Ashtray full of ill at ease
Sugar highs and nicotine
Caffeine frantic
******* scene
Adrenaline and dopamine
Depleted of the best of me



More and more and more is sure
To bring us back to where we were
Keep the word flow
Fast and slow


Please don't, please don't, please don't go
Let's sing and dance, this circus show

Sick and tired lazy eye.
Cold and breezy morning.
Nothing left to smoke at all.
And no check for a few more hours.

I'm trying very hard today.
To be as honest as ever.
I feel the strange and bitter wind.
It feels a little better than before.

Nearly cried a couple times.
Watching stupid flicks.
Self-induced insomnia.
****** with no plants of my own.

Please go to sleep so I can rob you.
I'd hate to ask again.
And there's an imposition downstairs.
So I can't rob him.

I'll make a bit of coffee.
I'll have to wash a mug.
Because you neglected your responsibility.
Once again.

And I have no end nor patience.

I love this new cold autumn breeze
Falling rain and changing leaves
Everything this season means
I love this new cold autumn breeze

I feel the free and flowing fall
Surround me in the chilly wind
Winding all around my mind
I feel the free and flowing fall


I need the change of mood this brings
The sullen, somber sadness sings
A stranger sort of peace it brings
The sullen, somber sadness sings

The grey of winter soon to be
A darker season soon to be
But autumn is here, it's here for me
Until the winter comes for me

The summers past
With all its sun
And finally my autumn has come
my autumn is here, it's here for me
Until the winter comes for me

Ghost from the past
Your drunken stumbling
Has brought back everything
So long forgotten


Now you loom over me
In dreams and memories
With every moment dragging by
I see your face

How did you pass
Through all these walls
That reach so endlessly
Into the sky?

You seem to always come
To chase away the sun
An apparition
Forever lurking

So gloomy now
As I speak your name
Ghastly thoughts of indecision's reign

Why have you come to haunt me?
After all this time
When I had it all securely locked away
And now it all comes crashing down to sway
Emotionless and apathetic days
Coaxing out the feelings and the pain


I could find peace of mind inside your eyes
If you would let me
And I will wait forever if you make me.

You'll never say you knew me
My weak and weary will
My heartbroken sentiments
My skill at standing still

Never swept away
but in the flow
It moves around me
I'm witness to the world
But distanced from the shores

You'll never know what threw me
Into these miserable inspirations
Dark and desperate leanings
My long lost lonely life

So far from where I'm going
So far, so good is empty
You've no idea what's coming
You see no farther now
Look forward foolish friend

Think deeper

Your impulsivity lends you no grace
Think outside the moment
Contrary to your ways
Whatever they may say

It isn't worth it

You're speech is far beneath you
Silence is a virtue
Something divine
To behold
Embrace and harness
So use it well

Foregoing clarity in this unrelenting nightmare
the dreary eyes of the unwitting and reluctant sycophant
gaze distantly into oblivion.

Discarded words and philosophies fill bags
that are carried wearily through
the heavy fog of self-importance.

Breathing in the distance between an empty conversation
and a pointless diatribe within one's own mind
bitters the soul and darkens the eyes.

Living in this distance is a world
of troubles and fears that now numb the senses
and callous the heart.