CHILDLESS MOTHER!!!

It's impossible to know that you child is still okay,
To protect your child was your job, so you think you failed in every way.
When your child is no longer with you and still so very young,
You can’t help but think there must be more you could have done.
Because you didn't do what was needed u failed u must confess,
Now daily wakeups for me are extremely depressed.
You turn the music up and sob while in your car and the shower hides your tears,
You know you can’t survive this kind of loss another day, another month, another year.
Yet, the years go by and you realize you’re still alone,
Although you did all you knew and could, your child did not come home.
They take my children and rip me of my rights as a mother,
Now the everlasting pain I'm covered hurts like no other.
The child you carried and brought into this world has gone away,
There’s nothing left to do but pray and pray .
How evil are those who desire nothing more than to destroy the mother-child bond,
You continue to seek justice, but the gut wrenching pain goes on and on.
No matter how huge the loss, you have no choice but to start another day,
Without your child that gave your life meaning in every way.
So now your lifeless all you want to do is die,
So confused on self worth low self-esteem thinking why try.
The crazy thoughts on why they had to go makes no sense at all,
They say brain surgery to be with them or allow your family to fall.
You lie down at night and think of your child and feel so all alone
There is nothing in this world you want more than for your child to just come home.

     By:Santandra Davis

I am a woman who was labeled a unfit  mother,
My children are now forced to live with my brother.
Every day since then my life has went away,
It left me in pain and confused on what to do or say.
But why does society get to be the judge of me,
And Child welfare services has got the eyes to see.
Who knew that my life would change from one life event,
What about the years I tried and time I spent.
The baby is crying and the voices never leave,
My life is different I'm forced to be alone and left to grieve.
Who made u God walk one day in my shoes,
Because of my health is the reason why u judge me the way u do.
My heat hurts every day I'm so lifeless,
Somebody please help me I'm going through a mother crisis.
My kids need me they are getting so big,
Instead of help u left me with a hole to dig.
I might as well bury myself there's no point for me to live,
I am not who I used to be without my wonderful kids.
They say I need to move on and it's something I have to accept,
But they will never understand that my kids I wish I could have kept.
Living like this I will never be okay
Until my life makes sense in some kind of way
Now everyday I wake up life is filled with depression,
And that's me or I mean my Mother's Confession.

If I told you that I Love you 💓 know It is always true,
The best way I know how to,
I know sometimes you're tired of the fight for us to be together
But know that the fight will soon be over and we will live forever
If Loving you is wrong then I Don't want to be Right
I can't stand to be without you in my sight
Starting from the bando days to now we're still standing tall
Even when we have everybody who believes in our downfall
Our struggle is real and it's just crazy sometimes he drives me insane
For me to have changed me and for you to say that I'm still the same
I can't be the same because I look into the mirror and I don't even see me
Everyday I wake up in depression and just wanting to be set free
Free from it all I'm tired of the pain that I'm always feeling
Getting played for a long time I guess my heart needs some healing
It's hard to say but loving you I lost myself
And I'm still out here alone and search for some help
If you truly love me then why you speak to me in such a way
And when I asked you to be real for some reason you tend to play
Why can't you love me the way that I love you
Why is it so easy for you to be quick and say you're through
What is it about when you're wrong you could never apologize and then we move on
When will you start caring when I am dead and gone
But even then I would like to say it probably be to late
Remember the Love I have for you was real I thought was fate
Over and over again I try
to find someone who truly love me before I die but why??
Loving you so much I really lost who I am,
Now I know how it feels being taken for granted by a Man
But I said I lost me because I was in love with you
U took advantage of my heart intentionally by what u do
I Love you Why u couldn't love me I don't understand why
My love so real I was willing to die.
But I couldn't understand with out you I don't want to live
Love is a choice and all I did was give
I was giving while you gave up
Leaving me to believe that me loving you wasn't enough
I stay on my knees giving it to the highest power up above
Begging him to him to help me find me again who I lost being in Love 💕💕