And in my love for you I lost myself. Now I'm stuck in an ever looping cycle trying to find who I was.

Sleep kills the need for reality

"i love you" he says
you believe it is true
He says it every night
he says it only to you
he gives you kisses
and touches your skin
he gives you the hope
you had lost from within
he never leaves your side
makes a point to be there
until one day, the mask falls
his true intent is left bare
you were his pity project
nothing more than a joke
he never loved you
just didn't want to see you choke
he did it to give his own life meaning
making a fool out of you
wonders why when you find out
you seem to feel so blue
so be careful all who read
my cautionary tale
don't believe every "i love you"
maybe the mask has yet to fail...

i kissed your lips expecting sugar
but got a mouth full of lies

Platonic love is all I ever felt for you..

Small little child
so naive and trusting
the boy in the pool
may seem friendly but hes lusting
don't stay in the water
after all your friends have left
no one will hear you scream
he will just call it a jest
no one believes you
hes a good boy in town
yet you know that his hands
went way to far down
the struggle is useless
hes way older than you
remember little angel
just don't be too blue
laugh it off
everyone else will
telling your parents?
only they scoff
silly little girl
so naive and trusting
the boy in the pool
may seem friendly but hes lusting

Ive been gone for a while
It seems I lost my flow
The worst
The best
Attacking at once
Filling the empty void in me
The words are always there
A river carving paths trough my brain
And into my heart


*Oh how I missed you sweet freedom...