Skyler M

Skyler M Dec 2021

Exposure

Captured lights steaks of these cars,
Post them up all over the highway chain-link,
Asking 'Which one of these blurry angels would save me now?'
But I know, if they love me as much as they love themselves,
Tell Lucifer I’m on my way.

Skyler M Dec 2021

Saving Face

I’m splitting into two,
Two halves of a whole mess,
Breaking fast to the cliff edge,
Shouting back to save face,
But I’m losing it, I’m losing face.

I’m a terrifying beast,
No more than 4’
Weigh less than paper,
Fighting against the wind.

I don’t feel like myself,
I invite this sudden change as a victory,
Cause I’m saving my grace,
By moving away without a place,
To stay.

He’s haunting me and he loves it,
He’s taunting me and he loves it.

Skyler M Dec 2021

Liability

Now I’m no genius,
Just barely passed high school,
Couldn’t get through college,
And I can’t keep a **** job,
Maybe I’m being dramatic,
Or maybe you’re a ******* ****.

“You’re not disabled, you’re just a lazy ****”
Burned into my head,
“You’re not a man, you’re just manipulating us”
Burned into my head,
“You’re not suicidal, you’re just selfish.”
Burned into my head.

I’m whatever you say I am,
I don’t own anything when I’m here,
Can’t handle your ****-eating grin,
Want to knock your teeth right out,
But I’m too weak,
I’m burned out,
And I’m a ******* freak.

Good luck, bringing me home.
Cause you won’t see me anymore.
My seat will be empty for the holidays,
I know that you won’t care but…
Everyone else will.

Skyler M Nov 2021

mom's drunk and I'm ******

It's late this night,
We're not in bed,
And we're lit by the fairy lights,
You're in date clothes,
And I'm in my pajamas.
Speaker's turned too high,
It's okay though.

I just hate to see you this way,
You're swaying but not for the music,
And the light in your eyes is dulled,
Cause the toxin is in your system.

I'm getting tired,
You're telling me things,
I can't understand what you're saying,
So it's goodnight,
Cause it hurts to see you,
The thumps upstairs are scaring me.

I think I hate drunk people,
I really hate when you're drunk,
You said you'd never get drunk again.

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Skyler M Nov 2021

To The Past

I can't go back to that ****,
Maybe I'll forget the time,
Cherish the worst of it,
Looking up at the pine.

I take a ride again,
Deep through the forest,
Ghosts scream in vain,
Well, I guess here's a toast,
To all those who died in pain.

Time always passes me by,
As I'm caught in the trap,
I can't help but begin to cry,
No guide to trust with this crap,
Only could say goodbye.

I take a ride again,
Deep through the forest,
Ghosts scream in vain,
Well, I guess here's a toast,
To all those who died in pain.

Skyler M Nov 2021

Citizen of Troy

I don’t get a girl cause girls aren’t to be caught,
That’s what mama says and I say it all the time,
She’s dead so I guess it makes me feel better about living here,
On earth, in a place like Troy.

It’s a dead end city,
All my passions lay on a bed of ******
And ****,
I hate this town but I’m preaching to the choir
The choir
I’m preaching to the choir

I don’t even like women,
No, but I imagine that one day I could be a husband,
To see that someone could love me.
All my scabs and leftover scars,
Are something to be admired,
Or maybe they’ll find my laugh, charming.

Skyler M Nov 2021

Liminal

There’s a guilt associated with you,
A lingering sunset before darkness,
A winter breeze at the end of fall,
I don’t know how I feel about you.

Now I’ve kissed other people
Laid in their beds and hated their guts,
Watched as I grew farther from their touch,
Nothing seemed certain.
Not nearly as much as you.

If I were a smarter person, I’d have let you go,
You haunt my dreams these nights,
Bringing about a chorus of doubt,
Maybe I never should have said goodbye.