I've been feel sullen
For some time now
Resentful of my past
And the moody way
I act
I'm kinda outta luck
Life  has been stagnant
And my heart is getting numb
So I pop my bubblegum
And roll my eyes
As a guise
For my uneasy feeling of life
I've never had a moral compass
Pointing me due North
No I've been a wayward scrap of light
That some stop to observe
But quickly move on
Realizing I'm a waste of time
That I'm too absurd  
Late at night I'll ask myself
Do other people feel astray?
I can never tell  
Everyone is wearing a grin
And has a plan
As if Hope is guiding them from within
Well I envy their confidence
To go after what they love
As of right now
My dreams are a long shot
But if I put one more penny in life's slot
I could hit a jackpot

i wont wait
for heavens gate
to open
love is innate
i was never meant to tolerate
heart break
i become desolate
my mind sets up prison walls
no windows at all
and my dreams dressed as an inmate
attempts an escape
only to fall on its back
and cry aloud
there is no escape
the only answer is to isolate
soft hearts do not belong
in your cruel world

Past midnight
Cruising the backroads
In yer monte carlo
A cigarette on my lips
A tear on my cheek
There comes a fog
Then a rain
Is it true
That I can only see the shadow of you?
Cherry blossom under the
Street light
The lilacs are not ready to bloom
It is all so beautiful
And it is all gone too soon
I still dream of you
And when I awake
It still feels as though
You'll be lying
Right next to me
But the harsh reality
sets in.
So I brace myself
for the monotony
of another day
of my true love
being very far away

Drowning in cigarette smoke
My throat burns
As I laugh at another of life's trials
But to me its no more than a joke

How can this beautiful world
be taken so seriously
I was not put on this Earth
To participate in this ugly monotony
Cant you see?

My hair is the color
of the night sky
My cheeks blush the same
pink as a rose
My mind wanders like a butterfly in summertime
And I hate doing what im told.

I do not love like others do
I have fell for the sun
the stars and the moon too
It is hard to know when love is true
But I have learned true love is never fleeting
It will always be returned to you

I am growing old very fast
As I write this poem it remains in the past
I will never be as young as I am right now
What to do
With an hourglass
Winding down

If I could have only
Made the good times
Last a little longer

I know more heartbreak lies ahead
I beg you to let me down easily
As I try to keep my heart tender
Regardless of loves infrequency

The moon wraps me
In its lack of light
Soft against my skin
The moon
Kisses my cheek
I have become an outcast
Just wishing for my days to pass
So I can see the moon
And feel like I used to
In the moon's dark sheets
I can be myself
Let the stars illuminate all
the world needs to see
Without the moon
I could never dream
Give me the chance to escape
My makeshift reality  
I'm on my own
Pull me out of my blue nightmares
A pearl glowing in the dark velvet night
The only light
I ever see
Is past midnight
I dont only love you when you're full
I love every shape you are
Glowing yellow as a candle
Or a tint of blue
A kiss of red
The same blushing pink I feel in bed
White as a ghost whose risen from the dead
Wear a cloud as your wedding veil
You are nightfall's favorite mistress
After all

Despondent Dreamer  
So you didn't show up.
Is it because your heart is locked up?
The sky tonight is hazy
Take the time
To observe the beauty around you
The way the white flowers bloom
The sunrise and sunset too
Instead of feeding your fears
You have started to believe  
What are you so afraid of?
You can tell me
Life will pass you by within the blink of an eye
At the speed that teardrop fell from your cheek
Stop to think
That after all  
We are just visiting
This earth
For a short time
You don't owe anyone a thing
Please don't let love pass you by
It is all we have in this life
Grasp love with your strong fist
But allow love to come and go
Leaving you with both heartache and bliss

You were the answer to my prayers
But now you act like you don't care
You're the reason I smoke
You're the reason I'm giving up slowly  
You're the one I hoped
Would save me from spiraling into a
Meaningless eternity
You're the one I miss
You're the reason I'm killing myself slowly
You're the one who felt like my last
Love
No I'll never fall in love again.
You're the one I dream of
Please come to me again
You're the one I think of when the sky
turns pink
I miss you so much
But do you ever think
Of me?


On this Sunday night
I'm on my balcony
Singing to the moon
That you'll never be too far from me
But it's already June
You're no where to be found
Just my tears to keep me company
Oh to be bound
By a hopeless love