Apologies
Apologies
Apologies.
They're all i ever say.
As if everything is my fault
I say them every day.
You look at me
You know the words well
I say them every second
My self esteem fell
Apologies
Apologies
Apologies
they're all i ever say

secrets and lies
washed away
in the waters of time.

Her eyes were like the waters
Of crystal clear shores
Her skin as pale as the white lillies
Growing outside our doors
Her movement was as graceful
As light snowflakes dancing on air
She was so beautiful
I couldnt help but stare
She loved the night sky
The stars full of beauty
I decided to protect her
As if it was my duty
She was full of innocence
She loved everything and everyone
She ran through the meadows
Underneath the evening sun
Her hugs were like magic
Of all the best kinds
She seemed to plant seeds of kindness
In everyones minds
This girl is special to me
She gives me something to live for
In her I believe.

i have no friends
im all alone.
i live in my house
but it isnt my home.
im in the closet.
i wont come out.
my family is judgemental.
they'll scream and shout.
i look for help,
in the comfort of words.
thats where i found her.
her name is poetry,
she makes the pain blur.
she turms my words
into paragraphs of beauty.
she tells me to continue
like its my duty.
i found a girl i can love
her name is poetry.
Shes the only girl
ill be able to love openly.

I'm a murderer you see,
I killed the little girl i used to be.
My hair has darkened,
My laughter has fled.
I lost all intrests,
I barely leave my bed.
The world lost its colour,
Everything seems gray.
I drown myself in books,
Just to make it through the day.
The stories, the worlds,
Everything was so new.
Powers and creatures,
My book collection grew.
I never look at anyone,
I never say a word.
I just locked myself in rooms,
For an amount of time that was absurd.
I am a murderer you see,
I killed the girl i used to be....

i learned to love
i learned to die
i never learned to say goodbye
i learned to walk
i learn to run
i seem to have found a gun
i have no practice
i know im not sane
but im aiming for my brain