I aimed
for heaven
yet fell
into the depths
of hell
I fell deep down
with a wicked
frown
dirt & blood
on my satin
party gown

I pull myself apart,
I put myself back together

I let you tear me down,
I put myself back together

I let you consume me,
feel you consume me

You’re neither good nor pure,
I want it, all of it

Days pass, you have broke me
I put myself back together

Soak up
the
gloomy hours
dance in
the heaviest
of showers
inhale the scent
emerging
from the
flowers
For the beauty
is in the mundane

A false
prophet
spoke to me
in dire
dreams

I can't love myself,
and still love you.
you struck me
like lightning
in the midnight blue.
this is an ode to me,
and not to you
I love myself,
no longer
you

demons lie ravaged
by the light
the scorn of night

His heart
beats null
mind is dull
he sings
me to lull
while planting
seeds
of poison
in my soul

My dreams
my nightmares
collide as one,
awakening me
amidst these dark times

The open, vast road
to freedom calls to me
as the raven rises
once more, singing his
bleak tunes

Escaping into the
delusions, dizzied by
the unknown
When the time
comes, I'll be ready
to answer the call

An aching heart
a longing within
for a home
which I've never
known

I saw the clearest
of messages in
a vivid dream,
my feet were
chained as
I was
drowning in heavy
waters and couldn't
swim upstream

When the illusion shatters,
I'll finally get free
The hidden motives
will be revealed to me
my glistening thoughts
float away, I shall
interpret them
on a brighter day

Gilded love ends,
can't seem to stay
the darkness may loom
forevermore,
as it's always near

some mysteries remain
unraveled,
not all roads meant
to be travelled
life is strange indeed,
in my rose garden
I'm planting the seeds
purge the worries,
purge the sorrows
Empty mind,
can you fill these hollows
Inspiration fleets from my palms
I tried to grasp it,
but it can’t stay too long
Inspiration flies away
I’ll capture it again
when the wind don’t sway

Solve
et coagula
dissolve
the ego
build
the mind,
spirit,
& soul

Dark matter
purely floated along
in the ethers
before the universe
came together
Don't you see my love
we are not whole
not complete
until the darkness
engulfs us
at least once

Lost in the eyes
which tread upon the heavy
gates of heavens

If I keep my gaze
level to the earth
and this plane,
I may never
reach what they call
nirvana

I'm lost in the eyes which
tread upon the heavy gates
of heaven

Tethered to his mad laughter
as it rings into the night

The lone
wolf
howls
in
the dead
of night
loneliness
embraced
by strangers
delight

my apartment
feels small
and cold
without you
here

Distant pink sky
electric sun horizon
I've never wished more to be free
free from who I've been
Free from you & me
As I hear church bells ring
in the abyss
I solemnly wonder if I should be there
But I lay my chaotic head where comfort lies
& lock my ice cold stare
into a future I can't quite make out
Voice within me knows it is coming
& soon the days of running & running
from the prison of my making
will drift away
I shall get there soon
but until then
Here we lay

electric
blue waves
pull me under
eyes of rain
mind of thunder
words of blunder
wash away
I ride
the wave
just
ride
the wave

The murky skies
cleared
the view from heaven
is quite clear
I trekked
the storm
many a years
but the ride
of my life
is shifting
gears

Sporadic words

Flow out endlessly

My mind isn’t still

Your heart isn’t whole

A beautiful mind is no less

Even when broken

Into a million pieces

Those pieces still sparkle

They still shine bright

I tried the crooked path

My feet got chained

Now I walk towards the light

The all encompassing

light

Your touch electrified me

It hurt

But it propelled me

to seek higher realms

A mind this frantic
may never be idle
give me your tribulations
save you a trial
incarcerated beauty queen
walk at night
to be seen
it's a fate
so dim
& bleak as can be
save your self
from a gal
like me

White lace
lines my porcelain
thighs
Gently
submerged
into the
bed of roses
feel the thorns
invigorate my
mind which
wanders
to visions,dreams
of crimson blood
dripping
ever so perfectly
onto the lace
a keen needle
filled with poison
entering the bloodstream

More often
than not
the signs
will guide
you in the
wrong
direction
for life is
nothing more
than lessons
obtained

Ghost flowers
Ephemeral existence
we fade into
the rise
of a
sun painted
red

Hands woven
by fate
the seeker
Rides off into the
night
dusk slithers
in through the
rear view mirror

Past moments
Dried up in the
Desert heat
The time is
Never, the time
Is now

3 am
wine stained lips
faded polaroids

We are cascades away
oceans apart
my trembling hands
light a cigarette
All I have left
is the art

Twisting tongues
speak eloquent lies
dark night of the soul
brings our demise
bidding goodbye
to karmic ties
for this entanglement
was sent from
the murkiest
of skies