She is outgoing
Beautifully suave
Confident in all the right ways

I am alone
Eating microwave pizza
Imagining a life I don't have

You have a gun
He has a gun
She has a gun
Now the power you once felt while holding that metal death machine is faded away by the power of his
So,
What now?

Certain individuals dedicate their lives to achieve such a title
Others simply idolize those they wish they could be while standing shyly in the shadows
But most,
Most people just want to be accepted.

As a race,
We were limitless
Unstoppable, even
We took life by the horns.
Nowadays,
We matter very little
It's a dog eat dog mentality
Human life is consistently disrespected by its inhabitants
And this is not the way it was meant to be,
No,
It is the way we have made it.

It was her
Her gleaming eyes became irresistible to him
His underlying emotional demeanor was obvious to her
She slid herself into his heart
It was not just a game,
It was a way for her to find love
For her, love meant taking hold of another mans heart,
Suffocating it
Squeezing it
And finally, crushing it.

She was it
She was that girl who hurt so badly that she could never love again
She destroyed every decent man in her path
This vicious cycle became a quick fix
For at any point in time,
She could always fish for more.

One step, two steps
Steady breaths
Emotional thoughts
Problems
Solutions
More problems
Better solutions
I can see the finish line
Exhaustion
Tranquility
And finally,
Silence.

Lack of self confidence
We morph into the people surrounding us
Then they ask us who we are
Silence

I think of all the horrible events in my life
Isn't that the answer
Everything sad or traumatic
So we can continue to sulk in our pathetic lives
"My pain is worse than yours"

But what about our successes
It seems almost unnatural
In a world tainted by weakness and destruction
Why can't we absorb the light?