Bittersweet Toni's dream
An illusion I've fallen for it seems
An indentured slave I am revolting against this circumstance
A lot have been said but little reveal
Judged and juried by levels of nothing.

The place I call home isn't easy to find,That place that is deeper within my mind

Slowly walking on thin white vague ambiguous lines
My social life becomes a spiral of lies that control my love for Him who died and rose as Christ

Only I will understand this place called home in my mind.

It's a tattered city with emulsified lives!

Secrets are kept
Searched for in-depth

Motion for karma is expressed

Brave yourselves
This suicidal love hasn't exploded just yet!

Sun rays race through my window and blind my tears as the darken night disappears,

Despacito, Despacito My love  

Knowingly we fear the failure of what could be great

Our elements spoke about our tragic lost of love

Our end is still yet to come.

I don't need diamonds nor jewels
Those just won't do;
  
Since I've met you,
No, no I'm not perfect but in the lonely 'our I need you!

There's nothing i can do, being helpless without you

I don't wanna be with out a YOU

I WAN'T TO BE PERFECT
AS AMAZINGLY SWEET AS YOU

Expressed are the pineapples of my dark lengthen, pink heading
Become'th  it's sweet juice;

Where the taste of glory is revealed with all its essence are the fiber of my child's naked truth uncovered,

whiter than snow!, Beeth my child;
As it's essential essence is released in wasteful endeavors.

Me: I'll give you the world

with a broken smile,
i'll have a sandwich.

Your name cuts deeper than a knife
pictures of his pass insignificant relation give me doubt

Covered by hay with uncertain emotions embedded in my concertina
memory

For goodness sake!!
Hes still hits your phone up is this love i just hold the space of a ghost yet to appear

You don't make it obvious but i'm too blind with love to mention my lovely little pill is killing me slowly

I'm not alive if you can see me then your dead
don't like the way i look that much so i can't

it's impossible for me to

LOVE MYSELF!!

I'm not as lonely as i seem
Its just hard not to want you

Don't go slow into that lovely night,
My lover's got humor

Tears play upon my eyes as my heart begs mercy
and my brain reminds me of how he told me you were the wrong guy

I won't lie to u, i can see it on your face go deep into that night my love
love me and i'll stop time for you.

Give me a sign! i feel alone, please!!! don't let me down.

Thy will be done
as our kingdom comes.

Who would dare trespass against us
with all your power and glory?

Led to temptation, forgive them
as if they were bound for Heaven.

I hallow your name as you deliver me
from evil and bring me a day’s bread.

Now and forever, thy will be done,
as our kingdom comes.

Take me somewhere
somewhere out there

kiss me under the rain
so i will forget all the pain

I wish you could
see me
the way i see you
think of me
the way i think of you

but i'm just a gay
who pretend to be
a damsel in distress

who will love me?

Only fools falls for you
I'm trying hard not to fall,

I got issues you got them too
hope our lives don't collide i'm in love with you
like a kaleidoscope;

You slowly depict your lack of interest in me
only fools fall for you

Gay-Nardo of disapproval and wildiness
uncertain of the fake faces

facades kills me immediately cant think straight
i wanna sleep next to you and that's all i want to do right now

You know i can't trust myself
I wanna hold hands with u but that's all i wanna do right now

I wanna get close to you cause your hands and lips are what i want right now

Iwanna come home with you but home is just a roof with no love


&BEN-GAY&

IF pain was a song i could sing chromatic movement with my vocals i would win
IF pain was like Trust i would have lost it without a toss

Calm thunder embedded within my heart, unable to utter words
of fear and doubt due to the religion i commit,

Yet!, still i cant find peace in the storm but they say better is coming after the calm,  

IF only i could be release from all these drawing sin that clothes themselves as peace and tender enjoyment within,

IF only i could find my way of  the myth i call life without consequence and fear and doubt,

I'm on the verge of ending my life, too tired to hold
Too weak to continue living

i want to make heaven my HOME

IF only i wasn't afraid to die........................................

Steals the plight of life, like a seagull setting.
Acquiring its undefined presumptuous talents,

From a stellar transforms into unprogressive element
Of undignified expenses

Waifed, an gray child is shown lit by darkness
Buried and burnt with all its SIN's

A slave to my addiction I faultlessly
Pressure myself to believe

Sugar coating my eyes with dispense
And pensive meditation.


You not wanting me was the start of me wanting myself
Sincerely

_________
Michael Evans✌

Like a confetti of flies trouble arise.

People come against like a plague of locust
Sparkled tear gleaming to nirvana’s kindness

The stupendous unfitting of my unenterprising, undignified soul, frigid memories takes a toll, expectations of seed unplanted by the waste said I stand daunted   and lost.