Rip my heart open.
Void inside..
Splatter my brains..
Tidal wave of thoughts..
Expose my soul.
Black flames burning.
Dissect my life
See pure desire.
Witness my death..
The miracle of a wish granted...

Buried alive
In the projects
Called life..
My only ally is time
trust no one
because every one
consists of lies

it's all dark
All is black
death aims at me
Point blank
Ignorence is bliss
wishing I didn't know any of this
But I can feel it's presence
constantly... a desire.. a curiosity.

waiting for the occasional spark
maybe it's Death, taking a life
like a devouring shark..
naked in my grave
with only a scarred
leather book
and a quill with enough ink
to write a lifestory

So i'm writing my pages
my story that I want to tell
but with every spark of light
I can't telll.. these words
and sentences.. are strange to me..
I didn't write this..

Did somebody stole it?
Living the story I want to tell?
A story about a nice life
with good people
And a world that isn't Hell?

Hate surges up within me..
I quit writing, not a letter written
quill  smashed into the ground
another innocent victim..

My eyes open
conscience shattered
mind of a hunter
stalking it's prey
I'm going to steal a book
and give him my empty one..
A thief.

Fixed timelines
Fixed events
Obstacles the size of Spacetouchers
buildings that haven't been constructed
But one day will be build to touch Ozon
Obstructed..
Life abducted
Reluctant
grim present
Grey future
Colourfull past
Counting blessings like a madman
regretting that it didn't last..
Either Imma die of this disease..
Or smoke myself to oblivion
In a cycle of destruction
Body not helping
Mind doesn't give a ****..
the ending of my life has begun
before this boy turned into a man

HEY!!!
WHAT THE F*!!
Who are you?
.....
"I'm your muthafuckin' conscience" - Eminem
......
No! You're not..
Alien thoughts invade my mind
Peer within my soul
and what once was beautifully blue
is now a darkened sky
poisoned, negative thoughts
poised to strike
Massacre in my temple
no more praying..
no peace
I was forced to leave
Now he is me
and I.. a remnant
a distant memory
A fragment
From someone
who never really know
who he was
untill the day the invasion came

Head cracked open
Body splattered
Soul on the sideline, copin'.
Cranium smoking..
****..
I'm not insured
wish I had that part secured
Instead I chose to be Insecured..
For my Insecurity
Good thing the police is coming..
with hot coco and a blanket...

...What?

Pure of heart
blackened mind
invaded by the darkest thoughts
Depressed
bogged down
suppressed
high
heaven
prison in the sky
enveloped in eternal light
yet I ache to set my sight on the moon
Sinless, with the curiosity of a sinner
Limitless
yet I long for shelter
On the road to home
yet I made the road my home
Never winter, night
Waterdeep
metropol
a city of splendors
yet I want to sleep
starless sky
no star to wish upon
I want to cry
yet every tear shed is vaporized
an oppressed dead prisoner
law abiding citizen
a victim of Heavens censorship

This life of mine..
This mind of mine..
This body of mine..
Seriously..
I'm twisted, I have to be..
A freak
how can one forget to eat?
to stressed for breakfast
can only be relaxed
when an automatic
rests against my head..
I only sleep when I'm close to death
Push my face deeper in the pillow of my bed
to the point I pass out, when the muscles in my body
forcefully relax
and I can finally sleep
enjoy dreams from the time of where I cease to be
seeing diseased poisoness needles injected into me
memories of where my Angel's leaving me
visions of times where it might become permanently
ingraved in me
Scars on my heart
wishing I'd have scars carved in my flesh
Rather have a concious operation
on every part of my body
than feeling this pain everyday
untill my mind will collapse
wake up everyday with regret
that I didn't die yesterday..
but..