I never expected to find you
Even as you lay in my tense grip
Even as we make love in the moonlight
It doesn't feel real
We are scarred
We are flawed
And yet,
We are happy

It's Thursday,
We sit in the living room
You start grinding the ****
I watch, patiently
In awe of your beauty
Not just your physical appearance,
The beauty in your demeanor
The way you carry yourself
You look up at me
I stare, blankly
We laugh

We got married
Secretly
We lost a child
Secretly
The best moment
And the worst
I would've drowned in self pity
If you hadn't saved me from myself
Thank you for staying

Thank you for loving me.

It happens unexpectedly
When I'm making us breakfast
Eggs, bacon
Maybe hash browns if I feel like it
No matter the moment
It's the same feeling
One I'm not used to
I've been happy before
I've felt fearless
This is different
This is... wholesome
It's as if anything can happen
Anything,
And I know we'd be okay
I think for the first time in my life
I'm choosing someone other than myself
I want this
And like the others,
It'll work until it doesn't
But I want this to work
Till the very end
I think that's the difference

Failure is a virtue
Or at least that's what they say when they hurt you
I'm here and I'm open
You tryna steer and I'm coastin'
The words won't solve it
I run on emotion,
I'm starving
For the part of you I can't see
The **** that made you bleed
I know he's in there
Scared to share his cross to bare
So don't leave me guessing
Matter of fact, stop stressing
Because I'm here for good
And I love you--
Probably way more than I should

I feel it coming
It’s creeping up like a spoiled step daughter
My guard is down
My armor shed
I’m naked,
Exposed to love
& the pain that comes with it

I feel it coming
Loves reckoning
Please,
Take pity on me

Baby,
I know you love me
I feel it
As your body sways
Every word,
Every touch
Attempted to break these walls
At first it was bliss
What once felt fun,
Free
Now feels foreign
I don’t want to be here
I can’t be here
I’m sorry

I’m your final attempt
At love, at commitment
You are growing older
So you asked me a question
And I answered, willingly
Though, I can’t help but wonder
Is it us against the world
Or you,
Alone against the world
Racing against the clock

My feelings lie
Somewhere between
Freedom and devotion
Do I let myself fall
Or fly
Do they mean the same
When you're involved