I thought it was over
Done with
The feelings
The urges
They are still here
I thought it was only for you
I thought I only needed to get rid of you
With you gone the fighting is over
I never have to pretend to not see the bruises again
She is smiling now
But you have a friend
Actually you might not know him but you are the same
And she is the same
I think i have to help her too
I will make her smile again

I shovel the last lump of dirt into place
I thought once you were buried
I would feel...something
Happy
Maybe even free
But I feel nothing
Nothing is a constant for me
but now
you and I are the same
Hollow inside
Your soul has departed from this world
And mine
well I'm not sure I ever had one to begin with

I never imagined you
to be this heavy
I thought I was stronger
I also thought you would be lighter
Guess I'm wrong on both counts
To think once we die we would be lighter
Since nothing of this world is weighing us down anymore
Unless...you just leave it all behind
The pain, anger, sadness, heartbreak
All of that stays here
Where it should be
That must be why you are so heavy now
You are still dumping all your problems on me even after you are gone

I'm standing now
In the corner of all places
I'm trying to remember walking here
My hands are shaking
I can't explain why
I haven't felt this calm in...well ever
Its the silence
As if it is it's own entity
It has created a serene and tranquil atmosphere around me
Now that I look around it seems I've done some cleaning too
The sea is gone
But you are still there
Your hair is darker
I guess you went for a swim
It looks nice on you

The first thing that registers is the warmth
The feeling of it on my hands
It's revitalizing
Like a cure
Spreading through my veins
Bringing dead cells back to life
Then the color
I was never able to imagine the red sea
But now it is in front of me
Spilling and spewing
From...you
Now there is only you
What to do with you?

I promised not to fall
So you held on tightly
Your arms always wrapped around me
You could have been my armor then
I though I was sturdy
I wanted to be strong
But I felt my knees giving way to my surroundings
I felt my feet blistering from the paths I've chosen
I knew I was going down
I knew I needed to tell you
So you could land on your feet
But my mouth couldn't open
Until the ground was right in front of us