I loved you so much slowly but surely being in your embrace became my home. Now your gone and I wander my memories looking for the home I fell so deeply in love with.

You used to kiss my forehead and tell me everything is okay.
You used to hold me close and love my body with all of its imperfections.
You used to whisper goodnight.
You used to give me hope.
Now I cry and the sound of your name and the sight of anything you have touched.

Every time I talk to you.
Every time you make me smile.
Every laugh we share.
I fall in love with you again.
Even as I tell you I've moved on.
I hold onto the hope that you will come back to me.

Your smiles? They tear me apart. Your silence? Kills my dreams. Your eyes...? Well now your eyes are my biggest weakness. They break me down till I'm nothing but stardust and atoms.

Why do you torture me so with those eyes of yours with promises of forever I will never get.

Looking in your eyes as we pass each other by
I ask myself

"Are you as lost as me?.."

You promised to stay
The night you left
I collapsed to the floor
Sick to my stomach
I threw up
How could someone I loved so much
Be so cruel?