Skyler M

Skyler M Sep 2018

I suddenly remember why,
I hated my own life,
Why do I have to go through this strife,
It feels like I'm being stabbed with a knife,
If this is what makes me a better person then I don't want it.

"Ma'am"
"She's-"
"Her-"
******* all,
Think right, say something,
Correct their words,
But I cannot without feeling the fear,
It wells up inside my chest,
Like a scream waiting to happen.

If I have to go through this everyday again,
I have a feeling Wool Kid just might be revived,
And nobody wants him back.

"Ma'am"
"She's-"
"Her-"
******* my name,
And burn my face,
Take out my chest,
and lay me in a grave.

Respect me won't you?
It's not that hard,
I don't want to be mad

Skyler M Sep 2018

s e c o n d-h a n d-s m o k e g i r l

second hand smoke
breathed into my lungs
changed me up so much
dried up all my blood
sunk my own eyes in
tunnel vision's begun
i've got to get you away

her eyes like chocolate pools
cornered me
and like a car crash i couldn't look away
the left over cigarette butts she threw at me
i caught them all and swallowed their poison
don't know how i got here but
im loving the pain
"keep up with me" she said through a long brick wall

second hand smoke
im coughing up gunk
the changing in me im beginning to hate
found all my blood inside her home
and my eyes are never coming back the same
ive got to get you away from me
get away from me

Skyler M Sep 2018

As I Was

How many times do I have to die,
To feel like I fit inside my skin?
The times tend to fly on by,
Over years and years,
Along with symphonies of unfamiliar faces,
They pass by my ink-stained hands.

Forgive me if I don't remember you,
It's been so long and those years that I met you,
My eyes where blinded by the rage and fear,
Something everyone knows of once in their life.

I had fallen further than ever before,
No amount of hope could've brought me home,
Do you see the burn marks,
On my red-singed clothes?

A new perspective and I love it here,
People remember me somehow and I need to say hello,
The road doesn't seem as cracked as before,
Ripped up the dead body and said goodbye to toxic memories,
You inspire me to keep on living.

Forgive me if I don't remember you,
It's been so long and those years that I met you,
My eyes where blinded by the rage and fear,
Something everyone knows of once in their life.

Skyler M Sep 2018

Blue Homes

Call my name in the murky water,
Hold still and let me go,
Tonight, the tide is rising,
I'm beginning to fear the changing,
Although, I know, everything will be alright,
Follow me inside so that I don't have to be alone,
I'm submerged and drowning,
Whisper secrets in my ear,
Listen to me tell my stories.

The house is under the water?
What do I do now?
Mama, help me, oh please,
Get rid of all these catastrophes.

I'm running and gasping for breath,
Asthma embedded in my lungs,
Dead ends and cobwebs line these soaked halls,
Well, if nothing really matters than why am I still beside you?
Despite, the pressure on my chest,
And the waves, they somehow reach me from miles under the surface.

The house is under the water?
What do I do now?
Mama, help me, oh please,
Get rid of all these catastrophes.

Pushing for more, I don't want to hate my life forevermore,
Give me an arm or a heart to hold onto, my dearest.

Skyler M Sep 2018

Everything Is Wrong

Horizon fades into my bedroom,
Scars along the walls,
History long forgotten,
And I’m glad I’ve left it behind.

I traded my bones to forget all the things I did wrong,
I’m not strong,
It’s inside the pond that I made for me,
Just leave me be.

Astronauts bounce around my room,
Admire the marks along the wood,
And the frame of my bed,
I don’t need it anymore,
I’d prefer to sleep on the floor.

I traded my bones to forget all the things that I did wrong,
It’s inside all the things that I say in these songs,
And the pond that begged for forgiveness was thrown out,
Cause that’s not what I’m about.

Trust your soul,
You know it’ll grow,
Never become the thing that you don’t want to be,
But it’s hard to tell cause it’s hard to see,
So line us all up against the wall,
And put a stop to our basic meaning.

I traded my bones to forget all the things I did wrong,
I’m not strong,
It’s inside the pond that I made for me,
Just leave me be.

Skyler M Sep 2018

Let's Get Along

Trying to hard,
Looking to the future,
Never gonna make it but I hope yet,
I can hope,
Filling my dreams up to the seams,
Can you believe I'm still alive?
I'm just wondering tonight,
If you're alright.
Glancing out of the window,
Your eyes glazed over,
Speaking of bones and death thrones,
Please don't ever leave me without warning,
Always afraid you're gone every morning.

Skyler M Sep 2018

Tick Tock

Translucent,
Transparent,
Trespassing,
Tiers of Tyranny,
Ticking Time,
Trying Tomorrow,
Testing Tabletops,
Traitor Turns Trains,
Tick Tock . . .