They say I have a mom Complex,
This can either be good or bad I guess,
They say I take care of everyone,
But I don't give 2 flying ***** about myself,
They say I've been stuck in survival mode too long....
That I don't know how to react to normal human interaction,
But I became such a recluse that this became the usual reaction,
And yes I have a tendency of covering everyone's ***** because I'm loyal and soon enough my loyalty will also be my downfall.

I hurt myself on the outside ,
To **** the thing on the inside,

Hoping some day this dagger plunges deep enough to ***** me out,

See baby I'm suicidal.
I play with fire,
Flirt with death,
I decorate my deathbed,

Destroy me on the outside,
To distract from what eats at me on the inside,

Everyday 100 scenarios play like movie reels inside my head,
Jump in front of a train,
Hang myself from the beam above my head,
Til my employer finds me blue and dead,
Drink another bottle of ***,
Jump in my car, get out and DRIVE,
Head-on collision all while I'm toasted and High,

And this is the story of my life,
*** baby I'm suicidal,
And when you left I came unglued

I looked past the reflection...
The one that sees me real,
I push past the rejection,
In your mind I've disappeared,
Every now and then I reappear,
Like the ghost of Xmas past materialize... Solidify my existence,
As much as you may want me gone,
I stay an unrelenting wave that crashes hard against your walls,
See I won't let you forget me,
Forget the hurt bestowed upon me,
I look past the foggy reflection...
Of who I used to be before,
Before love, before hate, before YOU & ME,
Before we became a "thing"
another flash from the past that should have stayed right where it was... left,
BEHIND.

Shes a tiny glass menagerie
Action packed just let her be,
She's jaded she's not broken,
Her boiling rage is just a token,
Her best feature,
She's a creature beneath the human skin,
Underlying,  there's no denying,
The past is exactly what had built her,
Why yes, oh yes, she's beautiful,
A beautiful disaster dancing in a music box,
Dancing circles around dismounted dreams,
She stares at her reflection....
Her only true companion... A reflection of a cracked girl trapped within the mirror

I tried the best I could,
But you never would,
Take a helping hand,
Instead you picked up a bottle and you fled,

Locked, lost inside your mind,
Schizophrenia you couldn't hide,
It got worse and worse with each swig you swallowed,

I tried to be your backbone,
I twisted myself so far backwards that my spine had snapped too,

I tried to hold your hand,
All the way onto dry land,
Instead you pulled me under,
And then I too drowned in this water,

It's hard to comprehend, empathize, understand,
How hard it is to balance on the razors edge,

It's hard to watch somebody you love wither away,
I tried for the longest to preserve you ,
But in the process I too disintegrated  into nothingness,

Still I tried to hold onto that memory of the person I fell in love with, Hoping that you'd come back someday,
Instead your mind was altered,
And it became to falter,
The schizophrenia of yours left me no choice but to abandon,
Both home and this marriage,

Although I didn't want to,
But you became dangerous,
Threaten to take my child and tell her that you had to **** me,

And now it's life or death,
It's you or me,
And only ONE can be left standing,

So I made my decision,
I had to walk away,
Before I too lost my sanity.

But I tried so hard to be the glue,
To preserve both me and you our daughter too,
But I'm only human,
I'm not invincible,

But your lack of trying and this constant fighting,
It left me tattered & broken,
And it just left me feeling like I am the walking DEAD.

Is the glass half empty or half full?
Idk depends on your point of view,
Are you a pessimist or an optimist?
Do you see the world in grey or thru rose colored glasses??
I say the glass is just empty,
I've tipped over the glass and emptied it's contents,
In the same manner you emptied me,
See I dug up the courage and what little I had of my old self left to take a chance....
On you.
But you... You took every last drop of life I had in me,
Left me dry like a dessert,
Discarded like an unwanted pet,
See you made a demon out of me,
A fool,
an empty hole,
A shadow of the girl I used to be,
Want to be,
Never be.
Ever again,
Because this time I'm swearing off...
And I won't love,
Or give anymore pieces of my broken self to ANYONE again,
You are all undeserving,
So drink your half full glass and leave it EMPTY.

Don't be fooled by a beautiful girl,
Her shadow only follows to keep her enemy closer,
The biggest monster is not the one who lies under the bed,
but the one who stares you back in the mirror everyday,
With the face of an Angel and the spirit of sin,
Her wings made of broken glass,
Her Halo but a needle hole in a darkened sky,
She is galaxies away in her own head,
She lost herself when chivalry went dead,
Don't mistaken sweet faces for saints,
Remember Lucifer once was God's right hand wingman