She was beautiful
and he was kind.
She was smart,
and i was blind.

I couldn’t see myself with any.
They deserve more than me.
If they get too close,
my secrets will spill.
If they get too close,
my eyes will spill.

My heart beats only for one,
and he left me long ago.
Disappeared from my life,
much like a ghost.

Yet still i wait for him,
as though he may return.
He made his decision,
and i can’t accept.

He ruined me for any other.
He told me i was special.
And when he told her that,
I knew that i couldn’t be.

I am like a bomb,
ready to explode,
destroying all my relationships,
and self destructing til i ghost.

I may not be around for long,
but don’t take me for granted.
When i am able to,
I love hard and fast.

But as soon as you say you do,
I will run faster than i love.
My heart is sealed,
My walls are up,
And I won’t love you
No matter what.

It’s been almost two years,
since i last saw her face.
All i remember,
are her tear stained cheeks,
before she ran without a trace.
She was my first and only.
I loved her like no other.
But to her,
i was just a placeholder.
She only had room for one in her life,
a boy who she loved with all her heart.
He shattered her spirit to pieces,
and i couldn’t glue her back together.
To her, i was just another girl.
To me, she was my world.