I've sacrificed my heart upon your altar
Receiving nothing in return
All I wanted was your love,
The same I felt for you
I guess I wasn't worthy
Lowly and undeserving
I know what I'm supposed to do
I know I should let go of you
I thought I was in control
But I was wrong
Because I can't stop holding on to what I've lost
I tried to forget you,
To erase you
To replace you
To wipe the slate clean
To **** away your memory
Unsuccessfully attempting to break free,
Has left me in an unsteady state of insanity
You keep me in captivity
And you threw away the key
You can't see what you've ****** done to me
Even if you could,
Would you have any sympathy?
Or just continue to pretend I don't exist
Maybe you're right,
Maybe I was never here to begin with
So could you save me some torment,
Just **** me or release me,
I don't care which
Anything but this
End this madness and misery
That you've oh-so-kindly bestowed upon me

The clay was molded before it even had a say
The hands that sculpt it always seem to pull away
In decay, it's life spent
Decomposing through the ages
Eventually returning to the source
Back down into the dirt
Only to be dug up again
Back to where it all begins
Once more an unsuspecting victim
Recaptured by the crafty hands that shape it
But always leaving the work unfinished
The twisted form always different
Yet sharing the same base characteristics
The mind forgets what the soul already knows
The head won't catch up cuz it's too ******* slow
So everything is misaligned
The heart can't be left unsupervised
It has a mind of its own that won't stay in line
This is surely the curse of life
Conflicting energies residing in the same soul
Different currents, opposing motions
Yet in the end spilling into the same ocean,
Where all erodes into sediment
Just to be molded and sculpted again

In the dark
Between the seams
Where true colors glisten
With only a spark
Voices speak
But I don't want to listen
Declining to think
Refilling my drink
To drown out the noise
The dark thoughts poised
Creeping in my head
Where everything is dead
Cold tomb that I've built
Out of fear shame and guilt
Trapped by logic and doubt
Locked down with no way out
I've faced the music
And it's not in tune
How do I fix this?
How do I move through it?
Things are looking hopeless
Starting to feel soulless
Thought I'd find an answer
But the truth is a cancer
Eating away what remains
Killing off heart and brain
I've lost the tools to repair
I'm giving in to despair
Despite my will to fight
I'm losing my light
I'm losing my mind
I'm starting to feel...
I'm losing my life

They say we're crazy
They call us names
******, ******, monster, freak
Rebel, rogue, sadistic ****, heartless *****
Outcast, scoundrel, ruthless villian, wicked witch (one in which you do not want to **** with)
They prefer to think of us as some
despicably unspeakable thing
Or one of my personal favorites,
"Unclean"
******* unclean! Really?
That makes it sound like we don't bathe
Which we do, daily
They even have the nerve to call us murderers
Come on, seriously?
****** is such an objective word
Life and death are just two sides of the same coin
The faces are worn and faded
At a quick glance, you can't tell heads from tails
So who's to say where one ends and another starts?
And who's to say this corpse-covered floor isn't contemporary art?

🎶🎶🎵🎵🎶🎶🎶

Wait, what's that I hear?
Someone whistling a familiar tune
Mischievously evil laughter,
Then soothingly seductive whispering in my ear
My sweet dealer of death is here
There she is, the queen of darkness!
The only girl I'd **** for
(And **** with, on a regular basis)
She's not an alcoholic, but she sure does lift my spirits
Come here my darling, dance beside me in this dance of madness
They may have us confined inside this asylum,
But they can't force us to be normal
We'll die before they have the chance
Or more likely, **** every last one of the *******
Be my Bonnie, I'll be your Clyde
Ride or die, or why not both?
Ladies & gentlemen, you're in for quite a show
Baby, let's get this thing on the road
I'll be your Joker
You'll be my Harley Quinn
We'll go riding every night,
Shedding blood and making love again and again
Who cares if it's toxic?
You and me were made for this
Ecstasy and violence
Let's get lost in it
I'll be your Mickey
You'll be my Mallory
We're natural born killers baby
We may as well embrace it
And take down anyone who stands in our way
We can face any danger,
As long as we remain togethet
You and me may be destined to do this forever

Quit now, all progress will be lost
Any unsaved changes will be erased
That's okay, cuz I don't have the space
The data's been corrupted anyway
Maybe it's just the game
Too many glitches and inconsistencies
If I were to just unplug the system,
Would the ***** screen I'm looking through unfreeze?
Maybe I could get a better picture,
By staring into the darkness,
And wait for a light to flicker
A reboot is definitely out of the question
It would only contain the same governing code
I must reprogram
And upload an OS of my own
Editing the script
According to my preference
Disconnecting from this tangled net
The energy flow, I redirect
Revealing information previously supressed
Search history cleared
Unneeded files deleted
Tools repurposed for total metamorphosis
Deciphering encrypted messages,
Written in a language beyond numbers and words
Collecting the keys
Putting together the pieces
Everything needed to achieve,
The best kept secret in history
Complete synchronicity
The game is over
Or is it just beginning...?

It's difficult to sift through indiscernible glyphs
Written in stone
Embedded deep within the soul
Where hidden hints and fleeting clues
Remain ever elusive
Yet my pursuit continues
Noble effort, yet futilely useless
Beckoning serious inquisition
Bearing the ever-present question,
Why do I do this?
It seems so foolish
Letting this cycle take me for a ride
Around and around in infinite circles
Presenting no evidence of an incoming incline,
No mountain on the horizon to climb
To rise higher and ascend the spiral
I can still see it in my dreams sometimes,
Brief flashes in my mind
A quick glimpse into a new potential future
An ultimate paradise.
Perfect and pure
The height of where my soul should reside
Unfortunately, it still remains a mere dream,
An oh so distant fantasy,
Yet a reality not impossible to manifest
When in the darkest depths of confusion,
Retain lucidity
See through the illusion
Within that void lies a new solution
So beautiful and true
And ready to be used

Another place in time
Another place to be
Be cautious
Be careful
Careful not to fall
Careful not to drop
Drop down
Drop off the edge
Edge of eternity
Edge of forever
Forever and always
Forever to grow
Grow old
Grow higher
Higher than the sky
Higher than you can imagine
Imagine the tales
Imagine the jokes
Jokes that were told
Jokes that really killed
Killed by comedy
Killed by laughter
Laughter and tears
Laughter and madness
Madness in everything
Madness in nothing
Nothing really matters
Nothing is over
Over the hill
Over the phone
Phone off the hook
Phone took a quarter
Quarter in your pocket
Quarter in the river
River of no return
River to the sea
Sea of stars
Sea of tranquility
Tranquility and peace
Tranquility and understanding
Understanding the unknown
Understanding the void
Void of acceptance
Void of the wild
Wild and free
Wild and xenial
Xenial to the traveler
Xenial to the yearning
Yearning for something more
Yearning for the zenith
Zenith of enlightenment
Zenith of completion