I sense the gathering darkness
foretelling
but I cannot discern the pattern
In the murky clouds
grey mist penetrating the earth

what are these talons frigidly clutching my skin
burning as hot coals
fiery memmories
regret and pain

my skin warm
that trembles at a touch
that bleeds when cut

electric, the sensation of hope
galvanizing my pulse
shocking me to faster breaths
heartbeat responding to the static

I can't hold back the dam
the flooding pressure of desire
steam rising form the kettle boiling...

I watch the white wisps as they rise...

Lift the glass
Raise a toast
Let's drink while we can

We can still see the moonlight
We still hear the bells
Chiming the hours
Across the fields

We still smell the freshly cut grass
Blown in the hot summer air

Nothing here stays green
When assaulted by the dry heat of summer
Emerald soon fades to rusty wheat brown
Rain is a memory
We hope will remain in our reservoirs

So take another sip
The celebration is on

Raise hell
Mock the emptiness
As long as we are sober enough
To have legs to stand on

We can prance along the stage
Shout at the wind

Let's just pretend
We can call this..
Life.

First the man takes a drink, then the drink takes a drink, finally the drink takes the man.

Dark wings hover, claws extended
Bat wings
Black lips, and dripping fangs
Clear elixir fluid
Drops
One,
Two,
Three...
On the edge of nightmare

Temperance shattered...
Moderation slit by a fine blade
The veil of normality shredded
Replaced by illusion
Civility cannot withstand
The feral urges that storm the barricades
Tin soldiers in array
Swords rattle and gleam
The sabers obsession is to draw your blood
Their  aim is to seek your quick

The beast within
Bleeds a vile and putrid green
Noxious, nauseating
Slimy...smelly
Gangrene
It comes out to howl
Prowl
Stalking prey
You are hunted
Your heart and soul are at stake
Knowing not how slender the thread
The silken cord
With which you cling
To this ephemeral life

Hope fades
Dreams ebb
The tide washes in
You are the sand
Slowly washed away
In a swirl
Eroded from the shore

Youthful Rebellion
Over  thirty groks your heart?
Wait! Your first gray hair

When your darkest fears
Howled?
A WOLF in the night?
Fur electric and tingling
Fangs crushing to the bone marrow
Iron tinge of blood in your mouth
Red eyes scanning the darkness
A twilight world unseen by mere humans
Nostrils flaring
Pulse thumping
The monster within untamed

Your gravitation
Positive attraction
Pulls me compass North

Last line is six, not five syllables, arrgh!

Fiery angelos
Winged messenger descending
wondrous prophecy

Inexplicably
Fleshly desires escalate
Lust for flesh untamed

A haiku greeting
Is it clear above static?
Received with a smile?

Find the LOVE
In your heart
Let it be your LIGHT
It will shine from your eyes
The rays will BURST within you
Explode
A nova burning brighter than
The sun
Flares in your mind

The stars bow before you
Highlight of creation
Glory radiating around you

Express yourself
   Pick up the pen
   Let it take wing
   Fly to the outer reaches
   Down starlanes
   And garden paths

Roses
   Color of burgundy wine
   Glittering
   Glistening
   Gleaming
Sunlight on the petals
Dewdrops on emerald leaves
Reflections of scattered points of light

Butterfly emerging
Cocoon erupting
Revealing starchild destiny

Metamorphosis
From roots of earthiness
Free to tumble and glide
In cloudless azure skies

The chains fall away
Taste winged freedom as you soar

Capture the moments
The way you were meant to stride
As a giant
across the firmament

Golden gate spread wide
The road opens before you, beckoning
Starting in the dusk
Through twilight
Into the dawn of your new day

Set a torch to  coals of joy
Banking the flame of your essence

This instant in time was made for you
To seize all that was poured into you
Like wine
Drink from the cup and...
Humanize yourself

You lifted up
the communion's cup
that we might share in the fellowship
of your sufferings

You did not let pass from your lips
but drank the bitter cup
of agony in a lonely dark garden
that is our eternal bliss

The Wine of Grace which gave us life and freedom
was the taste of death for you
as you poured out
your life into this cup

Oh Captain, my Captain
through the bread of your flesh
this precious cup of blood
we partake of the destruction
of death and hell
the resurrection of life

In the darkest moment of all history
you poured out your crimson glory
for your eternal Victory

You declared us brethren in praise to your Father
Your are the child given for signs and wonders
the way back into the Kingdom for Israel
from the Lord of hosts who dwells in Zion
Let us drink the cup
and give thanks for joy everlasting

Your offering;
Our Grail...

6/21/07

The King offers the promise of heaven in His hand
The heaven of His glory

He calls
My soul is stirred by longing
breaking through my dreams and
reverie
Bursting my heart free from the *******
of the earthly realm

His eyes of fire and love
seek my face
Our gazes lock

He invites me to dance
I reach out my hand
His first touch so warm and electric
I draw nearer
My first step is tentative
His arm of strength envelops me
His right hand stops to caress my face
His embrace is passion personified

He leads me so meekly
a Shepherd with an infant lamb

He whispers so tenderly
the words of peace, love and joy
I sigh
As He lifts my head
For our first kiss

Enraptured by the pulse of His heart
He is a rose, blood red with petals
dancing in a cool breeze
He is my Bridegroom

He is building our shelter
our habitation
of joy
forever

Walking through the graveyard
I stand by the gravesite
wrapped in a cloak of darkness
howling my emptiness
a a forlorn moon
searching for life among the dead

Where did it come from
this restless spark?
Why this endless dissatisfaction?
Gnawing hunger, fire in my bones?

I can not say the shadows vanish
in a moment
Searching for the LIGHT
Hoping some day they will be dis-spelled

Apathetic after the thrills
Withdrawn from broken relationships
Forlorn broken hopes
Distant from the next goal on the horizon
Hollow inside from empty pleasures that never truly satisfy
Longing for real connection
Surrounded by illusion

UNDER ATTACK BY DARK POWERS
IN ******* TO SIN
VISION CLOUDED BY LIES
Even the lies you told yourself

The only way out is the truth
But when confronted, will you hide?
Cling to the life you had?
Accept the “reality” of the world knew?

Or will you have the courage
to accept a new way of life
to realize this is a battlefield

YOU MUST ENGAGE

Master of my will
Captain of my destiny
I set my sails to distant ports
harbors with merchants that cater to…
my every desire
The currency is merely my hours spent,
my days accumulated…

Yes, I choose the distractions,
the toys,
the escapes,
the inebriations,
the momentary escapades, liaisons, and other thrills…and call this “freedom”.

But somehow I always return
here to “normality”
this, my “common” reality

Was the currency “merely” my time?
Or is it my life’s blood?
Time I can never reclaim…

Is this really freedom?
The American Dream? or in truth Nightmare?
OR do my choices made in “freedom”
Bind me to my passions (manipulated by merchants!)
Invisible chains to this fleeting world of shifting sands

Have I become..
A slave to freedom?

July 14 2008

Grave clothes
tendrils from the grave, barbed wire with poisoned tips
bind my flesh
my soul captive to empty gnawing and deadly passion
Ever trying to fill a gap I do not see
Never surrendering the rush
I want, I burn, I lust - unfulfilled
I fear the loss of what I cannot truly gain
a dog surrendering the bone for it's reflection  in the water
Fantasy leads only in ever narrowing circles
guilt and shame, love and hate - eat away at my soul.

On the occasion of leaving Pillar of Fire Church
8/24/07

Words of steel spoken
like a lover's quarrel
the crimson glowing glory of love
poured out like wine from a cup
The dream has faded
The rain has put out the fire
shattered illusions
fragments of a picture
that was once a rainbow
now only painted shadows
remain
Men fail,
Trust is broken.
Only the Truth is forever...

But now it's over,
and I'm ready to move on

Remember the wind
The breath of heaven
as it lifted you up
on its wing

Remember the sea
Hear the whisper of its waves

Remember the ashes
From which you arose
like a new flame

Remember the pain
the cry of your heart
the quiet embrace
God's answer to your tears

What is the song of your heart
in this moment?
Let it be joy!

You've touched the whirlwind
You've walked the starlanes
You've been where the sun hides

Remember!!!

In between the desolation
And hope of liberty
I hear stories of others You
set free
Why doesn't it work for me?
Is it something wrong in me?
I can't get closer
lower the barriers on my own
Clutching claws
reaching from the dark I have slipped into
Running from You
Prefering darkness to light it seems
Comfort of misery
don't have the bravery
to exit the cage
Coming to my knees, SET ME FREE
but give me the desire to walk when times are good
thinking You're not the one I need

I still run when the time has come
to open the book
to approach throne
What's rising in me?
maybe it's just flesh
...that isn't really me
The time is drawing closer
To your return, or to the end of my days...
still stuck in insensibility...

I cry out turn me from my ways
I cry out turn my heart away
from what I think I need
SET ME FREE


find me a reason to be
less to doubt
something to believe

making choices ... not emotionality
Change me
Where doing good is not enough
where not being empty is not filling

reaching out to set others free...
Is this love in me?

We wander high
we wander low
we go
but we don't know
We get confused
We lose direction
So many roads
So many voices
In a world where
it seems Truth is shattered
like glass on a pavement
But there You are waiting for
The seeker

There is a light
There is a dream
The natural mind
can't find
There is a way
Foolish to man

But to His children
It is his plan
Through the fog
around the bend
all the way to the end

You, Lord Jesus, are with the
The seeker

http://www.languageisavirus.com/cgi-bin/madlibs.pl

crunchy fetish's crunchy fetish

"I crawl my trees and all the mummy swims slimy;
I hike my licorices and all is surf again.
(I climb I crawl you up inside my rose.)

The spider go snorting out in itchy and greenish,
And gory tree swims in:
"I crawl my mummy's and all the licorice swims slimy;

I hiked that you surfed me into rose
And climb me inevitable, crawled me quite slimy.
(I climb I crawl you up inside my rose.)

Jimmy swims from the spider, tree's mummy's hike:
Exit licorice and Jenny's rose:
"I crawl my mummy's and all the licorice swims slimy;

I surfed you'd climb the way you said,
But I crawl old and I swim your name.
(I climb I crawl you up inside my rose.)

I should have mummyed a licorice instead;
At least when rose hikes they surf back again.
"I crawl my mummy's and all the licorice swims slimy;

(I climb I crawl you up inside my rose.)

underwater poetry glistening
Grey sheen on blue marine
Gliding above coral
spiraling maroon surface
glee in motion...
hang time on silky waves
how I want to dance with you..

4/20/2008
End of the rope ready to scream
never letting down the mask
to cover a heart that bleeds
love is not a drug
that eats like acid to the core - but it feels like it
fear lock - stepping to the beat of my heart
doubt a whisper in my ear
waiting to believe - to hear the story
of someone who can cross the divide
between what the world sees and what I am inside
only when tears of pain bottle up inside
Do I seek to escape from the games I play
I can't reveal the shame
of what I've become
of how short I fall

Winter spent away from warmth and fire
not willing to expose a heart that can be melted
fear of wondering what I really have to share
learning to prefer despair...

11-8-07

From a dream, a design
by the carpenter's hand a house
is formed

Innumerable rocky layers
press of tectonic plates,
quakes, volcanoes
a mountain range is formed

Winding river, howling windy erosion
a canyon is formed

A seed, soil, rain and sun
a tree is formed

A mist, sunbeams streaming
a rainbow is formed

Clouds, gravity's pull
a storm...
a raindrop is formed

Clouds scattered battling electrons
lighting formed ...

Here a great mystery
the very breath of God
dust of the earth
Man was formed
Adam, Eve, they conceived
our race was born
  Generation to Generation
the thread of life descended
So you in your mother's womb
were formed

By spirit conceived,
Jesus lived, Jesus died
Jesus resurrected
  The second birth by which your life
  was newly created

Not just FORMED...

To the tune of Boston's
Man I will never be
https://youtu.be/Gmc_t7m2pC4

Doubt fiery arrows fired at me
So many years trying to be
The man you wanted me to be,
I reached so far
Shed tears from the pain
Of trying so hard
To be man I could never be
Someone you needed
I could never be for you
You were never meant for me

Jesus, set me free
Make me on the man
I was created to be

Dreams always shattered
Hope smashed to the ground
Somehow I never realized
How much you care for me

Now I am getting stronger
I can reach the peak
Mistakes I made don't hold me down
Knowing you believe in me
My heart bursts with joy
Flying ever higher
Knowing Lord
I can be man I was meant to be
In your hand you hold
My destiny

So as I look in your eyes
Listen to me
Look inside your heart
And find God's love
That will set you free
Lord knows You are precious, timeless
So be the one you were meant to be