
We weren’t in love, but oh god we could have been.
****, we could have been.

Is it too sad to become depressingly hopeless of it all,
At first, I packed my heart up and left, I stayed heartless
Second, I decided to grab my mind and leave again, I was mindless, and heartless
Third, I gave up and grabbed my soul and pushed it away, I became soulless, mindless, and heartless
Fourth, I became alone, I forgot my value, and my worth.
I was soulless, mindless, and heartless
Then you did it,
You believed in me, you showed me the sun, you helped me run without the gun, and it was too much fun.

Who knew all you needed to do was a bit of self-cleaning
A bit of self-healing
Woke up and I took a deep breath
My god this life is a catastrophe
It’s so unpleasant
I launched a substantial amount of smoke in my lungs
I flew away, in my brain
I was gleaming
I roared I wept I bawled
I wanted to settle
I wanted more.
It was never enough