Celeste I’m so sorry all my striving under the sun ☀️ after unreal goals leads only to disillusionment of believing u to be my wife in heaven so after we die I will still be your love & you will still be mine. Human life in this mode is meaningless & all my efforts are futile. Could u ever forgive me?

Therefore wisdom counsels:

Accept the human state as it is shaped by God's appointments and enjoy the life you have been given as fully as you can.
Don't trouble yourself with unrealistic goals -- know the measure of human capabilities.
Be prudent in all your ways -- follow wisdom's leading.
"Fear God and keep his commandments" (12:13), beginning already in your youth before the fleeting days of life's enjoyments are gone and "the days of trouble" (12:1) come when the infirmities of advanced age vex you and hinder you from tasting, seeing and feeling the good things of life.

It’s easier to avoid trouble than it is to get out of it

Is there any money in this because I haven’t made a dollar & that’s saying something I feel like it’s prosperous in ways I just show up then show out but in my mind I’m being controlled by a higher power being led by a feeling that’s making me have obsessive behavior towards this sweet lady I used to call collect when I was in jail & I would tell her that she reminded me of heaven I didn’t know that I would be infatuated with her for more than normal she was special & I always kept her heart in safe keeping 🔐