a genius machine.
through the time,
nobody saw you,
tell me are you okay?

waste my time, please.
I need you to be by my side,
even if you think you're a burden,
don't tell anybody that I died.

when I'm in my 20's,
tell me that you still care,
even if you're thousands of miles away.
i'll say it back if it's okay with you.

Footsteps along my ceiling,
Cracking open the door at four,
Raindrops knock at the window,
A strange mellow feeling washing over me, you, us.

Follow the set of footprints,
Through the salmon corridors,
I hope they won't end at the ledge,
Seek out their destination for me, you, us.

Carrying on despite the calm,
Call me now before I leave,
Slip on a coat and see me,
I can visualize the footprints for me, you, us.

Through the streets now,
Lights fading colors in my eyes,
Cobble streets keep me on my feet,
Can you give directions to me, you, us.

Destination becomes thoughtless.
Sit down in the street and stare,
Raindrops pattering at my feet,
Begging me to keep on going for me, you, us.

I'm sorry, stranger, I don't love you.
I'm sorry, little grass blade, I don't need you.
I'm sorry, street light, stay a little longer.
For me, you, and us.

Purple paddy wagon rolls up to my party,
Party of one with white wet jeans,
I'm no cool cat, there's no chance.

Don't you see my growing green garden?
Don't you see my big blue tears?
Don't you see my honeysuckle hands?

I got to bring myself back down to earth,
Remind myself that we're all just made of stars and dreams,
No matter how bad the man, they were once a little sun with lots of love,
Maybe that'll get me killed one day but at this point does it really matter?
Shooting stars fly past my head and I'm once again reminded that I feel pain.

Spread my ashes across the universe,
Grip a lonely comet and drift across the cosmos,
You are worth it if you live in this atmosphere,
Stay here, with me and whisper secrets into my ear,
I promise I won't tell.

Time always slows down when we're young,
It feels like you'll never get out of it, but once you're out you wish you could go back,
Back to imagining you're an astronaut,
Safe inside a ship and headed on a one-way highway to all your tender dreams,
Now we're just drifting off and admiring the passing rockets,
Maybe one day we'll be inside of one of those too.

Spread my ashes across the universe,
Grip a lonely comet and drift across the cosmos,
You are worth it, darling, please don't leave.
I don't want to drift all alone.
Stay here, with me and let me whisper how much I love you into your ear.
I promise I won't tell.

Remember when you got me,
Safely to ground,
But now the tides have been rising,
I'm sinking even further down.

I won't drown in this sea,
Not by your hands,
I will try to fly,
but my wings are soaked,
In the burning sea water.

As the ocean throws me around,
I am lost as to what I can say,
You said that you'd be there for me,
But now I see the blue sea is tugging me further.

But I am here so you won’t take me down.
Bring me to life, bring me to shore.
I don’t care if you don’t care,
I’ve got this now, I’m on my way.
Walking underwater but it’s steady,
I’m getting there.

I'm awake again when I shouldn't be,
My eyes are studying the landscape of the ceiling,
Picking out pictures that come to breath and pulse,
In the darkness I can see the green glow of the planetary system,
I wonder if even survived that cold December night,
This happiness in my chest will fade away soon.

I see where I lay,
Under a sea of covers,
And I reach for the water but I’m sinking into the mattress,
I know where I’m going,
It’s going to be far, far away.
From today, I say,
“I’m alive, December.”

Would you believe me if I told you,
That I saw Saturn last night?
It was three a.m. and I was hating myself until I recognized it as it stuck to the ceiling.
Far away the ceiling goes as well the glow.
It’s okay cause if I am alive,
Then I can survive tonight,
I know just from memories that things will turn out okay,
Things are coming up sunny for me,
But for now my eyes are trapped on an ocean of green solar systems.
Forgive me for getting lost in myself.
I know it’s selfish, you don’t need to remind me.

I see where I lay,
Under a sea of covers,
And I reach for the water but I’m sinking into the mattress,
I know where I’m going,
It’s going to be far, far away.
From today, I scream,
“IM ALIVE, DECEMBER!”