Celeste I’m so sorry all my striving under the sun ☀️ after unreal goals leads only to disillusionment of believing u to be my wife in heaven so after we die I will still be your love & you will still be mine. Human life in this mode is meaningless & all my efforts are futile. Could u ever forgive me?

Is there any money in this because I haven’t made a dollar & that’s saying something I feel like it’s prosperous in ways I just show up then show out but in my mind I’m being controlled by a higher power being led by a feeling that’s making me have obsessive behavior towards this sweet lady I used to call collect when I was in jail & I would tell her that she reminded me of heaven I didn’t know that I would be infatuated with her for more than normal she was special & I always kept her heart in safe keeping 🔐