We either become sadder
Or our heart beats become louder
My heart,
My heart is eating so fast my bones are tingling
Vibrating through my veins
My blood stream is failing
I think too much
I don’t pray enough
Lost touch with the angels
The angels lost me
Forgetting this
Words are words by choice
Awkwardly complicated
Passionate souls intertwined in chaos
Beautiful chaos
My hands are shaking, they can’t stand still
I overdo it with coffee, I over did it.
Can’t handle my life sober
So much ****** up **** in the world
Smart people seem like crazy people to dumb people
And if you believe you can change the world
You’re one of a kind.

My favorite  forms of intimacy
consists of
vulnerability between a soul you can trust
showing up when needed
spending time sharing ideas
watching  films/ reading books
speaking openly
asking questions
sight seeing
kissing and cuddling
and wherever that leads
sharing and creating
not forgetting where the love is no matter the space or time
I love a man that can touch me without using his hands
help me learn ways to love myself
I think I've just learned to trust my tongue
more than I am interested in protecting myself from being judged
I don't overthink when I write anymore.
I just write.

What is my biggest insecurity?
Not giving enough where I can
and know I should.
Some insecurities
I am still trying to find words to
Maybe some light too
Being loved can be scary,
and I shy away from people who love me
too quickly
You ever been heart broken?
betrayal is universal
I have felt the teeth of love for sure
Spiritual awakening is about surrender
we lead most of our lives trying to control outcomes
and in doing so
we inject and project ourselves into other peoples choices
to secure the narrative of control
but when you let go of this desire to be right all the time
or control outcomes
something else seeks you
manifest within chaos
emotions are my identity
just please adore me when
I cant love myself.

People romanticize their plans
and the potential benefits
but dread the execution.
The magic you're look for
is in the work you're  avoiding baby.

You can half *** many things in life
&
Justify to self why it's acceptable
but the love you give
&
The love you receive should never be one of those things.

baby this vibe
is all I needed
I didn't need to be subjected  to our desire
to combine these fantasies
after all is this lust or love?
questioning my appearance used to be a habit
now my aura speaks volumes
I overcame the path of being delusional
came across puddles of confusion
I realized that the path of success
evolved through the struggle
I'm a real one
I think you're hip.