IF pain was a song i could sing chromatic movement with my vocals i would win
IF pain was like Trust i would have lost it without a toss

Calm thunder embedded within my heart, unable to utter words
of fear and doubt due to the religion i commit,

Yet!, still i cant find peace in the storm but they say better is coming after the calm,  

IF only i could be release from all these drawing sin that clothes themselves as peace and tender enjoyment within,

IF only i could find my way of  the myth i call life without consequence and fear and doubt,

I'm on the verge of ending my life, too tired to hold
Too weak to continue living

i want to make heaven my HOME

IF only i wasn't afraid to die........................................