I am the word hypocrite
In human form

I tell others to be strong
and yet I still mourn

"There's light at the end of the tunnel"
    I say

While they move towards
I can only stay

My legs like stone
my heart, a castle

Hypocrite in human form
My being remains a daily hassle

I'll try my hardest
to live a happy life

I'll try my hardest
to not deceive myself

Maybe someday things will turn out
for the best

I'll do my best

So, someday
We'll become friends again.

On that illuminating night,
They realized their feelings of love

My time has come
Do not grieve
God wanted me now
He set me *free

I hide my feelings in a box
However
What if it got out?
If it came into reach
where I could touch it anytime
I would damage it
If that's the case I'd rather..

I'd rather put my hands away

You who loved me incompletely
You who's  love came in many different forms

I could no longer live with that imperfect love
I wished for you to hate me with all yourself
But you could not do so

No matter what destruction I did to your life
You still only filled me with incomplete love

Until we suffocate too much
This pretend love with continue on

And our facade of memories
Will live with time
Why the sweet love wilts.

Inspiring poets with
their ink ridden hearts
and bleeding pens.

No the voices that scare me
Aren't from the people that I dread
No these voices that I'm scared of
Are the ones inside my head

My mind said you loved me
My heart said the opposite

It was the way he said her name
       as if there were no other

The way his eyes would sparkle
       as it was clear his heart would flutter

Although she continued loving him
       she knew his love was for another

You who's eyes lost their light

You who lost all will to fight

Next time I open my eyes

I will see your loving smile

And You must promise me

You will always give me that wistful smile

As I begin my Journey of loving you

Don't cry my darling
My small little child
You're not the only one
There is probably another
child like you who is
upset because they feel
nobody sees them.

Become the person
who recognizes that
other child.

Only those who aren't kind
never realize they lack kindness.

The only way your heart will mend
Is when you learn to love again

Love will leave you weary and tired
But strength is the only thing you must require

This is not a love poem
Nor is it a hate
But it isn't quiet sorrowful
And no, it's not about fate

Just a poem about a simple girl
And the decision she had made
To leave behind the real world
And in her fantasy world, She would stay

Her eyes were made of stars
Her voice, The galaxies
She could be light and frolicsome
In her world of beautiful things

So here she stayed in her make believe play
And here in her own world, is where she would stay.

The magazine pictures tell us what we should be

Judging everybody by what's on their shelves

No one knows what it means to be themselves

The world has turned it's back on me
with their threatening glares
as if I were a*  Monster
and what pains me most,
is the fact that you have also
*become one of them

My Darling,
My Darling...

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It had been awhile
since we opened that rooms door
up the stairs
and down the hall

I hadn't wanted to go in there
or see what it had become
or even if it stayed the same

Because I knew if I did
the terrible memories would flow out
along with the small speckle of good ones
here and there

But when my mother and I
opened that room

Light came flowing out of it
through the open window
across from us
and the sun
shone through
and brought
only daylight
through the room
up the stairs
and down the hall

I've wrote and wrote
for days on end
I wonder why your heart won't bend

Are these words
your heart does not know
maybe it's just that
your blood doesn't flow

So it may be
That your heart,
just wasn't for me

Than again I also knew
My precious words,
just weren't for you

I open my eyes to a whole new world
I open my senses to all new things
For today is the day of my birth
The day I become part of this Earth

Time flew by fast
Day by Day
I tried to make my way
A Naive child I was

School years hasten as I hit Elementary
Always picked last on the team
Picked last for almost everything
Picked last for the friends
Picked last, it never ends
For no one wanted a Naive child like me

I dare say that everyone was on my side
After all,
deep down I knew I was wrong

Middle school was no easier
than the previous years
Seeing I no longer could be Naive
Nobody wanted to be acquaintances
with the likes of me.
A Naive child such as me has learned to mature and face reality

For no thought in my head of what was wrong with me
What reason did they have to despise only I?
For myself attained only a few friends
In which I lost and gained through those privileged years

High school came around
Those details require no story
For Highschool was just the same
as they have also left me confused.
A Naive Child like me, confused .

Time passed
My Life hastened
I met lovers and non lovers
Liars and Truthers
For what did a Naive child like me have give

If you may ask
Yes there were those whom loved me
And never left my eyes
Childhood friends
And A Lover by my side
Those childhood years taught me that in this world
There wouldn't be enough room for a Naive Child, like me
I laugh and push through the crowd
For as I know, there was never enough room
for Judger's  like them

The day has come
For this is my end
this story must close
I rest on my deathbed
In this world I've loved since Birth
For today is the day of my death
The day I leave  my  role on this Earth

I no longer have a home.
    I no longer have
a place to return to.

Nobody is waiting for me anyway.
   There's nobody
    who needs **me

I hate the way you talk
I hate the way you snicker
I hate the way you walk away
And how you can be so bitter

I hate how you think you're always right
I hate the way you lie
I hate the way you built a home
in my heart where you reside

I also hate the way I'd wait by the phone for a text or call
I hate how I can't hate you
not even a little bit
Perhaps not even at all

The arms of the ocean
Will soon come rescue me

I am getting older
     And now it's starting to show

Once upon a time
I told you all I felt inside
The little sacred bits
That from the world I'd hide

You used them as your weapons
And only then I'd learn
The less I'd come to tell you
The lesser I would hurt

There are things I'll never tell you
Such is sad to say so
The more you come to know me
The lesser you will know

So lets take our time to come to
And realize our judgments pending
And just maybe when it's over
we'll have our Happy Ending

Welcome to society,
I hope you enjoy your stay.
And please feel free to be yourself,
as long as its the right way.
Make sure to love your body.
Not too much or we'll tear it down.
We'll bully you for smiling.
And then wonder why you frown.
We'll tell you that you're worthless.
That you shouldn't make a sound.
And then cry with all the others,
as you're buried in the ground.
You can fall in love with anybody,
As long if it is who WE choose.
And we'll let you have your opinions.
But please shape them to OUR views.
Welcome to society.
We promise we wont deceive.
And one more rule, now that you're here,
There is no way you can leave.

My heart Pounds
And realization hits you
You lost me.

Someone once said
"That place
is engulfed
in darkness."

However
That does in no way mean...
that there was never any light.

Porcelain skin
And all that could and would have been

"Hurt" , a word that is Past, Present, and Future

You will be Hurt

You are Hurt

You were Hurt

Why? Because if something truly hurt , It never really stops.

He never looked into her eyes
He never knew how she felt
He could only try to understand
The pain her heart had dealt

He learned the
Sorrowful feel
of parting in
the words
"see you tomorrow"

And the
speed of her
beating
pulse

Life is one big puzzle
Never to be complete
For there is always one thing
The puzzles missing piece.

I determine someone
By asking a question to myself
I'd smile with you, but would I laugh with you?
I'll follow you, but would I chase you?
I want you, but do I need you?
I love you, but will it *last?

I feel as if I know you
     when I look into your eyes

As if we had met once
     in our previous lives

What if everything had a roundabout exit
Another choice yet to make
The easy way out
Like a dense forest with a shortcut
Would you take it?

For the sake of tomorrow
I will forgive the tears of today

Bare your heart to me
And I'll Bare mine too

A love that could never be
She would wait so patiently

A heart that she could hold
They were all so very cold

A love full of clues
Things she never knew

A love without a cause
Is all it ever was

She insists that they set her free
The only way she can really be

That the tarnished liquid
soothes her soul
as soon as it begins to take it toll

The fog in the air isn't just clouds
It's a heaven she says
and it makes her proud

I know I'll say to her one day
That this was never just her coffin
It was her young inescapable fate

No one can hear your screams
          When you're in space.

I knew I wouldn't always be
                   first in your heart

But for that short time I was
          And you helped me see the sparks