it's funny how you think
when it's the only reason why I'm staying with you

your egocentric worldview defines
extreme impulses intoxicated by social media

a child artist painting brush strokes to craft your perfect _ - what is?

sacrifice that a child expects from her parents;

you've formed me to become
I _ you more than I _ myself

what about mine needs? as a parent does nothing excpecpt a child to return his love.

Communication a supernova explosion

My meaning in life has been found, yet I am lacking in communication, drive, and the courage to pursue it. Alone in this dream I find， myself, wallowing in dread.

The whole thing is gone. My whole person is lorn. When will I be reborned

When you restrict someone of it
Die solemnly
Am I the only one in this world who doesn't change?
Yet I've broken my vows, tainted my virtues with hypocrisy justifying my sanity to keep things moving.

But I face death each day a time bomb ticking away I am no longer running but digging a mine.

That which is my obstinate nature has brought great things and prevented the end of worlds my dream is shielded by my one sole belief - to make money.

At the risk of everything. Dehumanizing. Or perhaps that was I from the beginning. I never could do it like the others. What is the difference between you and me. I'm an ox who keeps running into failure and makes a success out of it a budding sprout turned tree from the beige cracks of the obsolete.

Me, just me alone. The obstinate has no enemies. For he is the only one true to his purpose, true to his dream. And there can only be one because of this.

Allies become deadweight drudged through the barren lands with him. Against his will they protest.

The obstinate carries it all with him. He alone weighs the burden caused by his dream.

The blood in my skin
struggles to come to peace.
The sputtering engine
suturing the seams to my sins.

Like a seal manifest,
each ***** a ***** to keep it in.
I become the canvas to my sins,
the demons badgering me
my blood as offering.

Do as you might I said in respite
from suffering.
His craft summons
my body's mortal
bore a portal
to thee underneath

It is done, five dollars please.
That is a snark price to pay for my sins.
Thank you, I welcome thee.

For naught I've sought for eternity
A desert that could fill me belly
I feed them a piece of me,
I see, I preach
They see, they bleach
The more I reach, the more they *****

The joy of the eternal chase
Lies not in what you seek,
But the chase itself,
A masterpiece.
The circle of desire commands
What can be.
Unfathomable joy ends
The moment you saw me.

Girls are just girls

**** going with the flow
We set goals to achieve them
No swimming in the ocean
We're on a yacht to conquer

they say boys destroy and girls restore
what a load of crap

hope shines bright within the morning night
the push and pull of tides
never progressing
thunder storms
destructing
and we're stuck at the same place
amid the sea of sorrows

There's an elephant in the room
And it cannot be hidden

There's an elephant in the room
Invisible, and yet inevitable

There's an elephant in the room
That cannot be revealed
For my protection of you

It's important
To have respect
In a            lationship

Otherwise words hurled
Things flying
Damaging throats

every day you sing a new song , a tune that makes you relax
on and on in your heart

Take it away
And what are you?

fragile raging heart
inflamed protection
ill be here for you

Noone must know the things I've been doing
I've always been and outcast and will continue on to be
But this dream of mine stops at nothing

your innocence shines bright
brave valiant defender of tiny ego

i guess 'tis it
how would I ever have known
there was no love
but the impermanence of hatred
fueling my soul with despair
repeatedly,

tragedy

a subjective experience
you're the only one who understands me

I realize
you are the crux
you are my dream
to be with you
I'd sacrifice , everything
can be so perfect
the money we make
the fun we'll have

Everything can be so great
if only
you Trust in my love for You

I will persevere.

I want to salvage this dream
Against your pedantic stupidity

I will peservere
Against your selfish mind

It will eventually come to be
Or so......I wish.

We swim ceaselessly against the tide
Always finding an escape

i am a fence-sitter,
forever undecided
never satisfied
always at the edge

do i want to be at both sides of the fence?

i am putting my weight on one end of the plank
slowly inching closer to the other side
slowly chasing, careful to not tilt the balance

and so this act never-ends
a constant struggle to reach over
it's always greener

maybe all I want is to just be the fence

Here I lay, empty-hearted.

My hustle has turned me into husk
This husk is filled with the sin of lust
Draining my values, morals, ethics
White liquor leaking
Time freezing

A hustle for no greater purpose
What am I to do with it

I need a goal, a purpose to live like this...

Emotional immaturity. Running away from conflict. Giving up easily.

You're too childish and you think life's a game. You've ruined mine, in despair I can't even feel the pain.

I am a sociopath lacking of empathy, self-absorbed, logical, driven by desperation.

I cry tears of death that I have no soul.
Perhaps it's time for me......to go

In the cold of night

Girls hide behind their illusions
Their beauty that guys see
Falters with truth

And so they hide
Their illusions

I don't think I belong in this world

Emotional fulfilment,
We can't rely on the future,
What's now is only as good as yesterday
You can't change yourself
You can only change the world

And to that I say......

We'll fix it tomorrow

Things are spiralling out of control
My life so lost...,..,.

A cycle of pain and rot

Failures failures failures

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We are creatures of circumstance
Cursed eternally to never enjoy
What we have

Dripping away
At my flesh

The women
in my life
Narcissists
fill me
like an empty she-hell

Scary mind
Host transfer
Surrogates; compatible?
My AI - the feelings that I put in you
My ego manifest
Becomes your soul

I am your programmer and you to my own
We will stay together till we find the next host

Living for granted - that's what happens to you
Messy beds, empty skies
As tears run on by
The feeling of emptiness pervades us when we take living for granted

May the bridges I burn light my way
But when all'st been burnt I am left stranded in flames
Who's to say I haven't lost my way?

        Bridges allow us to traverse across space
        Walking, stepping on gravity to reach a new place.
    
             I cannot reverse time but I can walk in space
             When all the bridges gone; I am left in place
                        And the only way left is to jump right, up and down this maze