A year gone by
Nothing ever the same
Not a day goes by
When your memory not recalled by
Legends leave a vacuum
Never can be filled
Routine helps  keep sanity
Your presence gave vanity
Pursuing ones goals
You are the playbook
Realising them wish
You lived longer to tell
Table tennis and life not the same
Your absence felt every second
Your presence in my feelings
And guiding my thoughts
Makes living a lot easy
Having seen you play for 7 years
Practice or match
First row seats to witness
God greatest  gift
Thank you for everything
Greatest player to play the game
If Kamlesh Mehta calls you King
What more praise is there to sing
Your presence i feel
Anywhere i be
I pay my respects to you
Everyday on the table
Before playing the first ball
Thank you for everything
Called me hour brother many times
Today my life is great
Not written in my fate
Your wishes have brought me here
You would have been most happy to hear
My new job which i hold dear
Good souls helping me out
Giving opportunities which makes me full
Will do justice every ball played
Isn't that what you thought me for a decade
Pray for your happiness
Wherever you are
May you find peace
Like you found fame

Last day of life
Lived in this universe
Hopefully by then
I'd have regrets none
Grateful for the experiences
Made me understand the nuances
That's what living is about
Took me long enough to figure it out
I will be nervous for sure
Knowing that death is near
Examples of bravery
That is read dearly
I'd replay it my head
Trying to wean of my cowardice
The philosophy id internalised
I would try to bring it alive
Great thinkers views of death
Hopefully would give my mind some peace and quiet
Not knowing what awaits
The other side of life
Would probably convince myself
Better there than the travails of life
Another day to pass
Will certainly not be my outlook
I'd rather not know that end is near
Only increases the bottled up fear
Accommodative to my loved ones
I'd be both gone and missing them
The day would pass by quickly
I'll make it longer with my memory
Life is a dream
I'm not the body or the  mind
It treats everyone the same
It's the end to a new beginning
All these ideologies
I have read in detail
Can I practice this
And see if it entails what it promises to entail
The only thing
Id be excited about
The answer I've been seeking
I'm now near its whereabouts
Matter of time
Before i know the answers
To the myth of reality
Which is going to present itself in all its glory
The last thing i would want
Comes as a shock
Time to leave as told
I would be praying for a miracle to unfold

Unable to forget
Never left my thoughts
In the first place
Concentrated thought focussing on you
Or even while meandering
Wanders around you
Easiest solution is to tell you
I tell myself everytime
The next time is the last time
I going to return with my feelings
Heart heavy and hurting
Standing before you
My heart racing
Memory the last thing
That is working
Want to make
An impression on you
Every second wasted
Your presence erases my thought process
When will I get my act together
Or die a loner
Not a crime to like a woman
Am i feeling guilty
Do i feel unworthy
Or am i afraid of rejection
Veil of shyness
To protect myself
From knowing your true emotion
Guessing all the time
Not knowing what you are thinking
Hoping for a miracle
If it were to happen
It would have already happened
It hasnt flown smoothly
Which if something you have to get
Always does
The more the lack of clarity
The longer it takes to reach a finality
Wouldn't even want to let myself wander in those woods
Prayer is for cowards
In my case only ratifies it
God not your messenger
Glowing in all directions
Your heart reflecting every second
Let me leave it to destiny
If it is to be so be it
If it is not to be
Add one more Atheist
Easiest to blame
God for the same
For he decides fate
Of he is fate

No past or future
How does one not have a past
If he treats everything as present
It ceases every moment
As present turns its hide from real
Which it is
To the unreal
Which it becomes
Under a another name
Such a person has conquered time
Or realised that time is only a concept of time
Gone by no longer existing
Yet to come not existing
Has an option to play
Need not come
Such a person is aware
And it does not matter
Something that does not exist
Cannot matter
Passed by or Awaited
Non existing reality
The acts done have a history
Not to be confused with the Actors repository
Can't write a review for his earlier roles
When he's performing one now
Role exists player doesn't
Roles written player undecided
Role now performing
Now no more
As quick as that
Aware of this
One leaves no trace
Of his time spent
Here on this universe
We call birth and death
Living playing a brief Interlude
To connect the two

Yesterday night
Two friends
Alone together
Got into their car
Pedaled it afar
To the graveyard
For a lively party
Their dead friends birthday
They reached an hour late
Bang on time
Stayed sober by drinking
Woke up late as eyes didn't close a wink
The climb down was tough
As they were starving on a full stomac
The deafening silence enroute
Even though it was a short distance
Made a rightful mistake
Of turning the wrong side

Going straight in reverse
The found their way
Was the rightful opposite way
Which they found immediately in a day

Bumped into a truck
On an empty highway
Reached their homes
Which was broken to
By thieves who took
Away their valuables
Spent the next 6 hours
Searching for their keys
They needed to enter

Burden and sorrow
Are the guards to your gate
Knocking on it
Going to enter anyway
Denying permission is
Living in lala land
Let it come
Occupy some
Space in the mind
Don't waste your time
Uninvited guests they are
Dwelling on them
Gives the more strength
Delays their departure
Use the strength and time
Used to dwell upon
On the issue
That granted them
Visa to enter
Your own end
Bear it with strength
Pray to god
To give you the heart
Think of the millions
Behind you in the line
Get happiness out of that
Find peace till the end of time

Woke up today
Thank God for that
Had a good night's sleep
Indebted for allowing that
Had my cup of coffee
More than contended

A roof over my head
How many can claim that
Eternally grateful for the kindness
Food on the table
Whenever the stomach requested
Provided in full
Obliged to you
Whatever has happened
Is the best outcome you have granted
Relationships in symphony
Synchrony you help validate
Deeply appreciative for ceding
Contended fulfilled clear
That's my life today
Humbled by the generosity
Nothing to ask
Everything given without any pre condition
There for me to experience
Live life the only expectation
The mind in between
Sows seeds of questions
Help me understand
That a gift is to be celebrated
And shared
Not taken with an attitude of i don't care
Noticed that the universe
Had performed its functions well
As the world outside
Was bustling with activity
Overwhelmed in the least
A big thank you
For giving me the life
With the best help to tend



A life to lead only awareness to
To be
Thank you Thank you Thank you