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I wish you looked at me like you did before..
With love in your eyes and fire in your heart,
I wish I looked at you like I did before..

Before we met,
No expression,

Just another face in the crowd,

I wish I never found love with you,
So that I may never feel hurt, or ache or taste the stinging kiss of how you betray,

I wish I never traded my trust,
My unrelenting love for yours that was nothing but a pain
4d · 27
OLD-FASHIONED
I don't want that fake kinda love
Love you only under the sheets
love you only in the dark

I want that real kinda love
Old fashioned like a sundae with a cherry on top
Love you in the daylight
Fix it when it breaks apart

I don't want that cyber kinda love
Artificially generated
Love you only in private
Don't even know you in public

I don't want that fake kinda love
I want the real kinda love
The kind that makes you wanna show off

I don't want this Gen Z kinda funk
Act like you want me
then act like a punk

I want that real kinda love
Old fashioned ******* the rocks

I don't want this hide how you feel because you trying to be hard
I want that classic vintage
Coca-Cola with ******* type of love
5d · 30
PALLOR
I got the call from a dear dear friend,
He got the call from his daughter Jessi,
He said "I think they found him you gotta come down to 14th st"
"He has no ID come identify him"

I had already been searching for him for about a week,
Missing persons with no name to him,
I dropped off the baby at school and took myself to 14th Street,

Cold blue sheet covering him,
They wouldn't allow anyone near his body,
Two dogs I've never seen there before guarded his remains,

The coroner stops me before I got too close,
I said: "I'm his wife, I got the call"
They showed me pictures of his post mortem,
Bruised like an apple tattoos disappear into the blue,

I took a look at three and said "Yea, that's my husband"
Everyone calls him Irish but his name was Craig Allen Whisler a tattoo artist from Toledo, Ohio
Feb 13 · 30
STEALING TIME
Let et Scar Feb 13
I know how short the time is
I know that it's not infinite
I basked in the sunshine and took advantage
Not knowing how short life is

One day I'm so deep in love with you
I thought it was forever
Next day I get a phone call
The coroner needs to identify your cadaver

I know how short the time is
I know that it's not infinite
One day I thought you were my lover
The next day I almost got ***** by our mutual friend

Still I'm kinda stubborn
I don't wanna believe hope does not exist
I don't wanna be cold like my mother
I want to feel loved again

I know how short the time is
I know that it's not infinite
But for now I'd like to pretend
That I like you and you like me
so we can share warmth with our flesh
Before the pain is fresh

I've spent so long in hibernation
My heart has reached freezing temperatures
I know we don't get much time together
I'd like to savor these moments

I'd like to pretend I'm Robin Hood stealing time with you
Feb 11 · 30
DON'T BE SWEET
Let et Scar Feb 11
I write poems of woe,
Poems of hurt ,
Poems of feelings no one speaks of,

Don't ask me to smile,
Don't tell me I'm too pretty to be mean,
You don't know me,

Don't tell me to be sweet,
I'm bitter like coffee,
Need milk and honey to lighten your pallet,

I write about pain,
I write about those dark feelings you can't confess to your therapist,

I'll never be sweet,
I bite, I have teeth,
Don't touch me,
Don't talk to me like you know where I've been

Don't treat me like a delicate flower,
I'm deadly like nightshade,
I'm a spikey choke collar,
Don't handle me like I'm fragile,
Please don't be sweet
Feb 9 · 20
STAIN THE SHEETS
Let et Scar Feb 9
Sometimes I think I like you
Sometimes I **** just despite you
Sometimes I like the fantasy
That one day I might want you

Most times Im just alone
Most times I'm just ******* bored
I get annoyed when you call
I told you don't blow up my phone!

I'm sorry, I don't mean to be cold
**** it, I told you feelings I don't hold
I told you I'll call when I want
I don't like the feeling of being owned

Sometimes I think I could stand you
Most times I drink just to get through
How ******* cringe you really are
And you mean nothing to me

Sometimes I hate myself for being this way
This was never who I really been
Sometimes I just fake that I care
So I don't feel bad about myself

Most times I'm filling the void
I picked you to fill in the time
Sometimes I tell myself I'm not this ****** up
But baby you're just here to stain the sheets
Feb 9 · 34
CONTRAST
Let et Scar Feb 9
The girl you used to know
I used to be is
GONE

There are only partial fragments
Like bones scattered by the
WILD

You will never be able
To find all her pieces
To put her back
TOGETHER

She lost all that made her
LOVELY
When she selfishly loved whole heartedly

The girl that stands before you
Is now a harsher imitation of her former self

The kind of love she gave was SELFLESS
Neverending
deep and sacred like the depths of the sea

But you all took advantage
Picked a flower
Instead of letting her GROW

And now she's just a
CONTRAST
Not even a color
Just like black or white
A SHADE
Feb 7 · 38
SILVERPOON
Let et Scar Feb 7
I bought nirvana in a tiny red balloon
I tasted euphoria at the tip of a needle
I saw my dreams burn at the bottom of a silver spoon
I threw the cotton in to absorb all my demons

I drew blood for the first time at the age of 18
I mixed innocence with the devil that day
He took me by the hand and said:
"Let's go for a ride"

10yrs later my soul had died
It's been 20yrs now since I had my first taste
And today I can say I've split even

Another 10yrs I've spent redeeming myself
For the decade I pawned to the devil and now I can buy my soul back
Feb 7 · 31
HARDER
Let et Scar Feb 7
She said
harder
He said
Brown or white?
She said
Brown
*** white ain't right
And I ******* hate the light

- a poem about liquor
A poem about dark or light liquor
Feb 7 · 20
HAS-BEEN
Let et Scar Feb 7
I don't wanna be
another has been
Shoulda been
Could been
GREAT

I don't wanna be
another she was
She did
Didn't do ENOUGH

I don't wanna be
another pretty face
Gone to waste
Coulda been SOMEONE

I don't wanna be
Another tragedy
Sad to see
She didn't love herself ENOUGH

I don't wanna be
Another waste
Sour to taste
Like a rotted grape off the VINE

I don't wanna be
Another sad story
For you to see
In the paper or the fox 11 NEWS

I just wanna be
The one to survive all my agony
Like it didn't leave this wine stain all over ME

I just wanna be
Finally set free
From all my own demons holding me
BACK
Feb 6 · 37
KITTY
Let et Scar Feb 6
Kitty cat wants to come out and play
Kitty cat is stuck in a cage
Kitty cat scared of the rain
But Kitty cat hasn't been pet all day
Kitty cat picky as ****
She don't really like anyone
Kitty cat likes milk on her lips
But Kitty cat gets dry kibbles and bits
Kitty cat needs a new owner
Her last one is dead and gone
Kitty cat needs someone to love
She likes to chase for the fun
Kitty just chases her tail
*** every player always gets scared and bails
Yes, it is what you think. A ****** innuendo
Feb 6 · 34
PIECES
Let et Scar Feb 6
Hold me
I'm trying to keep my pieces in
Hold me
I'm tired of not fitting in
Hold me
I'm tired of exploding
Hold me
I'm sick of being in the cold
Hold me
I'm not as hard as I may look
Hold me
I promise you that I am warm
Hold me
I'm longing to be human again
Hold me
Before the sudden change of temperature forces me to break like glass
Feb 6 · 27
HOLE
Let et Scar Feb 6
No one will ever know the mass of this dark hole
How much it's grown
How hungry it's  stomach growls
To feed off my regrets

No one will ever feel
The sorrows that cradle me
When I'm alone
When I have no one to talk to

She will never know
How heavy this large stone is
The one I carry despite all my apologies

He will never know
How much I really loved him
Despite how much he hurt me

And all this silenced pain I swallowed without a sound

They will never know
All I've ever known is how to do things the 'wrong way' and no one ever said "NO"  to me.. enough for me to stop

She will never know
That as I was raising her with love
I was still a child trying to learn
To give her the love I never knew

He will never know
How fiercely I defended him
How I was blamed for his death
And how the survivor's guilt of not being there has eaten me away

They will never know the hole that's deep within me
The one I filled with angst, violence and self destruction

No one will ever know the void that is now me
The hole that I so easily fill with smiles that tricks you into thinking that I'm fine
Feb 6 · 41
FORGET ME NOT
Let et Scar Feb 6
Never forget me
I know just who you are
Never forget me
I carried you 9 months

I'll never forget you
You made me who I am

Never forget me
As the seasons pass
Never forget me
My sacrifices were a must

I'll never forget you
I wear you on my heart

Never forget me
I planned you from the start
Never forget me
I ripped myself apart

I'll never forget you
The most perfect thing I've ever made in my chaotic life

Never forget me
I'm the only one that stayed to raise you
Never forget me
As a baby I've always chased you

I'll never forget you
I've fought so hard to protect you

Forget me not
I loved you when I didn't love myself

Forget me not
Your father left us but I'm still HERE
A poem to my daughter
Feb 5 · 30
VENUS FLYTRAP
Let et Scar Feb 5
I'm like a Venus flytrap
I don't move for anyone
I don't go chasing my dinner
or my lunch

I'm like a Venus flytrap
I stay still within my potted soil
I only open my jaws when waiting for my food to land

I'm like a Venus flytrap
Trapping boys within my jaws
Once my trigger hairs are touched
My leaves snap shut
Sealing my prey inside

Waiting for disintegration
Turning you to liquid
as I swallow you whole

I'm like a Venus flytrap
My body only opens up a limited amount of times
If you touch me too much
my life expires
and I will surely die
Feb 4 · 24
CANDLES
Let et Scar Feb 4
I used to love candles...
Loved the way they glow,
A tiny dancing ballerina rising from the flame,
I used to love candles,
Loved the way they smell,
The comforting scent filling up the air,
Making a house a home,
I hate the sight of candles...
It's now a sign of mourning,
A sign of absence
a sign of eternal sadness,
I hate the smell of candles,
That flickering flame was snuffed,
Yet another reminder there's hollow in your eyes,
I loved the warmth of candles..
Filling my space with its light,
But now I hate blue candles,
Ice blue cold to the touch just like they found you
Jan 28 · 42
WHILE I DISAPPEAR
Let et Scar Jan 28
I'm sorry while I disappear..
It's the only thing that's real,
I'm sorry I don't wanna feel,
I'm killing all my sudden fears,
With absence,

I'm sorry if it's been too long,
Since the last time we have spoken,
I don't really have an explanation,
For all of my broken vibrations,

But disappearing is the only thing I'm good at,
Always running,
Always becoming,
Someone new,
Someone you don't know,

And maybe being a ghost is where I feel the most comfortable,
Because I have always been here... In body,
But my mind has always been gone,

Lost in space,
Lost in time,
Lost in all that could have beens,
I'm sorry that I disappear because it makes me feel unreal,
And I like it
Jan 20 · 27
BROKEN BLUES
Let et Scar Jan 20
He had blue eyes,
blue like the sky,
He had red hair,
Red like the sun,

I have brown eyes,
Brown tiger eye stones,
I have black hair,
Dark as the night in a starless sky,

But he had blue eyes,
Cold icy blues,
And he had red hair,
Fiery like his anger,

I have pink lips,
Pink like the scars you left me,
And I have red nails,
****** like this love you gave me,

He had blue eyes,
Broken Blues,
And he left me broken..
Broken like a bruise

I don't look at baby blues the same again,
Broken baby blue eyes leave you crying like an expanded ocean
Jan 20 · 72
CANELA
Let et Scar Jan 20
CANELA
Es piel canela,
Labios de miel,
Es el azucar que tomo en mi té,
Es pelo largo,
Ojos castaños,
Es el calor que extraño en mis Brazos,
Es sonrisa de luz,
Ardiente como el sol,
Es amor calmada como la noche y la luna,
Son carisias que me empapa,
Y el agua que lleña mi sed

CINNAMON
It's cinnamon skin,
Honey lips,
It's the sugar I drink in my tea,
It's long hair,
Dark brown eyes,
It's the warmth I miss in my arms,
It's a smile of light,
Burning like the sun,
It's love calm like the night and the moon,
It's caresses that engulf me,
And the water that fills my thirst
Jan 20 · 110
LO QUE MADRE SO SABE
Let et Scar Jan 20
Yo soy la hija querida,
La hija perdida,
La hija mayor,
Valiente como un soldado,

Mama es la manzana de donde yo cae,
Mama es la piedra pesada que no pude tirar,

Yo soy la hija amada
La hija malvada,
La hija que tira puños sin una espada,

Lo que madre no sabe es todo mi ardiente me lo quede a mi misma,
Para no darle el sabor de todo mi dolor,

Yo soy la hija chiquita,
La desapareceda,
Yo soy la hija que nunca llora enfrente de otros,
Que se va sin dejar huellas,

Lo que madre no sabe es que en mi orgullo quede tan herida,

Yo soy la hija salvaje,
La antisocial que se siente atrapada entre las paderes,

Lo que madre no sabe es que tenia vergueñza porque me converti en algo que hoy detesto,

Pero yo soy la hija calliente en la calléjera,
La hija al pendiente,
La hija que nunca falta ni tira falsos

-WHAT MOTHER DOESN'T KNOW -
I am the loved daughter,
The lost daughter,
The eldest daughter,
Brave as a soldier,

Mom is the apple from which I fell from,
Mom is the heavy stone that I couldn't throw,

I am the beloved daughter,
The evil daughter,
The daughter who throws fists without a sword,

What mother doesn't know is that all my ardor I kept to myself,
So as not to give her a taste of all my pain,

I am the tiny daughter,
The missing one,
I am the daughter who never cries in front of others,
Who leaves without a trace,

What mother doesn't know is that my pride was hurt and I was left deeply wounded,

I am the savage daughter,
The antisocial one who feels trapped between walls,


What mother doesn't know is that I was ashamed because I became something that I despise today,

But I am the hot-headed daughter roaming the streets,
The attentive daughter,
The daughter who never misses or throws a false claim

-PrimaJean
(English translation version)
Written in spanish
Jan 17 · 47
THAT GIRL
Let et Scar Jan 17
Ya, I'm sad girl,
I'm a hurt girl,
Sink to the bottom,
Float to the top girl,
Because I want more,
Even though I'm still sore,
I can't play at the bottom and let it soak,
Cut my oxygen but I'll never croak,
Hold all my pain back in a chokehold,
Yes I'm a bad *****,
Got that mad itch,
Dont step over my toes I'll make your eye twitch,
The blood on my hands,
I had em wiped clean,
And there's nothing more they can take from me,
I had nothing to lose,
Everything to gain,
And life's just another roller coaster another gamble in this card game.
Jan 17 · 29
CALLOUS
Let et Scar Jan 17
My hands are hard and callous,
Veins swollen,
Skin's tight,
I can barely close my fist,
My fingers stiff and unaligned,
Each knuckle bares a scar,
From each tooth and chin I made contact with,
Arthritic, numb, & unapologetic,
Sore fists still swinging blows,
Although it hurts to use them...
Stubborn is the host,
And even if these hands are battered,
When I draw blood it's the moment I savor the most,
I'm quick to anger,
There is no cool off until a blood vessel is expanded,
I'm cold with malice,
These hands are calloused,
Don't **** with me if you ain't ready for the bleed
Jan 16 · 23
TEMU GIRL
Let et Scar Jan 16
He said I found someone,
I really like her,
She wears glasses,
Reminds me of you,
She's on the bigger side,
She's independent too,
But she supports LGBTQ,
I said: Haaa that's gay!
"don't **** it up now" ,
She sounds like a softer version of me wow,
He says: "she's tomboyish but she's kinda lazy she talks too much, she might get clingy" ...
I said: "that's too bad, maybe that's not water weight"
But honey there's only one of me,
You said you didn't like me *** I'm too ******* mean,
Now you got a girl that's " kinda like me"
You make comparisons but I'm a limited edition and deep down you know she's just the temu version of me
Jan 16 · 20
LIGHTING IN A BOTTLE
Let et Scar Jan 16
I'm one of a kind,
Nobody's girl,
Highly addictive,
Short in supply,
Some try to claim me,
Some try to see me,
But I'm like a shooting star that flies by once in lifetime,
I'm easy to love,
But hard to swallow,
Boys try to catch me but I'm like catching lighting in a bottle,
I runaway from love at full throttle,
Drown my sorrows at the end of a bottle,
I'm like a butterfly that can't fly when it loses powder in its wings,
I won't land on your flowers and get caught in a dead end dream,
Silly boy's  pollen is just poison to me,
You can catch me like a firefly if   I can keep your love by my bedside in my battered heart shaped box
Jan 16 · 22
DREARY
Let et Scar Jan 16
It's eerie..
Every time I see that 14th st sign,
It's hopeless..
Sitting on this Blvd of broken dreams today,
It's hollow..
This place that ****** the soul out of my chest without any warning,
It's dreary..
Seeing the ghost of us every morning at the slab when you're no longer there,
It's frightening..
How your permanent silence left messages on that green electrical box long after your body decayed,
It's carvings..
On a nearby tree that leaves the only sign of our existence that day,
It's heavy..
To know that even if your body died that day my soul still stayed to accompany you in death,
It's pain..
All that I can taste when I drive down that street to this very day
Jan 16 · 37
HEAVY
Let et Scar Jan 16
My mind's heavy with the words I don't say,
My hands are ***** with the work I put in,

My soul is drenched with the blood that I sprayed,
My body's covered in the scars of the pain,

I fought to gain more than I could get,
But my life's been a gamble for the bet that I've placed,

It ain't ok to think about the things I don't say,
But if I say them..
I'll be in four point restraints,

It's heavy..
But I have a mean poker face,
I don't show it..
I grimace through my dismay,

I told you,
My mind's heavy and you can't live in this space,
I'm a head case therapy and pills don't work for this damaged case
Jan 16 · 26
MARGINS
Let et Scar Jan 16
I was skipping on that fine line of life and death,
I was running through the trenches and drug habits,

Not for a second did I fear it,
In fact, I loved every moment of it,
The fast life gave me a taste for the hell I've made,

I made my bed,
Now I gotta lay in it,
It's about time I got up and set it a flame,
I'm here to stay,
No overdosing today,

But I'm living in the margins with no one to blame,

Yea, I told him:
"You either bring it to me or I'll go find it"
Like danger was the only thing that I craved,

And I normalized the needle to vain,
The monkey on my back grew into an ape,
And I couldn't get enough so I ate and ate,
Til my stomach was sick and my life's a mess,

Hey, this wasn't the future I saw for myself,
And now I'm sitting on the sidelines of could-have-beens,

I could've been smart,
Could've been great,
I could've stayed in school and built my mansion on bricks,

Instead I deviated the plan and it was plagued,
I was blinded by puppy love and the money I made,

It's safe to say pretty soon I needed a place to stay,
Because the home that I built was never a safe place,

It's taken me 9yrs to repair the damage I made,
And I'm still on the margins of my duality where there is no escape
Jan 4 · 34
KISS THE SUN
Let et Scar Jan 4
I kissed the sun,
I raised the dead,
I took another shot to the head,
he asked me "baby you need another one? You good?"
And I said "I'm ok",
I took that shot of matchstick ******, leaned back on momma's bed,
turned blue I flatlined then,
I kissed the sun,
I joined the dead,
The baby's screaming like an alarm clock and she crawls to me,
Im drenched,
I wake,
He says "sorry baby your face is gonna hurt tomorrow"
He says "you stopped breathing and you were blue we threw you in the tub there's no response",
"We slapped the **** out of you" ,
I licked the sun,
Flirted with death,
I tasted for once all the damage I had done,
Momma came home she never knew just hours ago her baby laid dead in her bed,
This was the 3rd time that I blotted out the sun,
And it's the last time I'll take my soul back
Jan 4 · 33
CAPTIVE
Let et Scar Jan 4
He's gone,
But I'm still here,
He's held me captive for so many years now,
I've stopped having those dreams where I've moved on but always returned to my torturous old home,
Where he won't allow me another lover,
Where I am no longer comfortable in,
Where it no longer brings warmth or joy,
Just a vision of my ruins pain and despair,
I have a chastity hugging my throat,
From it hangs a rose crystal meant for healing,
But in return only holds me as it's only prisoner
Jan 4 · 35
LOVE ME WHEN I'M GONE
Let et Scar Jan 4
The fire has long expired,
This one sided love got me bored and n tired,
You said you never saw me like that,
Like I was never to be loved,
Like I was never your girl and that's fine,
I get better with the time,
I'm that girl that ages like fine wine,
You're a grape that rotted off my vine,
Every word out of your mouth nothing but lies,
But now another one caught my eye,
And unlike you I know how to say goodbye,
And now I know you'll love me when I'm gone,
Love me when I'm DONE,
Miss me when you no longer can pick up that line,
Thought you can keep me in the back burner,
But honey I'm the burn and hurt you when I take my heart back,
And you can diss me when I laugh,
Miss me when you cry,
I always knew I'd leave a mark,
Leave a scar,
Leave your ***** bagged up in the back of my car,
And it will never matter what you do,
I will never come back to you,
And you can love me when I'm gone,
Miss me when I'm done,
But there is nothing you can have that I will ever, ever want
Oct 2024 · 53
PLUNGER
Let et Scar Oct 2024
Push the plunger,
Pull the thread,
Stars in my eyes,
I can be anything when I am HiiGH,
Kiss me sweetly,
Blood on my lips,
Licked that poison off the top of a needle,
Push the plunger,
Stars in my eyes,
I only love you when I’m high,
After the train has left the station…
***** dont touch me!!
It stings like broken glass,
Left these track marks all on my arms,
Push the plunger,
Pull the thread,
I am nothing when I am DEAD
Oct 2024 · 45
TEASE THE THOUGHT
Let et Scar Oct 2024
I tease the thought of what love could be,
I tease the thought with a fine toothed comb,
Weaving intricate designs that appeal to the eye and mind,
I think about all the fruits he brought,
Sweet tooth tricked my brain into thinking bitter fruit was bliss,
I tease the thought of love with ease,
But the bitter after taste stung my lips with a poisoned kiss,
I flirt with the fantasy that love may be real,
I **** the flame the moment I feel,
I've walked the walk enough times to know...
That love teases me and I don't tease it.
Oct 2024 · 41
LIE OF MY LIFE
Let et Scar Oct 2024
I wanna wrap my arm around yours,
I wanna lean my head on your shoulder,
I wanna blow smoke to the sky
I want you to see the stars in my eyes,
Glossy, glossy, feel so high,
Glassy, Glassy, feels so nice,
I wanna feel special like I know I'm not,
I wanna fall in love with the lie of my life,
I wanna feel like that time I almost died,
I wanna feel your heart beat in mine,
I wanna lay with you like I always craved for,
I wanna walk away like I never knew ya,
I wanna fall in love with the lie,
I wanna kiss you under the stars,
I wanna swallow the smoke you blow in my eyes,
I wanna feel, touch, kiss, ****, sleep under a blanket of stars,
I wanna feel high, be alive just this ONE time
Oct 2024 · 43
SHY
Let et Scar Oct 2024
SHY
You said you're really good in bed,
And I might have to put you to the test,
You said you made love like a God,
But I gave you a taste and lemme tell you it wasn't ****,
All I did was lay there like the dead,

1,2,3 pumps you were all fluff just like a loaf of bread,
You couldn't tickle me if the joke was funny,

I got up and I left that bedroom running,
You were such a hack in bed!
You were such a lousy **** Wish I was dead,

Maybe your shy,
Maybe your not,
Maybe I make men nervous, And your talk looks more like Child's Play,

I'll give you one more chance to change my mind,
I'll give you one more chance to make it up to me,
You know me now,
So you can stop being shy,

Oh no, oh God it was terrible AGAIN!
1 pump..
1 1/2...
A minute man,
I guess I won't be seeing you again,

Your bed game ***** and your attitude stinks more than my regret,
I changed my mind,
I rather go blind,
I rather ******* than to let you make it "up" or down to me again.
A poem of a lousy fxxk
Oct 2024 · 127
AMMONIA DRENCHED FLOWERS
Let et Scar Oct 2024
"AMMONIA DRENCHED FLOWERS"

They say if you like a flower let it grow,
Do not pick it before it grows,
I saw pretty flowers grow..
Amongst the silver and the gold,
A silhouette against a reddening sun,
Under my boots the clatter of crumbling rocks,
Trying to find relief why keeping modesty,
A sea of yellow sour flowers fold upon the fields,
As I water them up against the wall,
I ****** upon the flowers,
As pretty as they were,
They fill the air with the pungent scent of ammonia,
A visit from every vagabond, misplaced person, or ghosts in living in shells,
That walked the yellow brick road before I died
Oct 2024 · 37
FREEDOM
Let et Scar Oct 2024
We are not free when we're always fighting,
What are we fighting for?

We fight for peace,
we fight at wars,
we fight in the name of the lord but whose god is the most?

The reasons for which we fight for has been lost in translation lost for reasons unknown,

Freedom is not free,
Freedom is not yours,
Nor is it mines at all,

We fight for equality,
Fight for a government that fills its own pockets with the blood and the sweat of the poor,

Fat cats get larger,
Cash turned to plastic,
Poverty stricken our hungry souls,
We starve in our own home country while we feed the ones throwing stones,

Freedom is not free,
Freedom is not yours,
Nor is it mine at all,

We fight for identity but yet still have an identity crisis,
And no one knows who they are anymore,

We're controlled by pandemics,
Killed off by a virus,
We vote but our voice still isn't our own.
Apr 2023 · 149
"THE EXPLODING HEART"
Let et Scar Apr 2023
Sometimes, I can't hold it together,
My silence isn't really strength,
Sometimes, it's an emotional shock,
So my silence is to keep me from falling apart,
Sometimes, I just need a solid a hug,
To keep all my broken pieces from falling apart,
But sometimes, it's just too much to ask,
Because everyone assumes I'm in no need for human affection,
Most times, I just hold my breath,
I feel my exploding heart in my neck,
Sometimes, I just need a hug,
Something genuine where people aren't trying to take advantage to feel me up.
Jul 2022 · 294
WHEN THE SIREN SCREAMS
Let et Scar Jul 2022
Have you ever seen a banshee cry?
Or heard a siren scream?
Have you ever seen such beauty in her tragedies?

Have you ever questioned why the banshee stays screaming?
Maybe her screaming is actually weeping,
Have you ever wondered WHY the Siren serenades?
Maybe her song is a lullaby of death,

Her beautiful song sings a melody of disdain,
And the banshee's unpleasant exterior is a reflection of her everlasting ache,

And maybe just maybe I can relate..
To two different types of creatures from land and sea with feelings astray,

Pretty on the outside,
Putrid on the inside,
Singing, screaming songs of pains and woes,
Masking the aches through alluring songs and enchanted smiles,

But you KNOW that when the Siren SCREAMS instead of sings they took something so dear to validate her painful tune of decay
Apr 2022 · 162
SHE SMELLS LIKE
Let et Scar Apr 2022
She's like Hypnotic Poison,
A bittersweet juicy fruit,
But fallen far from the rotten tree,
Her kiss like belladonna,
The beautiful flower also known as Deadly nightshade,
It all depends on how you approach her,
A sour patch kid,
she can be sweet but then she's sour,
She throws hands like an older brother,
But she can be loving like a mother,
Her love is like a gamble,
It all depends on the deck you handle,
To those fortunate enough to know her...  She's a bubbly comforting ray of sunshine on the gloomiest of days,
Although she's stained with pain,
It's beautiful to see,
It makes you feel like your not stained by life and misery,
Sometimes you'll miss her sorrow,
It lets you know SHES REAL,
She wears the stain of life so well,
As if parading the latest trend,
She makes a mockery of all her pain,
like she never felt the sting of it,
He says she smells like a smoke machine,
I guess the compliment is fitting,
She clouds the mind then dissapates,
As easily as she came,
She's open yet her walls are high,
Puts the wall of china to shame,
She only brings her walls down,
If you stop trying to climb them,
She's sickly sweet like ******,
Addicting, she feels good but you know you can't control her,
She swallows your soul whole,
she draws out your darkest secrets,
Romanticizing all of it,
She smells like a Halloween smoke machine,
Smoke and mirrors,
A tantalizing scene,
She drinks like she's about to swallow an entire ocean,
Inhales cigarettes and *** like it gives her air to breath,
She covers up the smell of disdain,
But she's still a smoke machine,
And everyone calls her Savage but her name is PRIMA JEAN
Inspired by a boy who said I smell like a smoke machine
Apr 2022 · 120
THE BROKEN HALF PRINCESS
Let et Scar Apr 2022
There once was a broken half princess,
That needed a well matching half,
She one day pulled out her heart,
Then kept it safe in a jar,
It floated in her tears for months and months,
A year or 2 later shook that old jar,
And saw it has been long enough,
With fear in her mind and hope in her heart,
She finally opened that jar,
Along came a prince in her sight,
she thought was worthy enough,
So she trusted him with her broken heart,
He held it until it was warm,
Then heard it beat like a drum,
She said "FINALLY, put it back in its place",
The charming prince completed her broken half,
Months later she started to rot,
With the stench of deceit and a wandering eye,
She thought she was more than enough.... For him to crown her #1,
Sometime later he decided she wasn't enough,
Now Dethroned to take second place,
When she asked why he lied in her face,
With his guitar played her a melody of decay,
Quickly draining her of a beautiful soul,
Her body riddled with pain,
As his body was stained with someone else's skin,
Like it was some kinda of twisted parade,
The broken princess said "I've had enough!",
So she pulled out her bleeding heart and tore it in half,
Saddened with his selfishness,
She locked herself up in that tower again,
This prince kissed her cheek that poisoned her skin,
Then she said: "sorry I wasn't enough...."  And never dared to love again
       -Dedicated to: Hector G.
Apr 2022 · 114
YOU HAVENT SEEN ME SMILE
Let et Scar Apr 2022
You haven't seen me smile..
For a long, long time now,
I bet you thought the light's out,
I bet you thought nobody's home,
Well, I haven't been around much...
But I guarantee you I was still here,
I was watching from a distance,
What you do in shadows thinking I'm not there,
You haven't seen her smile in a while,
I bet you thought you cut her lights out,
Your like a Double sided 2-faced coin,
Thought you could handle two guns and a fire,
You got your finger on the trigger...
But your trigger finger's MINE,
Shot yourself on one foot,
And tripped over the other,
I bet you saw her cry alot,
I bet you told your friends,
We haven't smiled for a while ...
But we'll see who's laughing at the END.
#betrayal
Apr 2022 · 113
-BABYGIRL-
Let et Scar Apr 2022
The day I gave you life,
Heard your first gasp was the scariest day of my life,
It was wholesome, it was AWESOME,
It was THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE,
The day you took your first steps you bumped your head and didn't even make a sound,
I swooped you up, carried you in my arms & off to the Doctor we went,
But everything was ok,
The day you were ***** trained, you picked up so fast,
And by surprise learned something we have never taught you,
The day your father died,
YOU'RE ALL I HAD & a piece of me also died with dad,
And you were such a big girl... You watched me slowly decay in bed,
I never cried, but I died for days on END,

You told me:
"Mommy, everything is going to be ok, I love you.. YOU ARE THE BEST MOMMY EVER"

And those were the best words I ever heard in my existence,
It's always been just you and me, and now the distance it's killing me again,
But I know I'm working on myself today,
It aches in my soul EVERYDAY...
But babygirl... it's ALL FOR YOU,
And we will be together again someday.
A poem to my Daughter
Apr 2022 · 128
DEAR REMI
Let et Scar Apr 2022
All you have is my silence,
Because you've heard me vent and talk all day,
And now I'm in your absence And i don't know what to say,
Now that I come home to nothing it's starting to feel like my gilded cage,
And now i ain't got nothing but the four walls and the static noise inside my head,
There's a million things I wish I could have done better,
But all in all I'm thankful for those days you stuck with me thru stormy weather,
And losing you means so much more than anyone could ever know,
Our silent bond was strong like carbide it radiated in volumes,
And now the silence seems so loud I have so many feelings that words can't muster...
But you will ALWAYS have ALL MY LOVE in this static silence and a special place within my cardboard heart
#demise#pet#rat
Apr 2022 · 104
SMILE FOR A WEEK
Let et Scar Apr 2022
Your like a fake diamond ring,
Pretty to look at but can only make me smile for a week,
Before the vagueness of it's molecule turns your finger green,
Ya, I'm saying you are fake as ****,
You and your buddy are just sitting ducks,
*** I don't give a **** about a soul now,
I was on my way to turn into solid gold but how?
Now that you reminded me exactly why I only trust myself and **** everybody else!
I'm on a mission to destroy you,
Ya, you came in really strong shinning like a golden dollar,
But now with time you've lost all your luster,
It's too bad,
So sad,
You can never treat a woman right,
Now tell me who's the lonely one now?
Tell me what you really got?
Show me what I haven't got?
Tell this bitter melon again that her anger will keep her lonely until her dying day,
Who the hell is gonna keep you company?
No one!
*** no one likes a narcissistic liar,
No one trust a flaunter,
All the evidence of your destruction is making you sink faster!
I told you!
**** with me,
I'll ******* twice,
I will destroy your entire life,
Everything you held so dear that you cherish will be mine,
I will strip you like a freshly waxed floor of your ego, your ***** appointments coming to a sudden halt, that job that makes you all that money imma take that too,
You made a grave mistake in thinking that I was too weak to get away,
My pain isn't a weakness it's my energy,
I'm small but blow up in your hand like a hand grande ,
I locked my sights onto you I'm coming in silent like a ******,
Shoot to ****,
Trust me I got an Ill will,
Your fake as ****,
Could only make me smile for about a week,
then after that you turn the soul to green,
but not me!
I don't even have a soul to sell,
I pawned that **** so long ago,
I am something that you won't forget until your dead,
Run that sorry line by me again,
Prove to me your a "Real Man",
I'll pull your sheets as your on your knees kissing my hands,
I can assure you I am something you will definitely regret!
Apr 2022 · 85
BLACK HORSE
Let et Scar Apr 2022
I was in a rush,
Rush that pushed too far,
Weekend warrior converted to a carrier for the monkey on her back,
She can handle the monkey on her back...
******* it's a gorilla now,
Holds her tightly in a chokehold,
Dispersing inner demons, rage and a pseudo sense of happiness,
Years now passed living thru her hollow shell,
She don't feel.. not anymore,
Not since she jumped back on that black horse,
It was time to retire this tired horse,
And her broken soul as well,
Too many years she saw her soul mixed in a silver spoon and needle,
She learned to tame an unrelenting horse,
For years with no triggers at all,
Then suddenly the silent killer crossed her path again....
Beckoned her BACK,
It's so alluring... Her mystery,
But it's just a trap,
And here I find myself again riding the black horse on an aluminum foil road,
Watching life disappear... as she's lost up in smoke.
#tar#relapse
Apr 2022 · 91
BY MY SKIN
Let et Scar Apr 2022
I am judged by my skin ONLY,
Frowned upon on by my skin,
Minimized by my skin.

Opportunity and second chances are never given,
I'm taken for granted,
Treated like a dummy,
BY MY SKIN,

Not by race, sexuality, social status or my gender,
But by the way I chose to express myself,
By the way I turned my body into art,
A road map of collaborated stories,
Permanently imbedded in my skin,

I face prejudice and disapproving scrunched up glances on a DAILY,
As if I'm a walking sin,
Not because I'm black, white, red or yellow.... But because of the Ink tattooed upon my skin,

Because I chose to match the outside with what's on the inside,
Because I'm not ashamed to display who I really am,
I don't live by the approval of others,
I balance on the razors edge on a DAILY,

I cut my chances to come up by half,
When I chose to mark my skin,
Because being tattooed, a walking work of art, a circus sideshow freak show,
Is just like being black,

I'M JUDGED BY MY APPEARANCE ALONE,
In the ignorant public eyes I'm just an uneducated high school dropout, gangbanger, criminal or addict,
Even though IM NONE OF THOSE THINGS,
Never given the chance to know me,
Just dismiss me *** they think they KNOW ME,

People lock their doors when I walk by,
Hide their children, wallets, and belongings,
Despite my education, my experience and lengthy diverse resumes,
They won't hire me because they judge me BY MY SKIN.
Apr 2022 · 89
RECYCLED SOULS
Let et Scar Apr 2022
I have come across many broken souls,
Angel's that fell from heaven and landed in blood,
We are the degenerate generation,
Victims of environment and circumstance,
Those who had no guidance stood no chance,
Some were thrown to snake pit and didn't last,
Some of us brushed off the dust and just danced,
Unscathed like water couldn't touch a flame,
Looked the devil in the face told him I was game,
I'm no lame and I'll step over all his flames,
Everyday I come across another story that reigned in blood and glory,
Gives enough of a spark to ignite a fire in me,
Everytime I feel weak I remember all the faces, and the stories every angel bathed in blood had told me,
Never lie down,  prove them all wrong and conquer thee,
Then only then will your soul truly be FREE.
Apr 2022 · 97
WE DON'T TALK
Let et Scar Apr 2022
Today I had a really exciting day,
I couldn't wait to send you a txt but ..... Wait..
I forget, that was yesterday..
And today's another day I'm alone AGAIN,
But I couldn't wait to vent,
And I couldn't wait to laugh, I completely forgot that you aren't there & this is our last good bye,
And I have no one else to pass the time,
Dry my own tears every night,
Like it's just a piece of pie,
And I can't tell you how many times I wanna die,
But I keep it all inside,
*** I'm not yours,
And you were never mine,
I hold myself at night to keep all my pieces in place inside,
So I don't lose my whole self this time,
And I picked up the phone to tell you what's on my mind,
But we ain't cool like that,
You ****** up my whole mind,
Im screaming deep inside and no one pays me any mind,
I smiled when I saw your name pop up,
I wanted to make you laugh,
Picked up the phone then I  remembered... We are done,
And we don't talk like that anymore.
Apr 2022 · 242
IN THE DARK
Let et Scar Apr 2022
Sometimes I miss the DARKNESS..
It's where I always feel safe,
Where shadows never follow... Because they are created by LIGHT,
I've NEVER been a child of God,
I frolick in the night,
Sometimes I even miss the PAIN,
It makes me feel ALIVE,
They say "Come to the Light"
But that's too close to DYING, like flirting with suicide,
Sometimes I miss the darkness...
It's cool, crisp kiss upon thy cheek,
Right here I can cry FREELY,
And no one See's a tear,
I'm married to the darkness,
His cold- hearted bride frozen in Suspended time,
Because everybody knows if you follow the light...
YOU ARE SOON TO DIE,
And no one escapes the REAPER... for you cannot DIE TWICE.
Apr 2022 · 90
HER LAST PARTING WORDS
Let et Scar Apr 2022
I knew this day was coming..
WE knew it all along,
We didn't know when or where,
Dreaded that fateful call,
It was a sunny summer July day,
A day that soon turned grey,
On the 7th day of the 7th month your body would start decay,
It's a day I'll NEVER forget,
I day I'll never miss,
But it's not that day that hurt me the most.... It was the day BEFORE,
In the parking lot at Jon's liquor store,
When out her mouth came out these words:
"DADDY, I LOVE YOU, I want things to go back the way they used to be... It hurts me to see you out here this way"

At 6 yrs old her last parting words, they stung to me the most,
A week before they both were born,
I took the biggest pill I ever swallowed,
Soon that sunny summer day faded into grey,
I didn't cry, I didn't scream,
I went silent and NUMB for about a week,
That day I heard my soul shatter like glass,
He took a piece of me with him..
But it was her last parting words that BROKE my heart that day.
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