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80 · Dec 2020
Untitled
Smothered Divine Dec 2020
My hips ache, acting as barriers,
Trying to hold in the pleasure.
78 · Mar 2020
The Tease
Smothered Divine Mar 2020
How a serious sickness, well...
(Fickle disease, might I add)
It becomes a wall.
A threat beyond any measure of pain previously.
How a serious sickness
Becomes a tease.
An insult.
How it becomes a type of outfit...
A type of look.
How a serious sickness
Kills 4,627 to date
And STILL...


It has become a taste.
It's a knowing!
A pass into society or a card into
The Azkaban of the school hierarchy.
Lord knows how those 4,627 feel
knowing
  That I... AALIYAH                                                      
Am them.
Not in sickness...










But in health.
See, I was groomed MALLET AND CHISEL
To be ugly, a nerd, scary, stupid, clingy, an animal:
You, my love... You were NOT a tease.

And I am sorry. For them. For you.
--------------------------------------------
R.I.P. all who know; Or did, that is.
Coronavirus tribute from the schools of Western Virginia, if you feel me.

Bullying needs to stop. Please. It's LITERALLY killing me. More on that later.







Love me for me...<3
78 · Oct 2020
I feel, I do.
Smothered Divine Oct 2020
I left my heart in the back of your van next to the beanbag you sat in as we rocked to our favorite bands. I left my tears in the creases of your palms, staining your fingertips with love we had and lost. I feel, I do, every word you said as I screamed and you screamed and our faces went red. I feel, I do, every kiss and hug and smile that we shared over years of pain and regret. I wish it could be reset, all our time, so it'd never end.
But you're gone and I'm gone
And I'm holding on by a thread.
I feel, I do, my heart breaking every night.
I miss you, I do.
I feel it still, don't you?
Ahahaaaaa
77 · Jun 2020
Deep
Smothered Divine Jun 2020
The cut of your fingers
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Snipped like sissors through
My blooming peach.
77 · Mar 2020
Sleeper
Smothered Divine Mar 2020
Sweeter sleeper!

Farther; farther yet:

Grasp!

A glow away

You hold me,
Cradle my soul

I wait.

Sweet sleeper,
My dearest departed love:

I crave you from the roots of my teeth
To the cracks in the floor
And I ask of you...


Are you my drug?
Sweet stuff, sugar tooth, baby teeth gnawing on
Sugar cube valerian.

Take you then I become
All to be and all to see.

Sleeper.
No longer a Sweet Sleep.














No no nope.
Smothered Divine Mar 2020
You drink coffee;
No cream.
I drink cream;
No brews.
I shake in fear and anticipation.
So much meaning
Is derived from this brewed beverage...

Walking down the misted pier
your hands crossed in mine.
You pull me down behind a rock
And offer icy wine.
I love you far too much to see
the malice in those bubbles;
A drink or two,
a kiss or 6,
A wave or 7
And screams at 10.

****** gusher poltergeist chest wound;
the longest thought of my life.
The ringing of a harp's gold strum,
gunshots all a-Blazin'
"THUMP DA DUM"

You drink coffee;
No cream.
I tremble in pure fear.
For if you had not gotten
SHOT
I might stop seeing your ****** ghost here.
74 · Nov 2020
It comes
Smothered Divine Nov 2020
Time comes in moments, seconds, hours, years.
Drenching, cloaking, soaking in time we let ourselves live.
But when someone inhales?
A life is gone or changed.

Knowing this, I can positively infer that I'm changed and gone and broken all in one.

I'm like a record being used to cut dough. Useless.
74 · Mar 2020
sometimes
Smothered Divine Mar 2020
Sometimes
the sweetest things
in life
are artificial
...
Yum.
73 · Nov 2020
Verbatim
Smothered Divine Nov 2020
I could not find the words to describe
How your words were falsely unified.
In your brain, you plastered them together-
Hoping to win my heart back.

'I'm Sorry, I love you.'
Verbatim.

'She meant nothing, you mean the world to me.'
Verbatim.

Remember when these words slithered out
The time before,
And the time before that?

And I stand here, yet again like I'm on a loop.
Medusa won a staring contest with my soul
When I walked into our sanctuary and saw your
6" soul haunting her narrow corridor.

The walls shivered, our planets froze.
The starry colours left my sight.
I lost count of the moments between
You moaning 'I love you'
and her scream.

'I'm Sorry, I love you.'
Verbatim.

'She meant nothing, you mean the world to me.'
Verbatim.

----
I'm losing sleep, missing pieces.
I cannot do anything but change it all.
The life we lived
Is a life I must continue to live-
Not as us. But as Me.


I dropped my paint and let it splatter-
Our once white walls are now splotched pink
and light blue.
Periwinkle and Bumble bee yellow.
Magenta and Orange-red.

MY WALLS SCREAM MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE-

---
Our sheets are now my sheets-

But I hate the 100% cotton comforts
where we rolled and kissed and slept.

Where SHE arched HER back and came to me crying in the doorframe.

So I pour 3 fingers of whiskey as the ashes consume those thoughts.
I let the flames burn the grasses, dry the land, warm my heart.

MY sheets are pastel pink with white lace accents.

----
Our home became mine and our **** became mine and our hearts stayed yours.
I am a cigarette ****, scathed, warm in mother nature's soil.
I am a rose ripped to petals left to trail the way to something.
I am warm milk at the end of the bottle that the child cannot drink.
----

-I am soaking up the sun today-
-And for once, I am Okay-
-And I'm so glad you're gone-
----

♡I'm Okay♡
Kind of an aftertaste, a bit bitter, a bit storyline.
A postscript type sequel to one of my previous poems.
Leave a comment if you can guess which one,
And if you guess right let's do a collab.
72 · May 2020
I NEED HELP!
Smothered Divine May 2020
I'm signing up for a poetry contest.
Can you guys and gals tell me which one of my poems is worthy?
Much love!
-Smothered Divine
71 · May 2020
In Regards...
Smothered Divine May 2020
In regards to my recent behavior.

I apologize deeply for falling out of your pristine lines.
See, when I confessed to you
That evening, I believed you'd understand
TRAUMA


Your mind goes to
GLASS,
Clinking in ice cups like when I tell you I cry to sleep-
You'd rather not think about the pain
Coursing through my veins
As those shards carve me away.

That's why you hide
At the slightest mention of
DAMAGE.

Your expectations, I pray, have not increased the slightest!
I no longer apply to those lines, society.
Lines that are
Perfect photocopy girls.
Pleated skirts and a man to keep us in line.
It's what you deem "Easiest" and "Normal", right?
One hair out of place and I might infect your society-acceptable bubble!
Why add pain?
Image matters, after all.
Oh, the woe of my existence is
Such a BLEMISH on your school's
-IMAGE-
And we wouldn't want the world to think
anyone is damaged...
Now would we?
I apologize for falling out of line, once again.
I hope you can forgive me for
FEELING
Tears rack my eyes when my brothers were shot down,
And I hope you can forgive me for
FEELING
My stomach empty itself as my poppa took a life
or two.
Because FEELING isn't pleated skirts.
And DAMAGE
Isn't letting a man keep me in line.


In regards to my recent behavior:
I apologize that I have sense, society.
Sense enough not to let you command
How death and loss should
affect me.



I apologize for being broken, so I'll step back into line now
with my navy blue pleated skirt
and my mandatory man
bringing in money as I keep to this house
of deception.
And I'll let my emotions rot me through my core
like I'll leave the "hard" work to the man.
The man that shot my brothers.
The man that gave them life.
I'll shove those feelings down for you
So the world can be perfect again.

Sincerely, I.
---------------
Thanks for reading!
This is inspired by
The Hate U Give, named after Tupac's famous quote
"The Hate U Give Little Infants ***** Everyone", or **** Life.

The father in this poem shot his own babies,
And the daughter was distraught but shoved it down so she could remain normal.
Awful but I hope it speaks to you.
70 · Dec 2020
The waves
Smothered Divine Dec 2020
The waves crash down
With visible thrusts of movement-
An untouched power in the
MIDSTS OF DECEMBER.
I see them and question what they mean-
And the foamy shores mutter back 'nothing'

The wilted flowers whisper
In the frosted winter air
petals curved and red
Like my nails against your thighs.
I question what they said
But they look away absently.

Though I don't understand these moments
The message these things portray
I still sit on the docks
and watch the water sway.
I still lie in the fields
Letting pollen engrave the time into my spine.



Do you remember my smile, you said it lit up the room.
Or maybe you remember the blush on my cheeks.
The giggle in my throat
Or the way my eyes devoured you.

Maybe you don't.

But I remember your smile, how it lit up my world.
And the flush on your cheeks when I said I love you.
The laugh in your soul, the way your eyes never caught mine.
I remember your fingertips against my own.
And your hair, thick and soft, as if branching to hide your thoughts.

I don't read into these memories, I question them.
I wont get an answer, but I embrace their presence.
Might as well.
Might as well...
69 · Mar 2020
F
Smothered Divine Mar 2020
F
Is for
Firefly
Fast reply
Frustrated guys
And...
Fields of
Flowers.
Wish people responded to messages faster. Who's with me?
69 · Sep 2020
A Balad for Two Souls
Smothered Divine Sep 2020
Before we begin, some of you may remember this poem. Back in early summer I submitted it for a contest and have recently received word that it will be published in a book!! The finished copy is much cleaner and simpler, but here it is again in its rawest and most original form! ♡
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The softest things seem to
Slip
Past our eyes without ever a
Second Glance.

When met with a second option,
Nostalgia and Regret
BATTLE
It out, fist to the flames.

head turns to my loyal disciple, pen at ready

He tells me honest emotions,
Ragdoll plagues drenched in

Formaldehyde wet-suits.

My heart a heavy
Disco
When your loving voice cradles me.

No, not a crush.
Our towers hold relationship rules
HOSTAGE.
Prayers for another at the
Altar of our Chapel.

Castle grounds of our giggles,
Bewitched by bangles of cedar cares.
Oblong shapes, color-coded and precise
Beg to be
BLED
Into blocks of games and fun.

Postscript to entertainer

Nothing is harmful
when I'm with my Lizzy...
No glimpses of future, but an eye on the past.
But, oh but for now,
Let us bask is rosy-cheeked riots
Friend of mine.
In the final copy it is not written as a piece of a play, but as a whole of a poem. Much was cut out and changed but for the better, I assure you. Thank you all so much for your support and I hope to be posting a lot more very soon! Au revoir, babies!
69 · Sep 2020
Anxiety Twitching
Smothered Divine Sep 2020
Anxiety Crossover,
X on my throat.
A grip, fingers dig inside of my throat.
Feel a hand in my soul,
clawing.
Pulling.
Ripping out of my mouth.
I feel a '****'.
A sigh.
And my head hits my shoulder.
my shoulder rolls into my spine.
And my fingers knock on brick;
Linoleum, fingernails digging in the grout.
A wave of jerks and twitches,
And a breeze.
69 · Nov 2020
The Higher Plane
Smothered Divine Nov 2020
Somewhere, far far off In an airport waiting area,
huddled between salted chocolate and overpriced keychains.... Stands a girl.
A beautiful, smiling girl.
This girl bought a ticket to leave this town.

This town in the middle of nowhere, going nowhere, so she could be somewhere.
She wants to be a star, remembered for her singing.
The people who fill the other spaces
Of the rest area
around where she stands
Are lost.
Lost in what they know. Lost in what they care about because they grew up being told this is all there is for them.
These lost people swarm around her like bees, except less like bees and more like flowers.
Stuck,
With the life getting ****** from you daily till you die and return to the Earth.

So this girl stands between the chocolates and chains,
Beneath the dome of an airport,
In a place in the middle of nowhere-
Going nowhere,
Swarmed by people-weeds.
And she takes a photo.
And begins her note.

As she boards, she fosters anxiety.
Her plane is not the plane she wants to be on.
See, this girl is lost in a new way.
Sometime before the flower-people, the town going nowhere, and the keychains and chocolate,
This girl who stood found herself.
She found that she was dying inside.
Rotting from the core, like so many diseases.
So she climbed the staircase, buckled her seatbelt, wrote her letter to the world.
Then she went into the bathroom,
This girl who once stood.
And collapsed.
The life energy she once held, gone.
She sliced and sliced and sliced till she
Ascended.


This girl, on a higher plane of reality, standing between the lays chips and novelty mugs in the empty airport climbed aboard that ******* flight and understood that there was no escaping the water.
It was up to her neck, choking her, pulling her under until she could not
see tomorrow.
She saw an escape.


38,000 ft in the air,
She let her heavy, hurting soul be freed.


This girl.
Who smiled.
Standing between the novelty items.
Surrounded by people who didn't understand.
Climbed a flight.
And fell asleep in the bathroom.
Dreaming about death at 38,000 ft.

She is hurting while standing next to the magazines and she is hurting walking to the library every sunday at 6.
And she is ******* dying inside standing there and smiling and asking you why you are so sad.


This girl.
Somewhere far far away.
On another, higher plane.
68 · Dec 2020
Untitled
Smothered Divine Dec 2020
The refresh button leaves my fingers sore
And my heart disappointed.
68 · Apr 2020
Take one
Smothered Divine Apr 2020
I cannot express how much I have

LONGED for your embrace,
OUR relationship as whithered as reaper himself.
VOCAL mischief cackling through our matching
EVERGREEN headsets... haha.

YOU had me at first sight, but I
OVERWHELMED myself and broke our spark;
UNLESS you see me sometime later, goodbye. And I'm sorry.
67 · Oct 2020
Capsized
Smothered Divine Oct 2020
My heart swells with the capacity to love every single person I can touch
It throbs with the smiles and laughs,
Aches with the giggles and whispers,
And it swoons with every compliment and hug.
I jump the gun every morning, sending my entire heart to all I can.
I keep to them, responding quickly.
I am a fix, expendable.
I know what it’s like to hurt! To need that smile, that hug, that giggle.
And I know how hard it is to find. So I became what I once needed,
A homing beacon. A sign that tonight, even when I wanna drown myself and end my life for good, these emotions are as temporary as a laugh.
I taught myself to love the masses, even in the face of mental discord between my mind and my depression.
I taught myself to hold a shaking, breaking body together till they mended
Even if I was hanging on by mere threads.
Because I know that I am expendable.
I do this because my heart is big.
So big it cannot hold my self-love inside but instead it can distribute it.
I depend on everyone to hold my love so I am not faced with the opportunity to love myself.
Nothing, not even my own breaking and quaking soul can stop me from building a person.
And at the end of the day, I think that helps me get by in my own catastrophic mess.
67 · Apr 2020
Inquiry 2
Smothered Divine Apr 2020
The conceptual thoughts on existence and meaningful realities, built off of the creation of 'reality' as a defined unit of measure (normality), is a joke.
67 · Aug 2020
Confidence
Smothered Divine Aug 2020
I've just created my first white bread loaves.
I've mixed every color, worn every shade.
I have pranced in foot-long heels,
Trying hard to gain a grasp...
But in mixing my yeast
Folding in my flour
letting my baby rise
and
Baking my loaves just right
I've never felt more confident in myself.
And that's a gift, eh?
67 · Aug 2020
Hear it?
Smothered Divine Aug 2020
I lounged on the deck with a mooched glass of ***,
Twilight chill enchanting my soul.
My stomach toiled with excitement and fear.
The sleepless night welded what I held dear
With the provoked thoughts of life if I were to
Disappear.
I will.
Then out of the blue, the trees begin to whistle.
Shake, scrape, shake, the dance of the wind.
But in this glorious scene...
Could it be?
A gentle hoot?
An owl, old as time, whispering my name in the wind.
Anyone else drawing inspiration from their favorite novels?
66 · Feb 2020
RP web-account.
Smothered Divine Feb 2020
https://www.worldanvil.com/hero/0726d93f-85a3-4f07-bf85-eaaf3ed49d2f
66 · Feb 2020
Knowledge
Smothered Divine Feb 2020
Sometimes
It's really lonely knowing;
"And other times?"
It's really lonely not knowing.
Like knowing I'm not perfect
and yet still wondering why you're not answering.

You know why.

Maybe so do I.
65 · Jan 2020
The Sign
Smothered Divine Jan 2020
Too simple to mess up.
A narrative:

Thigh aching, body quaking, heart shaking breezes.
Tears can rack your eyes, trembling bones, cold stones
against blue toes.
Summer depression, sunshine heartache, shiny hot hellfire and:
-mourn-...
"mew" The kitten whispers.
Shaking laughter; Who could be sad?
Why did the kitten speak to the dawn?
Again:
Who could be sad at the thought of it, when you're crying out to the world
for a sign of major sorts
and a kitten, meek and small
mewls at the dawn
as you cry?
-------------
To Larry. You're my sign...
-this has been in the works for a while and I've finally decided to post it as it is. Love ya, friend!
65 · Nov 2020
Found Poem
Smothered Divine Nov 2020
Milk and Honey, Sugar and Spice.
I’m calm when I breathe in my headspace, one two three.
A sip of Alice’s Sippy Cup, Delirium state of mind.
I hold my head as neon lines cross my vision.
Resilient as I am, I can’t hold long.
I’m falling, falling, gone.
And then I’m back, Honey and Milk, smelling the spices and sugars-
I’m expendable, I know. So I sip sip sip from Alice’s cup, Get high and drop, fallen angel..
I’m stuck in a paradox of disappointment.
I drown my thoughts in the devil’s temptations.
I’m the Eve from my very own garden, making friends with the fruit salad.
But you’d know, wouldn’t you?
You know.
65 · May 2020
Yellow
Smothered Divine May 2020
A field of vibrant, tall sunflowers.
Subtle rays of light filtering through the Autumn leaves.
Stalks of fallen hay, freshly harvested.
Ice clinking in a glass of tea on a hot summer’s day.
The gentle thrumming of guitar strings to a song I’ve yet to learn.
Shaunie’s laugh at even the smallest things; So vibrant and bold.
The SpongeBob ice creams from the ice cream truck on boiling days.
Biting into a sugar-coated lemon, the sour burst paired with lemony sweetness.
The lasting taste of a Sprite on my lips as I trace those old back roads.
Settling into the warm grass; Florida sun beating down on my skin.
The cool night’s air whirling against me as I ran home.
My cat’s fur as she curled up in the crook of my spine, the sun creeping through the window.
Yellow rejuvenates our souls, stirring up the old.
65 · Feb 2020
Slow dancing
Smothered Divine Feb 2020
Pitch-black skies and milky white splotches;

Firey red suns and silent waves on starlit rockets.

Don't walk this world happily

For you know the deepest truth.

When you slow dance in the darkness

You'll be drained of energy and youth.

You'll pirouette around the stars

leaving tears like prisms in your wake.

Pretty, and ain't it funny

How the rainbow is YOUR mistake?
62 · Jan 2020
Glow-worm
Smothered Divine Jan 2020
There’s something about the way you say it
That makes your praises the only words
worth
hearing.

There’s something about the way you do it
That makes the room shut down;
only you
and me.

It’s not a heartache or a headache or a tizzy or even a trip- unless you’re a drug;
I guess I’m addicted.
If only I could crush your essence up and
push you
into my bloodstream
‘cause I need you like a fix.
You’re the one I think about when I lie awake at night;
When insomnia makes the moon spin
and water in my glass turn to gold-
swallowing melted moonlight like it’ll cure the darkness-
Light me up, glow-worm.
Shimmer for me; basking in vanilla essence.
for my mom; love u!!
62 · Jun 2020
Food for thought
Smothered Divine Jun 2020
Can you tell me why biting down on ******* letters
Is so difficult
But we swallow ourselves wholly with
Ease?
61 · Aug 2020
Well
Smothered Divine Aug 2020
How can I express a feeling,
Be it happy or sad,
That you yourself will never feel?
Because, well...
I am mental and I am me.
You are you, through and through.
61 · Aug 2020
Distance
Smothered Divine Aug 2020
While time can hold you, prisoner...
And
Love can make you blind...
nothing bears the pain
like distance from loved ones,
missing in our youth.
Memories that mix and swirl.
A past, a life,
Unfurl.
This love, it will not cure me.
Some distance will not sting.
I've walked the line, I know what's right.

I'll hold you to my heart.

=============
So. I'm back. Miss me..? :3
Smothered Divine Mar 2020
I'm not sure why
I'm not sure how
Just go follow this account:
https://hellopoetry.com/u846465/
Freakishly epic.
59 · Jun 2020
A house, A home.
Smothered Divine Jun 2020
My body is a wasteland if worn parts.
My soul is the rusted joints, holding my soul to my body...But keeping just a knocking distance from reality.
Reality is the soil upon which every anxious structure of my body is built.
To let this building crumble is to **** the last of my faith in myself and I will NOT be repaired this time around.

I can never fall again.

That's why we paint over these cracked plasters...And build on all of the rotted cores...
This building of mine BOTTLES up every bad thing going on inside of me and
PAINTS
Over it.
I must never fall because to fall is to show what's inside.
To fall is to break and never, ever recover.
So why the **** am I crumbling to the ground...
59 · Jun 2020
Ifs and-
Smothered Divine Jun 2020
If I choked, would you notice my lack of breath?
Would you recognize my world filming over
In my eyes?
The air in my lungs have
ALWAYS
Struggled around you.
My heart skips when you speak.
My brain
FIZZLES OUT
When you smile.
And you tell me how much I'm worth to you...


But you are a
TOWNHOUSE
In my city.
My emotions are the clouds, soaring so far overhead...
You'd barely catch a glimpse.
I'm glad our hearts beat to the same love
But you will never witness me breaking.
You will never watch me melt into the floor,
PRAYING
and
CRAVING
That I could wake up in another life at a moment's notice.

IF you watched me
BREAK
Inside, you'd see me for me.
And baby...
I'm scared of myself.
I'm scared of what I'll do if I lose.
If I lose.
If I lose.
If I lose the game of life.

I will never let you watch me break because
IF
I did, you'd realize
My arms hold
SCARS!
My lungs hold
DRUGS!
And my body ******* CRADLES
Bruises.

So yes, I know how much I'm worth to you.
But you only pay for what you eat, right?
Why read the fine print?

This is not a bad thing.
I have been using a mask for years and
NOW
after so long...?


I feel the ache.


I wanna show you all of me.
All clothes, no mask.
Me.

And
THAT
Is IF.

Is that bad?
A bit about revealing and talking about what I've been through and why I'm here and now.
I've yet to share it with even my family.
I wanna open this bottle...
I'm so done HIDING
but where do I GO??
58 · Dec 2020
Untitled
Smothered Divine Dec 2020
My brain throbs at the thought of
Getting out of bed.
57 · Nov 2020
Oh, a Daze.
Smothered Divine Nov 2020
Slip of the tongue, Slide the bolt into place.
Bring your bare fingertips to the Smooth,
Orange surfaces of your sanctuary walls.
Matte finish.

Let the colors melt- Melting, dripping Into LSD infused music.
Let your bones jingle to the Crocodile Rock Whilst
stripping your skin And clothes off.

Let the colors drip into your left iris, right.
****, let them melt through your bloodstream as
Tears Rake the fridge for a beer or five.

You are held by only me and the sound
Of every smile, you've ever meant.

Dazed reflections, mirror gazing-
You are we and I am us: We are One, Not another.

Eyes grow heavy, days go by;
I never needed, never missed, never wanted
You.
Rose scented giggles, cuddling cool fur.
Soft, fluffed pillows. Warm, thick comforters.

The light blue dissolves and floats up from your eyes- Cloudy cool, wind-whipped, cream colored ceiling. Hazel eyes, lids closing, geometric veins flit past the shadows.
Then- Sleep.
A poem about self hate while on, you guessed it, illegal substances.
Not speaking from experience!
This was an old one made new, mine of course.
57 · Mar 2020
Fat Amy
Smothered Divine Mar 2020
Dude: So I have a feeling that we should kiss. Is that feeling a good feeling or an incorrect feeling?

Chick: I sometimes have a feeling I could do crystal **** but then I think, 'Hmm.. Better not'.

Dude: Alright.
57 · Jun 2020
I..
Smothered Divine Jun 2020
I..
I... Feel
SO
Much ANXIETY
For the things
That -
CANNOT BE.
57 · Mar 2020
Disorders
Smothered Divine Mar 2020
Cotard Delusion:
My heart is rotting
Todd Syndrome:
Delusional **** thought I L̵̦̮̇̓̿̊͋͂̎͠ͅo̸̹̅̒̄̒͛̑̊̓͝ṽ̴̧̧̧̡̮̦̘̱̭̲̜̭͉̯͉̦͖̪̺̐͛̔̒̋͠͝e̵̛̿̒̆̀͆̃̌̉­͓̦͖̤͓̗̤̥̜̘͍̩͈̖̞̰̳̱̭͇̲̈̆̈́̀̔́̒̈́̕ͅͅď̴̨̲͎͉̺̹̫̱̖̭̆͠ ̸̧͍͉̖͍̳̲̮̗̲͑̐̋͐͆̾̄͋̊͑̆̑̍͌͗̓͗̿͠͠m̴̡͔̻̗͈̫̣̦̱̳̃̈́̔̂͛̉̒̽͜͝ͅỳ̷̇͛̋͆͋̿̀͑­̢̧̛͇͚̝̦̞͂̈́̾̀͑̀̿͂̑̅š̷͉̭̠̰͇̳͎̯̯̞͇͙̫̈̓͠ͅe̷̢̧̞̻̳͍̝̲͇͒͌̑͌̈̇͋̉̿̎̀̀͜͜͝͝­̳͉̟͙̖͜ĺ̶̢̪͚̫̯̼̥̙̤͖͇̙̼̖̭̠̮̬̻͈̮͓̌͆̈̉̍͋͗̍͋̉͠f̴̽̎͑̍̽̋́̀̀̈̋͗̑͐̀̈́͘̕͝͝͝­̦̮̼̺͇͈̘͈̊ͅ.̶̜̻͖̫̦̻̟̊̆̋͛͛͊̚.̶͈͉̫̒̿.̸͍͔̟̯̈́̽́̾͂̉̈͛






Right?
56 · Aug 2020
Resignation
Smothered Divine Aug 2020
Sink or swim.
A narcissistic value.
You cannot touch them, for they simply float.
But I?
I do nothing at all.
I let the waves pull me under, serene and cold.
The lights from bright blues to deep, dark, ultramarine weight.
My chest and lungs scream and burn,
The heavy, pulsing weight makes my skull explode…
Until I let my air
Burst
And bloom
From my body.
I’m drowning but I cannot express how this experience
Was...
Perfect!
I was okay…
Until I was gone.
Blood gushing from the slit in my throat.
Choking.
Broken.
Gone.
55 · Mar 2020
soul
Smothered Divine Mar 2020
My soul,
a wasteland of salt and sulfur,
is heavily
-DRIPPING-
 In My Own


Ḇ̸̫̓͂͒̀̓̀̽́ḽ̶̨̝̘̖̳̫̙͇̣̘͍̤̦̹͉̓̎̾͆̂̃͋̌̃̕͝͠ó̸̧̮̳̯̣̘́̃̕̕͝o̷̔­̡̛͇̤̹̹͎̩̤̜̙d̴̛̳̑̒͛̎̀̐̓ ̷̲͍͎̩̰̳̔̑͊̂̄̇͐̀͗̔͑̓̓͠



Because my
Soul
Is full of secrets;
Because my soul
Is full
Of Lies.

Wring them out,
whip and crackle.
Droptop,
SAY
Mouth of tackle;
-Hooked on love-
Falling in hate.
Screech, Stop.
Red light-
-POP-
mental fatigue.
Drowning in silence
Ringing beads,
bit lip babes.
Marbles, pink and green.
****** teeth with shark tooth scars.

Yeah, my soul is quite a show.
Don't you know?
Crackled, snaggled:
Running from slippery truths.

Slip-n-slide
Ride or die
Come with me


Let's feast
...







L̶̛̛̛̛͌̓̈̀̋͒̂̀̒̒͌̎̂̃̆̋̐̾̈́͌̔̾͆̀̉̆̇̔͐̋̚̚̕̚̕̕̚̚̚̕͝͝­̢̧̫̠̭̣͇͆ḛ̵̡̲͇͒͛̓̌̃͐̀͒͛͛̔̿͗͛͐̈́̌̍̈́͛̂̅͘̚̕͠͝ͅt̵́̌͋̂̍̀͋̀͒̀̿̊̉̏̏͊̒̓̅̾͠­̧̨̧̢̻̯̳̻̠͚͇͍̦̩̠̲̠̝̖͔̮͎̰͈̱̻̣̝͇͓̗͉̲̤̝̙̙͚̺̯̲̼͓́̀̽̈̇͛̓̌̍̒̐̾͊̚͜͠ͅ'̸̐̂̀­̢̧̢̢̪̻͈͔̝̲͓̣̗̩̪̣̣͖̤̹̣̬͔̦̱̱̬̬̥̲͕̬̲͍̺̦͉̣́̔̽̇͆̉̀̀̓͆̉̆̇̈́̋̐̃̍̾̕̚̕͜͜͜͝ͅ­̨͉ṣ̴̨͎͈̖̞͐̓͂̋̍̌̐̇̇̉̈̈̂̉̎͠͝͝ ̶̧̛͇͖̟̫̯̳̹̱͖̦̖̣̮̥̺̱̣͇͔̘̬̼͇͋̓̃̆̆̀̎̇̍̏͛̈͋̊̓̅̑̅̄͑͋̑̏̓̓̂̽̄͐̌̊̈̓̎͘̚͘̚̕­͍̤̖̟̻d̸̢̧̛̛̛̤͉̪̗̪̥̲͉͓͉͖͍͔̰̖́̾̾͐̑̈̔̈́̾̑̽̿̊̍̿̆̓̉̾̇̓͆̐̆͒̀̈́̊̈́̓͘͘͘͜͠͝͝ͅ­͕̪̯͍͍͔̲̜̖̺͜i̵̻͖͎̅̾́͑͑͐͒͗̎͑͆̈́̀̀̏̇̇̅̎̇̉́̎̇̊͂̈͋̂͌̒́̊̋̀̀̉̚͘͘̕̕̕n̶̔͛̕͝­̧̢̡̢̺̩̥͕̦̤̯̪̠͉̦̗̼̻͖̜͉̫̰͎͖͇̠̘̥̖̜̦̥͍̙̞̜̪͍̜̌̎̀͗͑̎̅̂̏͜͜e̶͑͌͒͌̿̓̓̀͊͑̋̕­̧̢̢̡͖̹̟̝͎̙͎̱̹̺̰͓̠͖̮͙̙̻̤̫͚̳̭̖̭͔̮͓͚̖̥̺͇̯͙̲̤̿́̏̍͐͒̎̊̅̓̈̿̆̉́̕͜͜͠.̶̈́̅͝­̧̧̧̞̳̞͇̱̘̖̬̩̭̭̥̺̖͕̱̪̳̪̳̖͓̗̫̘͍̥͔̯͖̦̯̯̩̯̖͌̋́͊̄̽͊̓͂̀̏̌̄̒̽̈͌̒̂͐̈́͛͘͜ͅͅ­̘̻̭̰̠̲͇̭.̷̧̧̡̼̫̰̟͇̳̱͙̣̠̈́͌̇͘ͅ.̶̡̥̮͈̻̮̻̒̍̎̐̈́̚͝
night. get it?
Btw, encrypted words are: Let's dine.
54 · May 2020
HE! A skit!
Smothered Divine May 2020
It's a title.
F
is the start
of everything good.
Fireflies. Friends. Festivals. Frankie.
HE!
Who has flowers for a soul, gentle and wanting, simple and sweet?    
He who portrays a friend as you've never had before. 
Festival of arts, step up, and see..
HE!
Thank you, Frankie.
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A skit! I'm home, friends<3
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