One, two I love you
until the sky stops being blue
and it turns another hue
three, four I love you more
than the sea loves the shore
from the top of the water to the ocean's floor
five, six I love your little trick
when I lean in for a kiss and get a lick
I scream ewe,  that's sick
seven, eight I love you straight
to the moon and now we skate
off to bed, it's getting late
nine, ten I love you now and I'll love you then
I love you more than playing pretend
I love you more than my favorite ballpoint pen.

©ShawnaRenea

Pull me in
with your sin
Drag me under
shake me like thunder
Somehow a storm
rages inside this frozen form
Something rattles within me
it's you shaking me free
You've crawled in
right under my skin
Rain covers
me like an elusive lover
Excitement swirls like a cyclone
silently I beg to never be left alone
At the touch of your fingertips
my will simply slips

©ShawnaRenea

Will I ever get
closer
Closer to the thought
of you
Of us and all
we could be
Will I ever feel
closer
closer to this
feeling of us
than I do right now
Will I ever be
closer
Closer to the point
of the fear
of losing me
in you
Will I get
closer

©ShawnaRenea

Forever
the one I loved
the one that loved me
that loved all of us
has gone
It's like the sea
swallowed her whole
A wave came
and washed away
the pain that was pulling
her under
Down
into its calm embrace
erasing her suffering
But now
forever
we are stuck
in this labyrinth
searching for our way
though this suffering
Trying to see the light
at the end of the maze
Looking for our
Great Surrender
Forever
I, we, the ones
she left behind
are wandering in the
past, the memories
of this beautiful creature
who has left us too soon
We would give anything
to have one more
second, minute, hour with you
we would spread that time out
to make it seem like
it is our
forever
for now
with you.

©ShawnaRenea

You are
one of those men
that take a hold
of a heart
You squeeze it
caress it
you hang on lightly
but just enough
so I strengthen
my grasp on us
I hold on to what
I want this to be
waiting for you
to hold onto me
Finally
I feel you fall
and you have
a firm hold on me,
on my heart
And I can
slip into the unknown
and trust you'll be gentle
while you hold
my heart in your hand

©ShawnaRenea

The realization
that I yearn for something
my body will not allow
I want you to hold me
but it will only cause me pain
The desperation
that this leaves me feeling
is a loss of something
that has never been attained
I need you beside, engulf me
wrap me up tight tonight

©ShawnaRenea

I am learning
to leave the light on
to keep hope alive
in this dark heart
I am learning
to live because
I want to give
this life the love
it truly deserves
I am learning
to accept love's
blinding faith

©ShawnaRenea

I lost yet found
a piece of myself
there with you
in the moonlight
I lost my heart
it is no longer mine
but now lies inside yours
My soul was found that night
between the trees
and water of the steam
I found it in a place
I never thought to look
in another...
in your heart.

I found it in your words
...I love you
Tentatively
I felt them twist
their way inside me
sinking further
than any other
They reach through me
waking a desire
I didn't know existed
A helpless passion

I found it in your touch
softly
like feathers
yet it was capable
of breaking down
these walls
I built up high
around me
You touched me
like no other
timidly yet possessively
you stole my heart

I found it in you


©ShawnaRenea

You call out for me
and I've called out for you
Feel you down below
slip deep within
inside my skin
I don't need no boy
I need a man
to fill in this whole
make me feel your sin
inside the skin
I love the fight
of ******* the violence
succumbing to win
to keep feeling you
inside my skin
this is how it will begin
Avoid the break
keep you close
you're to close spillin'
inside my skin
I scream out loud
Keep it coming
I won't give in
inside my skin
Beat of your heart
rush of my blood
I know now
like you knew me then
inside the skin
always
craving
you
inside my skin

©ShawnaRenea

moonlit thighs
fervent sighs
hungry lips
fingertips
quiet slips
pulsing hips
muffled cries
shattered skies

©ShawnaRenea

Numb
Why can't I feel
the pain
the emptiness
the need
All I am is
numb
Cut me
and I barely
notice the blood
Embrace me
and I barely
feel your touch
Love me
and I barely
see your longing
All that's left
is me feeling
numb

©ShawnaRenea

I willingly walk the short distance
that spans the space between us
I have prayed for this
You reach right through me
like you're trying feel my soul
Have you prayed for this too?
I listlessly look into your eyes
drowning in pools of desire
I have prayed for you
With your tentative touch
you caress every inch of me
Have you prayed for me too?

©ShawnaRenea

All of my scars
are etched
across my skin
My flaws
are worn on my arms
You see
the pain toward outwards
But  what you
can not see is
the scars
that decorate my heart
the hurt
was laid there
one at a time
building a wall all around

©ShawnaRenea

sweet silent
sighs
escaped us
we were found in our steady gaze
we cherished our lingering caress
we fell fast at the press of our lips

-do you believe in soul mates?
-no, not before I met you.

dive deep
devour
my soul
I see you in these words
I feel you between breaths
I get lost in the the thought of you

-what did you do before me?
-existed

©ShawnaRenea

So would I,
rise from the ashes like a Phoenix
From this pain
this burnt black heart
will rise a new love, pure as snow
So would I,
try to bend a little more
like long grass
in the wind, so the next time
this  heart will not break

©ShawnaRenea

If this how it's going to be
I might just turn all this into doubt
And someday soon you'll see
what all this was really about
And if this is heading to a dead end
I would like to leave it there and walk away
Like it to end and keep you as a friend
I'm not going to beg you to stay
If I did that it would be end of me
I would stay living with this unhappiness
I need you to know I need to be free
I need to learn to show a little tenderness

©ShawnaRenea

Take
what you think you need
and I will be there for the taking
Give
whatever you are free to
give to me and I will
Accept
the fact that this is how it is
and all we have to do is
Forgive
us for not being more for now
but we have to remember
Patience
that this all will come around
in the end to find us
United
finally together inseparably entangled
the way we have envisioned

©ShawnaRenea

When you are away for far too long
the hours seem so distant
and tonight with you beside me
the night feels too small
The hours slip away
yet my dreams
fit within this room
with you laying beside me
I look into the blue sea of your eyes
You leave me breathless
drowning in that look
The lines I etch across your skin
and the trail of lips
lead me to surrender
...to your love
...in your bliss
Time seemingly halts in our embrace
Trembling until our release
The weight of it all feels too heavy
as you drift off to sleep
I curl against you wishing
you could take me with you
...to your dreams
...in your heart
I will always ache to be with you
when you need to go
but that peace will return
when I feel your heart
once again next to mine

©ShawnaRenea

Nerves
rushing to get ahead
of the
blood
running through my veins
and the
thoughts
treading to stay afloat
As my
heart races at an uneven pace
deep within
breath
struggles to remain
and I
scream
silently inside to remain calm
but I
reach
for you begging to be
touched

©ShawnaRenea

All the free will
and dark desires
spinning off
into complete oblivion
couldn't stop
that quaking ache
deep inside me
for the perfect soul
I would ever know
I would shake
Thor from the sky
Would have
begged and bartered
to catch a glimpse
of the One
who was given
that piece
of my soul
The sliver that's hidden
deep inside of you
I pay tribute to Freya
and kiss the feathers
that have let me fall
softly into you

©ShawnaRenea

Your touch, a thousand amp wattage
pulsates me into partial paralysis
Our kiss makes me feel like a
slickly, sweet tongued succubus
winged with wicked truth
brings my devilish inclinations deep
down in my core and cuts to the closest
undulations of my undisputed desire

©ShawnaRenea

My skin
is
like water
cool to the touch
daring you
to dive
to feel
the rush
of energy that crackles
like a sudden summer storm
your warmth
can't stop
from pulling
me under
You're like the rain
and the pleasure it brings
Your whispers
are sinful
like chocolate
in the mouth
so sweet
yet so dark
I can not help
but to melt into you

A desire
so strong
it reminds me
of thunder
With a crack of sound
A feeling runs through me
but I can't
surrender
to this fire
that's rising
from deep,
deep within
if I were to do so
it would surely
tear me asunder
And soon
after
I would fall
right into you

©ShawnaRenea

I have been caught in a storm
but I am ready for the calm
Surrender to it with me
fall into the unknown
just fall with me
At night the storm rages
but shower me with your peace
lie down gently
just lie here with me

©ShawnaRenea

You are like an oppressive shadow
Constant. Looming. Unshakeable.
You crush my lungs, my spirit, my soul
I feel small when you are near
I feel little pieces of me die...inside
I feel caged in your presence
I feel my self slipping...away
waiting to crumble into nothing

©ShawnaRenea

If I could
escape right now
I would wish
you could
escape inside me
for a while
To entangle
yourself beside me
I lose myself
when I am with you
You are my escape
from this monotonous life
Everything falls away
for a while
as you slip inside
You are my favorite
form of escape

©ShawnaRenea

Do you hear the love
in my voice
from the many ways
I say your name
sometimes clear and true
and others a breathless whisper
sometimes so softly I question
whether you hear me trembling
and others like caged excitement
I wonder how one name
can express so much
but all I want to do
is say your name
for forever and a day

©ShawnaRenea