May I begin to say, "Now I lay me down to sleep,"                     as
You just stand there staring blankly, "I pray the Lord my

Soul to keep,"                      and as I chant these words
Out of these painful lips.                      You begin to
Understand this silence, and pain.                   And
Longing to find any truth left in this trouble world.         You join me with

Trying to figure
Out why people are always running. Running to nowhere-land.            STOP!

Take a breath.             Take a moment for yourself.
And "if I die before I wake"...                I will
Keep this positive mind, because In. The.
End; Positive thoughts will conquer all! And ..."I pray the Lord my SOUL to take."


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*Now I lay me down to sleep,
                                                 I pray the Lord my soul to keep,
                                                           ­                                         if I die before I wake
                                   I pray the Lord MY. SOUL. TO. TAKE.

Down in the valley,
I* scream out to you.
And in an instant I ask
Myself why.                        *Why do I do this to myself?
Our time is long gone..Will I ever be able to "say goodbye to my weakness"? As
Now, I can say "so long to the regrets" I have had.                      And as I go
Down to this Wonderland; a place I found, a while back, where

Everything is simply and beautiful.                                    My place.
Yesterday's problems are long gone.                 When
Each new day comes, I greet the sun with a
Smile. And remember to keep a positive mind, and everything will be fine.

Quack!...Random I know. As I love to be random.
Under the old Cork Tree far off in Wonderland on
An Island working in my Lab.                 Being
Random is great because when I say something
And it's out of context, it's funny---if you say it right.
Now talking about being random is random itself.      As
Time goes flying by,
I** get older by the minute... See ~Random.~
Now I should end this before it gets to long....
Everyday is a chance to be random and make someone smile.

Each day, when I wake, ready for the new day. I try and find the
X, the one that marks the spot of
Eternity and Dreams. In the land of make believe.
Come to this land, this island--that's so
Utterly beautiful. Words can't describe it.
Time is money, or is money time? Who knows?    But for
Each day I live** it will be with a smile on my face.

In a dream,
Nothing like this.
Coming to reality, but
Everything is so strange.
People always
Telling me which way to go.       All
I* want is to go back to my *dream land.
Only than wanting to go back to reality.
None-the-less this is how I dream.
                                                          ­                                ?


                       ­                  "Dreams feel real while we're in them. It's only when we
                                      wake up that we realize something was actually strange."
                                                      ­                                                    ~Cobb (Inception)

Twenty years ago,
I was born.
St. Patrick's Day was the day.
So what do I have to celebrate?
Well there's many things--I started life rough.
And was behind, but, in high school, I got caught up.

Middle School years;
I was so young- so naive.
High School tears;
Brought the tears- I began to understand more about life and myself.
And I owe part of that to Fall Out Boy,
But also myself---for putting up with all my crap.

Fall Out Boy is the music that stays by my side,
And WCYY is the radio station that's always on.

I love cheese cake (especially chocolate chip).
I love being random and I love music!
And if anyone has a problem with that,
Well you don't have to be friends with me. I am who I am.

My friends are great; though they tease me sometimes. (like all true friends do)
I am an original, fun-loving person who loves
music, poetry, animals, LOST, and being around friends.

I am either the Quiet One, Dreams A lot, the one who has lots to say, Abby, or Pikachu.

Screaming just to save myself, as
I** run from my troubles.                 But running's not enough.
Goodbye to everything and everyone I
Have known my whole life.                                 Things have changed.

Now is the moment to                  FIGHT,
Or die trying!                This is my moment to             LIVE!

My moment to fight!
Only time will be able to tell me to              MOVE ON.
Ready for the new day and with
Each breath I breathe,                                           I wouldn't change a thing.

As I lay here thinking back to the days;

When everything was simply and alright;                   Wondering
How this all happen.              Some days I do.... really
I* do, want to go back, but I know I can't for
This is where I'm suppose to be;          This is where it is at.
Everyday I wake up, make some

Breakfast, and greet the new day.       Ready to
Live, I put on my pants, shirt, and
A smile to keep me moving through the day.                  Keeping the
Negative thoughts from my mind,   it's hard,    but
Keeping those thoughts away,       most of the time,

Prevents a lot of crap and stuff from happening.
And so here I lay as the last thoughts of the day
Goes rushing through my head;
Everyone will be fine,                     **In. The. End.

"So tell me now, where was my fault/In loving you with my whole heart"
Tell me the truth -- and only the truth.
Right now that is what I need,
And I need a restart.
I'm sorry for all I've done, but I must say
Goodbye to this lonely cold
Heart, that once belong
To you. You had me at hello, you had me, you had

Everything, but you lost it in one not-so-smooth move.
Do you ever wish we were still together?        Well I do, sometimes, but
Goodbye to what we were, it was nice knowing you.
Even in these lonely days, I wouldn't change a thing.

                                                         ­        "A white blank page and a swelling rage
                                                         You did not think when sent me to the brink
                                            You desired my attention but denied my affections."
"And I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck
And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again"

So
As
You can see,

All I wanted was you, and
Now I got nothing.             And
Yet I have everything.          It's the little
Things in life that matter.
However, being with you was the greatest moment
In my life, but I will find someone who means so much more.
Now; I will just sit here and watch the sun as it
Goes down, only to wait until it raises to greet a new day*.

Come one, come all.      Are you
Ready?     The night when
It's all about
The music!     All I can see and all
I* can hear, is MUSIC!
Can one night really change the future of music?
And the answer is yes.
Longing to go

And see it myself, live, in person.
Coming and going of the performing artists,
Coming and going of the awards and speeches.
Last chance to see who wins
And who performs together.
I love the Grammy's!* The one night it's all about
Music! The one award show I can't miss.

Silence is
Everywhere, even
In the middle of the night,when people are dreaming and going
"ZZZZZzzzzzz..." all night long.
Every day is a new day. ---

Time to change and start something new.
How can we bring peace to this world?
Each day--little by little-

Day by day; We can do it!
And to wrap this up, I want to say, Happy Birthday to
You, Jimmy Sullivan.---You truely live foREVer!** <3

Moments of truth when
Everything starts to fall apart.

As I lay here,
Gazing up at the stars;
As I get ready to drift off to sleep;
I* wonder about life and love, in the darkest hour of the
Night. *Are we ever gonna have peace, in this world?
So as I lay here wondering, in
Time, we will have peace in the world, again, someday.

The time to sleep
Has come and gone; in
Each hour...

Week...and month, I stay up later and later.
Oh nostalgia, what are you doing to me?
Running from this
Lonely world--- Please
Don't give up on me.

When times get
Hard, the going gets writing.
And the times are hard, but
Things get worst before they get any better.

As a bruise is when it's healing.

Coming from a young person with no where to go,
As I run from this creature.
This big, dark creature who's
Chasing me, there's no where to
Hide, or so it thinks...

Down the street...nope, it's right behind me.
On the roof...nah, it's there too.
No where to turn,
No where to go, oh but wait...
I* got my secret place, but d*amn it! It's
Even there as well--in my writing. *In my place.

Nothing can come between us; just give us a chance.
Every day, I wonder did I make the right choice? And
Every day I will win some and lose some.
Don't give up when you lose, take it with

You and use it as fuel to fight back and win.
Others will lose and win some, as well; it's a part of life. To
Understand the true meaning is impossible, but I say

Nothing's impossible when you put your mind to it.
Others will say to you, you can't, but you can,
W**hen you put your mind to it--it's Mind Over Matter.

And now in the middle of the night, Please
Come back to me.          All my memories.
Running no where fast, running
Only to escape this monster, but you
See, the monster is slightly faster.
The moment is everything and
I** will be fine. I
Can beat this monster, in the end.

People hate,
Only time will tell---
Everything will be alright.
M**emories, please come back to me.

My eyes are weary,
my time is pain.
How can I stop these tears,
that fall down like rain?
Only time knows when the road is bright again.
Only faith knows when we'll talk again.
So let's dance tonight and live like there's no tomorrow.

Music is...
                   Energy for my soul.
                   Peacefulness when I need to calm down.
                   And medicine when I can't take it anymore.

So you see I need music, like normal people need friends and family.

Ready to live---
Every day's a new beginning, a new
S**** to life.
Time begins again &

I'm ready to live
Now come with me &

Peace can live too & the
Earth can live too
And we will take
Care of her for
E**ternity!

Tomorrow's
Always a new day,
Keep remembering
Everyday is a new chance to live.

Always remember that someone loves you.

Breathe---just breathe, take it all in.
Relax,
Enjoy life for what it is,
And don't have fun just
To make something of yourself
H**ave fun because you can ---
                                                               and don't work to much ---
                                               just work because you can get money.

And as I was driving along; almost
Losing control, over an inspirational thought.
Many times that has happen, but    I am fine ---
Only I need to get this down on paper
Soon before I explode!    I realized as we go
Through life, the past is crystal clear, like my back window,

Evenings, I can still see the past, but the future, like my front window,
As ***** as can be, is blurry and hard to look through and
Sitting from within, all comfy and warm I watch as I past
Yesterday* and I move on to tomorrow, living for **today.

I* will sit             here,                                alone,

Wondering how I am going to do this,     but
"I will not bow, I will not break."                       As
Long as I have this life and as
Long as        I am breathing;         I will fight.             And

Now is the time to help
Others because even if I am in dept
There are other people who have it       *worst.

But I can't help them quite yet as much as I would love too..
Only time can tell, but first I
Will have to help myself;      *No running.        I will be fine.

2 million way to go                                green.
0 number of people we want to

Die for a reason we can        easily fix.
Only time will tell, but in this
Late hour, please explain to me,                  What is time?
Longing to live               peacefully,
Again, when times were            simpler          and the
Rain didn't fall so hard.

Now sitting underneath this
Old Cork Tree,
Shaded from the falling rain; the
Evening looking beautiful, I call out, "Give me a pen & call me, Mrs.

Benzedrine!"                                              ­And now
Laughing; soaking wet, from         standing in the rain.
Everywhere I go, people look at me like     I'm a nobody...
Even though,    I'm more of a somebody    then    them.
Don't lose  control   on reality.....  *it's all a dream, anyways.

Then I wake--
Having the *worst nightmare of my life.
Either it was about *losing my mind, or my touch of
Reality. I know I'm already on a fine line with reality, anyways.
Every night I have this

Same nightmare.       What am I to do?
How can I make it stop?               Who do I call?
Everywhere I look I see people being               corrupted,

Going nowhere fast.     When is this going to stop?
Only time knows the answer.      I'll just have to wait.
Eternity should come soon and together we can
S****        a               new                   *beginning.

Come here,
And together, we can do this!
Let's start the
Movement!

Beware for others do not agree, as
Everyone has their own                    opinions.
From now until eternity, we are all
"Others," (like in LOST) just trying to                   survive.
Ready..Set.....Stop! What are you doing?
Everywhere you turn there's guns..Does anyone   remember

The world as a peaceful, beautiful place?      *No?*     Well
Hate and Fear, has consume us and took over
Each one of us.....But there are

Still some out
There, where Hate and Fear hasn't consume them, but yet
Only fueled them to stand up against          Hate and Fear.
Ready..Set..Let's stop this Hate and Fear from growing any-
More-I mean Hate is only hat with an 'e' & *Fear is an ear with a 'f''.

When the time comes, will
Eternity mean forever? Will
Love be true? How
Can something so little, mean so much?
Only time will be the answer to the
Meaning of life.
Everything will play out in

The end.
Oh, time-What an interesting subject, and

My, oh, my how things have changed--
Yesteryear has come and gone. So

Let's dance and live like
It's the last night on Earth. So
For now, it's just you and I and
E**ternity is still forever!

Let us have just
One more night together before this all ends. From the
Very moments when I first looked into your
Eyes, I thought that this would be                              forever.

Isn't that how first loves goes,       *anyways?
Searching for love and longing for that                true love.*

Down in the valley; I won't stop searching.
Everywhere I go, I'll look; I will find you         someday.
And when that
Day comes, it will be wonderful.

No where to go. Lost in this
Open field, of life, and it's just me.    Here.                    Alone.
Been searching for that place to call home.
Only, what is  home?
Don't give up!
You can do it. Just believe in yourself! You got the
Strength to go on.

Home is where the heart is--that's home.
Open and free, loving and caring. No
Matter where the road takes you; Remember
E**veryone will struggle in life and we will all get through it.

My Religion - Music is Life

Fall Out Boy-
Patrick-God
Andrew(Andy)-Jesus
Joseph(Joe)-Angel
Peter(Pete)­-Angel

Good Charlotte-
Benjamin(Benji)-God's left hand
Joel-God's right hand
Paul-Angel
William(Billy)-Angel
Drummers; the 3 wise men
Deano- Past drummer: Chris, and Aaron

Avenged Sevenfold-
M. Shadows-Angel
Synyster Gates-Angel
Zacky Vengeance-Jesus' left hand
Johnny Christ-Jesus' right hand
The Rev (Angel)-Rev. Tholomew Plague or simply Rev. Jimmy

They only equal to what god, jesus, angels, etc would be or are..
Music is my religion.

Let Me Have My Music
and I'll be okay!

No One Can Take
My Music Away!

"Your word is a lamp for my feet
and a light for my path."

For music is the light
that will guide my feet
down the path.

Fall Out Boy, Good Charlotte, and Avenged Sevenfold
are my God(s), for
MUSIC is my religion.
And that's my life.
Without FOB & GC in my life
I don't know where I would be--
I owe a lot more to GC where they got me into FOB & A7X,
but FOB saved my life when I went through my suicidal days.
To that Thank You-
FOB and GC! and A7X!
I love you guys, FOREVER!
My angel. My savior.
My RELIGION.

"How can a young person stay pure?
By obeying your word and following its rules.

I have tried my best to find you--
don't let me wander from your commands.

I have hidden your word in my heart,
that I might not sin against you."

Children have the purist souls,
we must protect that until they are old enough to understand life more.
I may not be religious, but I love this quote in the Psalm story and
I love scanning the bible for quotes.

Only time will tell
For you and me;
And I don't want to sit here and say "Oh, Well,"
So let's show them what we can be.

For some, true love is easy to find,
While for others, have to work to find love;
So tell me, will you fight for us, this time,
Or will you let it remain unsolved?

Time and time again
I find myself getting lost within,
But when I'm with you, I feel no pain
And I just want this to begin.

So in time,
Will you be mine?

The words just come to me flying high
And lay on this page by,
This red ink of my favorite weapon
It is my most prize possession.

I mostly write in acrostics,
About most, are poems of what makes me ticked.
But from time to time you can hear me rhyme,
It just won't be all the tyme.

So hear me out, listen clearly now for time has come,
The days have grown shorter and it seems like everyone has a gun.
But I'll stay here with my most lethal weapon,
No, I won't do you any harm, just get your hands off my favorite possession.

Bring all your
Used cds, dvds, & games &
Let's trade. Here's the place to sell all your cds, dvds, & games.
Let's help you find the

Music, movies, or games that you want.
Only at Bull Moose is where you can find great deals
On any cds, dvds, games, & even records.
So come on in, where
E**veryone will welcome you & help you find what you need.

Bull Moose; where music is our business!

Now is the time to do something,
And now is the time to stand for something. I never
Knew I would be here, where
Everything is on the line and with each
Day I get closer to the edge.

How did this happen? Why are people,
Every where, going crazy? Why
Are some people afraid of change?
T**ime, what is time?

"It's 4:03 and I can't sleep."
From all the memories I have of'

You, I swear,
Oh, "I swear I've lived and learned." If you only
Understand, I never wanted it to be like this.

Oh how the times come and go and
Now I sit here, refusing to
Let you go. I don't regret the days, or the night I've spent with
You--You helped me live and learn. "If you only

Knew, I still hold onto the letters you returned."
Now, I am free and someday you'll see I was probably your
Everything, but it's done-we're done, and
"Whatever happened, happened."

Longing to go to an island, that is wide
Open---where no one can
See you and have a hard
Time trying to find you.
I* am just a *Lostie stuck in
Every day reality.

Oh, Romeo!** Here I stand, Counting the Days until I meet you. I can only picture that day for now.
In the Middle of the Night, holding each other, the way I've dream about it, and saying, "Death can not tear us apart!"
Until that day, my love, I will wait here and say How I Feel in my heart felt poems with titles such as, "My letter to you," "True Love," and "Baby."
I will find you and we shall know that this is "Real Life" because there will be a Standing Ovation just for us.
Life is...magical; anything can happen when you believe in your dreams.

In this Nightmare where Today Feels Like Lies, I see Joe Jonas and he tells me, it's Time to Dance.
And Oh look, there's Peter! Pete tells me, that Music is Life! But I already knew this.
And there's Jimmy Sullivan--The Rev tells me, Don't Jump. I won't. I don't want to be Buried Alive. ----
"I just wanna live while I'm alive 'Cause it's my life."
Avenged Sevenfold is the Cardiology that keeps my heart beating.
Now What If... this was real and not a Dream?
Let's just Dance for **Tonight.

Alice in Wonderland** --
Who is This Person?
This person who, says things like, "I'm investigating things that begin with the letter M," and "Have you any idea why a raven is like a writing desk?"
He asks Alice a lot of questions and says funny sayings.
But by doing this he helps her find her place in this Life and helps her forget the Drama and Time.
So who is it?
Someone who has a lot of Memories and very good advice.
...give up?
Why it's The Mad Hatter.
The Mad Hatter does this because simply he wants order in Underland and he needs Alice's help to uncrowned The Red Queen.

Where I can go to My Secret Place and get inspired by Dorothy Parker's Resume.
Where I can write about Nathan Fillion, and Joseph Adam Jonas all I want.
Where I can quote Richard Castle, >>even though he's not real.<<  
Where it can be Just One of Those Days and pouring Rain, but not at my place.
Where my Secrets are safe, and it's nothing but the Truth. And throughout the truth, I find myself.
Where I can write about ****** and it is okay.
Where I am in Control of the Rock & the Roll.
Where I can write some of the Best poetry.
Where I don't say F.M.L., How Can We Say it's Over?, or feel Invisible.
Where I will never feel Alone in the Hallways ever again.
Where I can talk to My Baby Boy.
Where I can embrace my Irish Pride!! And feel good.
Where I can make up stuff about New York and a Boy with his Perfect Life.
Where I can go to complete **Abby's Song.

What if...
Heaven was
A** dream and
Time was stoppable.

If all our dreams came true, we would
Forever be grateful--but that doesn't happen.

In the middle of the
Night,

The darkness is
Here
Even in my room,

My ferrets are sleeping and
I** probably should too.
Down, we go
Down underneath the roots,
Love comes from
Everything,

On with this
Feeling,

This feeling of love,
Here we lay forever
Eternity; here in the

Night
I lay awake, ready to sleep, so
Goodnight, as I lay
Here waiting for
Tomorrow to come so I can see you.

Here's to the kids who cry when they're all alone.
Here's to the kids who gives everyone a chance, but they don't give themselves a chance.
Here's to the kids who understand.
Here's to the kids who stand for what they believe in.
Here's to the kids that won't let others push them around.
Here's to the kids who are not afraid using message boards.
Here's to all the kids just like me.

My eyes are weary,
my time is pain.
How can I stop these tears,
that fall down like rain?
Only time knows when the road
is bright again.
Only faith knows when
we'll talk again.
So let's dance tonight
and live like there's
no tomorrow.

Life is a river, calm and winding.
Most of the time the ride is smooth and calm,
but there will be bumps and corners to pass,
and the water will get rough and scary.
We'll be okay in the end--
We'll make it down the river.

you turn on the news,
it says: "teenage girl; dead"
it was no game
it was ******
there's no body (yet)
and only few clues
who ever did it
knew what to do
and live like it
never happen
IT WAS ******
she was just walking,
walking home from school
when he spotted her
it was ******
she will never see her
family on Earth--only
from her heaven
it was ******
it will never be the same
because...
**it was ******.

Slit one I'm bleeding,
Slit two I'm falling,
Slit three I'm dying,
Someone, Save me please!
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Everyone has "those days," where they want to die,
but some actually follow through with "those days,"
they don't see the good things coming.

Why do we feel this way? I don't know.
Is it apart of life? Yes.
But there's some who get saved at like the last minute,
Can we get-feel better? **maybe, but just remember *look ahead, not back.