Eventually.

I won’t be here anymore.

Popcorn ceilings.
Hidden drawings,
Olive green top wall,
Maroon red half wall,
Shelf running the room,
Knick-knacks fit perfect.

I won't be here anymore.

Eventually.

I will forget it all forevermore.

Big window,
Glow in the dark stars,
Spell her old ownership,
Called it a tomb,
Called it a home,
Out of hopelessness,
Into the next chapter.

Eventually.

I won't be here anymore.

And eventually I will forget it all.

Forevermore.

Tracing star patterns,
Love only what matters,
Always feel I'm in tatters.

Passed a shooting star,
Seemed too much too far,
But there haven't been many wars
Been a while since I made new scars.

Tracing star patterns,
Love only what matters,
Always feel I'm in tatters.

It's not all done and I haven't seen the rising dawn,
But I have faith the darkest nights can be met head on,
That I can right all of my wrongs,
And find peace in these songs.

I like you better when I’m drunk
You wouldn’t like me when I’m sober,
Don’t you dare **** up my funk,
Drag me by the chains on my choker.

Do you mind if I dance bad,
I don’t care that I dance bad,
Do you care that I dance bad,
I don’t care if you dance bad.

Told me Texas was your home,
Now you're covered in sinful appeal,
This conversation's so monochrome,
Let's get up and make a colorful reveal.

Do you mind if I dance bad,
I don’t care that I dance bad,
Do you care that I dance bad,
I don’t care if you dance bad.

Can't find God in clouds I search,
But I found a stray golden light,
It settles into the crook of my arm,
Sleeps worries away on its perch.

I woke up early today,
I noticed some decay,
I thought I was okay,
Instead I've gotta pay,
Just to pave my way,
Out of this disarray.

But if I arrived at heaven's gate,
Would Saint Peter be the one to say,
"You’re flawed but so is God.”
“You loved as you could, gave as you should.”
“That’s enough to receive Heaven’s love.”

I'll be content with this golden light,
For now it's enough to hide the blight,
As I make my way home on this night,
I will make it through despite its might.

I woke up early today,
I noticed some decay,
I thought I was okay,
Instead I've gotta pay,
Just to pave my way,
Out of this disarray.

There's no road on the map,
To meet you back,
Do you understand that?

Cracked my head open,
Can’t help hoping,
Wishing fountain,
Tossed my token.

Rotting youth failing,
Found myself bailing,
While still shaping,
I'll be forever fading.

There's no road on the map,
To meet you back,
Do you understand that?

You love him as I love you,
You hurt as I was hurt too,
You move on as I lay inert,
Apologies if I seem curt.

Really, what else could I want?
Gave us everything we wanted,
Still I remain just as haunted,
Feels like a self-inflicted taunt.

You love him as I love you,
You hurt as I was hurt too,
You move on as I lay inert,
Apologies if I seem curt.

Even so- with a white whale,
I hate to leave it incomplete,
Face meet the street, eat concrete,
It’s only right I don’t bite- just exhale.

Searched the turquoise in between,
Wispy cirrus clouds of tender gold,
Filter light through a sentient fold,
It’s all sublime, simply serene.

You love him as I love you,
You hurt as I was hurt too,
You move on as I lay inert,
Apologies if I seem curt.