Free falling through clouds, lost sight on what is around.
No parachute in hand, yet no worries of the outcome.
I will, once I land.
Not quite yet.. Crying.
Unaware if they're tears of joy or tears of sadness.
What I am doing is complete madness.
Or could it be the pressure, & force of the wind?
My tears are now falling with me.
They are the salt water that made the ocean beneath me.
I fanilly crash, so deep into the cold sea.
The oceans temperature has taken over me.
No movement, no heart beat, no longer holding my breath.
No sound heard from me, because I have already drowned, before touching "ground".

These thoughts of you roam my mind wildly at night.
Pacing left, & right, left, & right.
Not aware whether my heart or my mind are deceiving me.
Is this right? Is it wrong?
A constant thought, & mental debate.
My feelings are true, but are they to you?
Or is this a simple game you play?
& my body, feelings, heart, mind, & soul are the game pieces.
You come, & go as you please.
Making me believe, then leave me alone to think.
Is this just a fling, or the real thing?
Please speak up, I do not have much time.
You've been ripping my heart out of my chest, piece, by piece.
Without thinking that I need this last piece left, to live.