1
tell me something sweet
promise me this life isnt real
i feel the tears grow in my eyes
even though I forget how to feel
2
im on the highway
i daydream we see
out of the same set of eyes
so we can both see the beauty
of our own paradise
as we both lie
starring into the tangerine sky
3
god took extra time on you
eyes crystal clear blue
your actions only offer kindness
i love everything you do
4
Sometimes the only warmth I feel
Is the sunlight against my skin
Sometimes the only uplifting thing I see
Is a lone bird flying high in the sky
In the late summers wind
5
"We only have what we remember"
Are the truest words
I've ever heard
Have I already passed over to the other side?
Why can no one reach me
Is it my fault?
I must have lost the key
To unlock the door of serenity

Drivin round
Lookin out my window
Through the eyes
Of my small town

Early Morning
Smoke my first cigarette
Of the day
I let my eyes get heavy
As I wait
and watch my future slip away

Day dream to escape any pain
Im fine living a mess
I let my troubles
come and go
I live in a state of acquiesce
Which is dangerous

Of all these things I've done
I wouldn't change a single one
Except for the times
I've held back
Hidden emotions

Wishing for someone
To take notice of my notions
Someone to help me
Figure out life's confusing commotions  

Its okay if I die
Sooner than later
To die young
With a heart filled with
Love
Instead of
Jaded
A heart that was taught lessons but
Never learned
A heart thatd been burned.

I try to imagine Life as a movie
We must chose to see
Life's all encompassing beauty
Which is not easy

Time passes quickly
And life never plays out like you thought
You can't predict the convoluted plot
It is all up in the air  
I have found you obtain more pain
When your heart begins to love and starts to care  

Often we are dealt a dreary role
Our emotions become heavy and take a toll
Suddenly our once shiny, new dreams
Fall and shatter, a million pieces of glass impossible
to piece back together

The characters in the movie will not remain
Most people you love will eventually fade away
You can come to this realization as you slowly see them change
But remind yourself
Change is a necessary evil
No one is to blame

There is some fun
It comes in not knowing the next scene
A call from a long lost love or
A dance is the ever cleansing summer rain
Can make life worth living once again

Part1
It's lonely to look out at the cloudy sky
On an August night
And wonder who will come into
And drift out of my life
Aimless
Stuck in this strange matrix
I don't know how to overcome
The feeling of becoming numb
Part2
Summer is ending
My mind begins transcending
Into the beautiful world of memories
Is it wrong to look into the past
To try to gain knowledge and reflect
On all the times I've held back
Was scared to show my love
Fearful I might lack
The essential fundamentals
To be loved
Part3
It is impossible to know
Where you will be found
Next year
The funniest part is that you'll never grow
If you let  your roots dig into the ground
The pain of remaining the same?
Or the pain of wandering into an unfamiliar frontier?
Which is to be feared?

We are not meant to float through this life
As far as I know
It is so hard to dream
When materialism rules everything
To be young and in love
Is all we should fantasize of
What can connections or riches truly do
For you?
Opulence leads to abuse
To willful ignorance and misuse
To not be able to look around
And be grateful for what God has given
Sunlight
Moonlight
The gentle winds
That offer a change of perspective
If you allow yourself to give in
And look in
side your heart
Still so lost and no where to be found
It is hard to say where my mind is right now
Love seems convoluted
A caprice heart
Meaningful moments constantly misconstrued
Ive only ever felt like a freak
Fit in no where
Only with strangers I breifly meet
Here and there
I fall in love quickly
(due to immaturity? )  
The stranger leaves me
High and dry
Disconnected completely
I haven't learned the lesson of who to trust
When I am left in the cold
I just blame this misfortune on unearthly bad luck
At times I cant understand
The purpose of this life  
This feeling of despair is out of hand

Sunlight falls on your white house
Beautiful enough to make me blush
Rose of Sharon closing up
As the sun falls down to dusk
Sweet Indiana
Tell me what I did wrong
Alls Im trying
Is to figure out where I belong
I stare at the sun
As it descends into the tall grasses  
I long to belong
In your strong arms again
Hold me like the child I was
Life seemed much simpler then
If I could have only opened my eyes
To realize what lies ahead
I want to send a prayer to God
To ask forgiveness for all the bad I've done
But my tongue is dry
From all the whiskey
But I'm feeling brave enough to try
I ask God to send Love down to the Earth
Pure Love from the Heavens above
God answers back
"You're a little lost"  
But God,
Aren't we all?

I've been feel sullen
For some time now
Resentful of my past
And the moody way
I act
I'm kinda outta luck
Life  has been stagnant
And my heart is getting numb
So I pop my bubblegum
And roll my eyes
As a guise
For my uneasy feeling of life
I've never had a moral compass
Pointing me due North
No I've been a wayward scrap of light
That some stop to observe
But quickly move on
Realizing I'm a waste of time
That I'm too absurd  
Late at night I'll ask myself
Do other people feel astray?
I can never tell  
Everyone is wearing a grin
And has a plan
As if Hope is guiding them from within
Well I envy their confidence
To go after what they love
As of right now
My dreams are a long shot
But if I put one more penny in life's slot
I could hit a jackpot