It’s dedication
This writing is more than the inauguration
Of thoughts
It’s like a therapy session for me
In dark places
It comes to me
Brings me
To higher places
That I want to be

Thank god
That God gave me this weapon
A weapon for the depression
A lesson that loosens it
It breaks and takes it
To places where it belongs
Like a thunderstorm
Dark comes before light
But is this writing light?
From the dark, it came from
When I fight it
I produce this
And prove this
That I’m winning


It’s chilling
It’s hard to face it sometimes but
It can touch those who see it
And feel it
Oh you don’t like this
Then stop here
Is not about what you think
It’s how you feel
So it’s real
You probably won’t understand
Unless you were me


Maybe you just need
To watch it fully
Instead of skimming it
Cause I’m here to spread a message from it
The message is your not alone
Depression is a real thing that I don’t condone
You are your own, so hold on to what you own
Then your home
It’s real

I know you don't like me
You ain't like me
At least you have the decency to talk to me
But the way you did it was blasphemy
What fault am I in
To get caught in your words
From a tongue of a weapon
Shooting me unexpected
Like a mass killing
You would never care what you do to me
But there were no wrongs from me



You chose to shoot me tho
I ask a simple question
You could have just been quiet and let it go
But you didn't tho
A gun without a silencer
That's your mouth
Unlike you, I have one
So you better find your self and get one
Cause next time
The one that's getting shot may not have one
What's your motive
For your actions
Explain that, or is it from Ideals and non-owned thoughts
You're lost




Then one day it will hit you
Would you be a man fix this issue
Or be a child and strengthen this issue
It's your choice
Choose wisely
Because whatever you do define you  
Matter of Fact I hope it does hit you
Cause You chose your actions didn't you
Well it has a consequence
Learn from it
Or be a child
And walk away from it


This is Real

I Don’t Know what came over me
Look what this had done to me
It almost took over me
It came close to me
It used me


No wonder why people say lust is so great
I understand that now
But it also creates hate
I’m a man of my word
I stay true to myself
Can’t let this lust break me
Or else a walking contradiction will become of me
Naw I don’t wanna be
But it comes to me
Holding out it hands saying
Play with me
Get away from me
There's nothing you can say to me


Is a value of a man is to be out here
Touching women because they can
Not in my place
Because I’m in a better place
I’m full of great not with haste or hate
that no one will take
I promise you
What’s you defines you
But this
What I did
Defines nothing but a demon who
Embrace the darkness and place it
To people hearts and taste it



Is this me
Never will
Cause I still have a heart and always will
This how I feel
This page lets you know how a sin can ****
Hope you take it well
Sorry I got to go
Seems Like another burned page from a fallen man
But a walking man
So take my hand
I hope my pages will guide you
Goodbye to you

Intoxication
They feel like it’s a passion for a flying mission
To get better
But I say it’s a passion for no vision
It brings you joy but you are in a division
Destroys your heartful intention
Pay attention

That’s not a therapy session
It gives you a toxic infection
But to you, it’s a soothing lesson
It’s good but you're not good
Your high but you're not high
Your illusionary world
Is smoke screen
That seems good
But in that smoke
The devil's dreams
To break you
Take to places you don’t wanna go
Like hell
I can tell you don’t want to go
But you have nowhere to go
So you say “Okay so?”

This page isn’t venom
It’s wisdom
Maybe you might read this for recognition
When you need help
To find yourself
Instead of hearing the devil say
“Do it helps”

Do you see it now
Watch out
For those who weren’t exposed
Take out
The devil in your ear
And work your own way there
Cause the devil is a liar and he never cares
Never did
Drinking won’t get you anywhere
So settle it, face him, Win it

This year I took myself by surprise
But years ago my brother died before I said goodbye
I still feel emotions and unbreakable tides
Still, hear the cries and the unthinkable lies
my lines are therapy for me
Copes with me
They forever will live with me
Do You think this is a perfect me


When I write I am in a good place
But I’m back down again
When fake friends show who they are
They lash down and then
When they read they say they are caring
They are really not
These pages are full of emotion
They say it’s not a lot
Thanks a lot
Cause you help put this message on how I feel
That when people don’t believe in you
And say you ain’t real



See I wonder
Do you care for me just for the lack of defenses
Or you care for me just for the percentage
It’s not about my writing level
It’s the real level
Like I said this ain’t from a school kid
It’s from a real kid
So get your lenses
And forget the percentage
If it’s real I meant it
If it’s not I never said it



So to the fakers out there
Who never cares
Take that mask off
And stop cutting downstairs
Well if it’s that deep
You got some problems yourself
But hurting others for help
Never Helps
You will learn when someone like you bring you down to hell