Skyler M

Skyler M Aug 2018

Waves of memories inside my palm,
You were a friend but I wanted more,
Turned out you did as well,
Wheels turn inside my head,
Water keeps my lips from drying up,
I wish that you had told me sooner.

You were scared so I understand,
You're not perfect and neither am I,
So rest against the shore, I forgive you,
You were good to me always,
She held the water above your head,
Never let you leave, silently.

We both fell so far those months,
The tide kept coming up,
Keep us below the water and we'll drown,
I am so proud of you,
You made it through the pain,
Got the water above your head and ran away.

Of course, I forgive you,
Let's catch up and go to the beach,
Summer's been great how about you?
I hope we see each other again,
I hope we see each other again.

Skyler M Aug 2018

What Do You Understand?

Singe the hairs on my arm,
Running faster circles to,
Encompass a form with blue,
Kindle ocean fires gratefully,
Share all of your stories,
Dawn is blue for reasons unknown.
Grains against the sand,
Suspended in the air lightly,
Tick and Tock spin too fast,
Create bodies in spans of seven,
Numbers warp into faces,
Vindicated for crimes beyond space,
Jade rock cover whomever,
Porcelain masks crowd scares.
As they always do.

Skyler M Aug 2018

Subtle Loss of Hope

I really hope that you're alright,
I keep on noticing all these little changes,
The way your smile never makes the corner of your eyes crinkle.

It concerns that you never want to leave the house,
Even your favorite movie makes you want to die inside,
Could we talk for a little while?

I didn't wanna fall asleep last night,
I was afraid that you would be dead once I closed my eyes,
You keep on giving me those sad eyes and I'm only more convinced.

Hey, can we make some pastries?
I know it won't solve your fake smiles,
But I need to show you that I care the most,
Trust me now, won't you?

Everyday I ask you, "What's the matter?"
You respond without a thought,
I never believed you but I didn't want to pry.

Except that every day that I see you walk by,
I know that all you want to do is find the gun your father has,
I don't even want to think what you'll want with it.

Hey, can we make some pastries?
I know it won't solve your fake smiles,
But I need to show you that I care the most,
Trust me now, won't you?

Skyler M Aug 2018

Iris Dilation

Look up,
Look up,
Clouds form my words well,
Sometimes stormy and sometimes wispy.
Look down,
Look down,
Grass describes my personality,
Sometimes dry and yellow,
other times green and gorgeous.
Look left,
Look right,
Cars are going to run me over,
While I'm trying to arrive at my home,
Look in,
Look in,
My heart says it's been far too long for this,
I won't stand for it anymore.
Look straight,
Look straight,
Over the horizon are my dreams,
Show up to take this fever away.
Look up,
Look up,
And repeat the day.

Skyler M Aug 2018

Seasonal

Falling asleep is always hard now,
I remember when I could close my eyes and get transported,
Into a world where life and death mean nothing at all.

Space becomes twisted and ties me up every night now,
Whispering it's wishes into my ear,
I can't see life from death anymore.

Calling for my soul to wake up,
Find the courage to see the horizon ahead,
Where is death and when did life die?

I can't decide whether or not I'm alive or dead,
Sometimes things that get on the brink,
Are always called dead.

Shake me awake and take me home again,
My words keep losing meaning,
Whenever he comes home and keeps me alive.

Harder and longer goes days and weeks,
When will I see the light again?
I'm just wishing to wake the hell up.

I'm no longer able to focus,
Where did he go from my home?
Shaken into death now.

Turning planets and crashing stars,
Back into my vision once again,
I only want death, don't you?

It's time for snow to fall,
Strike me through,
Let me bleed out.

Skyler M Aug 2018

Lost Friends = More Ghosts

Let's take a walk out onto the roof tops,
Look out over our boring suburban neighborhoods,
Are you satisfied with your life?

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

Every night that I'm alone on the roof,
I am missing all of you,
Memories are all I have at this point,
Everything feels like it's moving counter-wise.

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

These ghost stick alongside me for now,
They always talk about how stupid I am,
Never allowed to leave my side,
I need all of my friends back.

Throw me back in time,
Even if it kills me,
I don't like being alone,
Why am I alone?

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

Skyler M Aug 2018

Proud of Them

Let's count all of my friends,
And see how many are left,
It's okay cause I'm not afraid,
I don't mind being alone,
Cause I've convinced myself that I don't need them to keep on going.

If you find me on the floor,
Keep the door open a crack,
I want to see what's happening,
Cause I am proud of them all.

I know that they all tried their best,
I am happy to say that cause,
Every day my heart beats when I know,
That they will grow,
That I know.

If you find me on the floor,
Keep the door open a crack,
I want to see what's happening,
Cause I am proud of them all.