The most painful tears aren’t the ones that fall from your eyes and cover your face,
It’s the ones that fall from your heart and cover your soul....!💔💔💔

I think about ending my life, daily
The fastest way way to go,
Without hurting others
My self-worth
Will i be missed?
These thoughts,
Shouldn’t be put on paper
But why not?
If more people talked about it,
Perhaps, they would not,
Act upon it
The greatest pain cannot be seen
It hides deep within
A broken bone is easy to mend
A broken mind doesn’t bind
All these thoughts of mine,
Often times i wonder
Have I lost my mind?
Am i only one,
With suicidal thoughts….?

I was falling. I was falling in love. I was falling so hard that I couldnt tell when the fall would end, because I was falling for the one person who could break my heart with the most biggest amount of pain I could think of. I was falling in love with my bestfriend, the only friend I had in my life, the only person who understood me, the only person who never judged me, the only person who never shouted at me and the only person who accepted me for me. I had started to feel for him, but more then what I was feeling for him lurked the fear of losing him, because it wouldnt be just the heart I will lose to him, I will lose my whole self. He knows every little secret of mine, he knows who I am, he knows what I am, he knows everything and never judges, he's my secret diary, and those are things which are above love, because love can be found but these qualities are even rarer then love. I had the fear of losing him what if I propose and he didnt think that way, what if I proposed and he stops talking to me and never come back, what if he starts to hate me. All these questions stacked up and I curtailed myself from expressing my feeling for I didnt want to lose my bestfriend for love.
I had fallen in love with the only person who could break my whole existence.

When I was hurting,
You held me
And in so many scary ways
I was letting you in.
I told you things,
That instantly brought me to tears
And while the tears fell
You just held me,
And that said
So much more than
I love you
If I ever could….!

I killed my own happiness in such a young age,
By loving someone more than myself.......!!💔💔

Today I feel small—looked down on and disregarded. My thoughts are of little importance. My words have no bearing on the weight of the world. I’m tired of being taken for granted. If only I could get a fraction of what I give. But my efforts go unrecognised, and my soul keeps wishing to be noticed, to be valued; to be understood….!

There was a time I told you,
            of all that ached inside;
            the things I held so sacred,
            to all the world I’d hide.

But they became your weapon,
             and slowly I’ve learnt,
             and the less that is said the better,
             the lesser I’ll be hurt.

Of all you’ve used against me,
             the worse has been my words.

There are things I’ll never tell you,
            and it is sad to think it so;
            the more you come to know me-
            the lesser you will know.

I tell you to be strong
while most days
I feel like I’m one push away
from crumbling?
I’ve been holding my breath
waiting for an impact
Please excuse my silence
It’s hard enough trying to hold it together
without having to also carry your pain….!

Yes you; you who's reading this
Listen to me,
"People and pain are temporary,
You are walking MASTERPIECE..,
So, be happy and Love yourself.....! 🤗❤️

They didn't notice you were crying
They didn't notice you were sad
They didn't notice you were crying
They didn't notice you were alone
They didn't notice how attractive you were
They didn't notice how sweet you actually are
They didn't notice how you actually try to make other people smile
They did notice your failing grades
They did notice your unattractiveness
They did notice all of your flaws
They did notice all your mistakes
THEY DID NOTICE THAT YOU WEREN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM……!

I'm very ugly
So, don't try to convince me that
I'm a very beautiful person
Because at the end of the day,
I hate myself in every single way
I'm not going to lie to myself by saying
There's beauty inside of me that matters
So rest assured, I'll remind myself
That I'm a worthless, terrible person
And nothing you say will make me believe
That i still deserve love
Because no matter what,
I'm not good enough to be loved
And I'm in no position to believe that
Beauty doesn't exist within me
Because whenever I look in the mirror, I always think
Am I as ugly as people say?

(Now read bottom up)

Like a feather in the breeze.
You never really know I’m there,
Until I start to leave.
I don’t make my connection deep,
Because I’m afraid of what I’ll lose.
I don’t try to compete with anyone else,
And I’ll never make you choose.
I prefer to stick to the sidelines,
Because the spotlight hurts my eyes.
I hide behind a constant smile,
So you won’t know that it’s a disguise.
People tend to forget I’m there,
When I’m in a crowded room.
I can disappear for days on end,
And I’m bound to do it soon,
Don’t worry if you notice I’m home,
I never meant to stay.
But I know you won’t miss me long,
I’ll be forgotten in a day.....!

Tears are words that need to be written....!

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=YV7NA50Tlak

I'm okay and things will continue to be okay even when it seems like they won't be. This sadness, anger, frustration, pain etc won't last forever..!
If you are reading this, then:
I hope you get the strength to get through whatever it is that's causing you so much trouble or pain at the moment.
Don't take things too seriously try to be happy and love yourself the way you are...!

Every body is fighting a battle you know nothing about,
So be kind
Always

Its one of my theories that when people give you advice, they are really just talking to themselves in the past......!

Happiness is hard
to come by.

People who are real with you
are hard to come by.

Love is hard to come by.
True friendship

is also
hard to come by.

So it messes no sense to me
why good people

get ****** over the hardest.
Why good people

have to go through it
in the worst of ways.

I don’t understand
why people hurt them the most.

Why people are so careless
with the ones who show them

soft, gentle love.
Why people are so senseless
to the ones who make them feel alive….!

Today i feel....
Abandond
Ugly
Hurt
Like i dont matter
Useless
Invisible
Like i dont belong
Numb
Not worthy of love
Unappreciated
Hopeless

Wait i feel like this everyday💔

Closure is your choice.
Closure isn't an apology, or justice, or answers.
That's insecurity.
If the situation made you feel awful, seeking closure by reopening , it's insanity.
Closure isn't something they can give you.
Closure is moving on. Closure is your own choice.

Crying isn’t my hobby, it’s the last gift of my love......!!🥺💔💔

I’m not who I’ve always been,
The world that lies outstretched before me,
Is not the only one I’ve seen,
I’ve travelled on the tails of comets,
I’ve burned up in the hearts of stars,
I’ve been spat out of supernovas,
That left me scattered near and far,
I have dined in distant galaxies,
And taught the birds to sing,
I’ve danced for a whole lifetime,
Upon Saturn’s dusty rings,
I’ve been there long enough,
To learn what makes the willow weep,
I’ve sung celestial lullabies,
That sent the moon to sleep,
I’ve been both the flowering water,
And the stone that blocks it’s way,
I’ve been frozen, I’ve been molten,
And I’ll be again someday,
Though I’ve been a billion things,
This is the first one that can smile,
I’m pieces of the universe,
Living as human for a while….!

I’ll be ok for a few days but then it hits me, I stop functioning and everything falls apart again….!

Are you okay?
Are you alright, are you fine, are you good?
Are you adequate, are you decent?
Are you emotionally stable, sleeping without crying, smiling because you want to?
Are you breathing without questioning, are you waking up without trying, are you eating without throwing up?
Are you reading this poem right now and thinking no?
Are you thinking for the first time, will I ever be okay?

You will be okay.
You will be alright, you will be fine, you will be good.
You will be adequate, you will be decent.
You will be emotionally stable, you will sleep without crying, and smile for the happiness blooming inside of you.
You will breathe without questioning, you will wake up to a new day, you will eat easily
You
are going to be okay.
So please smile sunshine
It’s a fine new day
To be okay :)

And it seems that the more I’m searching,
The more I’m losing myself entirely….!

Na khush *** na udaas ***,
Baz khali *** aur khamosh ***.....!

I act like I don’t care. Like nothing can hurt me. I put up this big wall of toughness and pretend everything is fine. Like I don’t need somebody’s “affection” but in reality I think I’m just too scared. Scared of not being good enough. Or scared of getting hurt. Scared to let somebody in. Maybe even afraid. Afraid of the possibility of being loved by someone that I fear they’ll eventually let me down. Afraid that my heart will break into million pieces because I gave my all to someone who promised they wouldn’t hurt me. But that’s the thing. You will never know the outcome unless you take the chance. So embrace the risk worth being taken darling......!

So much of what we learn about love is taught by people who never really loved us……!

I wish I could explain ur eyes 😍and how  the sound of ur voice gives me butterflies🦋...
I wish u know the way I felt ,every time I looked at u 👀...
I wish u knew my heart would melt when I thought of me and u.....
I wish I could explain how ur smile makes my heart skip a beat and how every time I saw u,I feel so complete!❤️❤️


U r not just in my dreams, u r every where like a disease that has spread to every part of me and there is no cure...

"I wish I could explain how much I love u❤️❤️"

You loved me like a flower
The ones you leave to die
Instead of loving me wild
You kept me locked inside
You let me slowly wilt
Until there was only a piece of who I was
And keeping something wild, locked
You should see what it does
If you meet a girl like me
I ask you to let her go
So you can see what happens
When you let a flower grow
And I didn’t get that choice
But I don’t blame it all on you
And I let you take me away
Because thought you were beautiful too
It is true that you broke me
But I still wish you well
And I hope I was beautiful
Before my petals fell…!

I fell in love with all of you.


I didn’t just fall in love with the best of you, like
The way your eyes light up the moon
The way your laugh makes me smile
The way your hand fits in mine
The way your personality stands out
The way your smile gives me butterflies,
I fell in love with all of you!

I fell in love with your scars,
The way you make sarcastic remarks
The way you feel helpless at 2am
The way you cry about something from years ago
The way you sometimes get angry
The way you sometimes want to be left alone
I fell in love with all of you.
I fell in love with the great in you
And I feel in love with bad you see in yourself
And the bad you see is the great I see.
Because I love every part of you,
Every bit.
I fell in love with all of you…..!

Lemme give you an example...:
Jsut see tihs msg. Evrey splleing of tihs msg is wrnog. But sitll yuo raed it wihtout ayn mistake. If yuo want true raletionship.....Just ignoer mistaeks and understand them.....!

I had literally reached a point where I find myself apologizing for my
" existence " and that's when I knew my self-worth had vanished. It had pilfered right out of me. My light had went out............and I forgot how it felt to shine....!

Isn’t the moon dark too,
most of the time?

And doesn’t the white page
seem unfinished

without the dark stain
of alphabets?

When God demanded light,
he didn’t banish darkness.

Instead he invented
ebony and crows

and that small mole
on your left cheekbone.

Or did you mean to ask
“Why are you sad so often?”

Ask the moon
Ask what is has witnessed.

“Suicide doesn’t stop the pain,” “It gives it to someone else.”

- [ ] 1: We would miss you

- [ ] 2: It’s worth it to be alive

- [ ] 3: It does get better, believe it or not it will eventually get better.

- [ ] 4: There’s so much you would miss out on doing.

- [ ] 5: You are worth it don’t let anyone, even yourself tell you otherwise.

- [ ] 6: God made you for a reason, you have a reason.

- [ ] 7: There is always a reason to live!

- [ ] 8: So many people care about you

- [ ] 9: You are amazing

- [ ] 10: I don’t even know you and I love you

- [ ] 11: I care for you

- [ ] 12: There are plenty of people that love you

- [ ] 13: You're literally perfect!! <3

- [ ] 14: There are plenty of people that care for you

- [ ] 15: God loves you

- [ ] 16: God cares about you

- [ ] 17: Sometimes life is hard but it will make you a stronger person don’t worry!

- [ ] 18: What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about all the things you’ve planned, but never got around doing? You can’t do them if your dead.

- [ ] 19: I want you to be alive

- [ ] 20: So many people want you alive!

- [ ] 21: You won’t be able to listen to Music if you die

- [ ] 22: You’ll never be able to listen to your favourite song if you die.

- [ ] 23: You’ll never be able to listen to your favourite singer if you’re gone

- [ ] 24: You’ll never be able to listen to your favourite rapper if you’re gone.

- [ ] 25: listening to really loud music

- [ ] 26: Killing yourself is never worth it, you’ll hit both yourself & the people who care about you.

- [ ] 27: There are so many people that would miss you, including me

- [ ] 28: the clouds

- [ ] 29: You are gorgeous

- [ ] 30: Someone out there would die for you :’)

- [ ] 31: How do you think your family would feel?

- [ ] 32: Proving people wrong with your success.

- [ ] 33: Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.

- [ ] 34: You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day.

- [ ] 35: You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a cold building on a hot day.

- [ ] 36: Being stupid in public just because you can.

- [ ] 37: Helping other people.

- [ ] 38: You have a future to live for..

- [ ] 39: Being alive is good

- [ ] 40: thinking about happy memories

- [ ] 41: Finding your soulmate.

- [ ] 42: All nighters!!!

- [ ] 43: Sleeping in all day

- [ ] 44: You can look back at yourself later in your life and be glad you didn’t commit suicide.

- [ ] 45: Nobody could ever replace you

- [ ] 46: You’re unique

- [ ] 47: pets

- [ ] 48: petting pets

- [ ] 49: Netflix and movies

- [ ] 50: Decorating the Christmas tree

- [ ] 51: Dreams that make you smile

- [ ] 52: Breakfast in bed

- [ ] 53: New clothes

- [ ] 54: New shoes

- [ ] 55: New books

- [ ] 56: Sunrises and Sunsets

- [ ] 57: Friends

- [ ] 58: The ocean

- [ ] 59: Sunlight

- [ ] 60: Your family

- [ ] 61: Inside jokes

- [ ] 62: Birthdays

- [ ] 63: Christmas

- [ ] 64: Family traditions

- [ ] 65: The taste of your favourite food

- [ ] 66: Favourite tv show

- [ ] 67: Favourite movie

- [ ] 68: Going to new places

- [ ] 69: The ability to peruse what ever you choose (there are over 7 billion people on Earth, don’t be afraid to be you)

- [ ] 70: To earn money and rewards

- [ ] 71: You can always flip your life around.

- [ ] 72: To find the perfect job/career for you

- [ ] 73: Pizza

- [ ] 74: Kittens

- [ ] 75: New haircuts

- [ ] 76: Moments you can look back to and laugh at

- [ ] 77: The clouds

- [ ] 78: The world is better with you in it

- [ ] 79: Roller Coasters

- [ ] 80: Showers

- [ ] 81: Cake

- [ ] 82:Growing old

- [ ] 83: Growing old with the person you love

- [ ] 84: Singing

- [ ] 85: Sleeping

- [ ] 86: Icecream

- [ ] 87: Cookies

- [ ] 88: food in general

- [ ] 89: Movie nights

- [ ] 90: Candy

- [ ] 91: Popcorn

- [ ] 92: Daydreaming

- [ ] 93: Happy moments

- [ ] 94: Halloween

- [ ] 95: Sleepovers

- [ ] 96: Parties

- [ ] 97: Having a good personality

- [ ] 98: Making people happy

- [ ] 99: Bonfires

- [ ] 100: Sitting on rooftops

- [ ] 101: Vacations

- [ ] 102: Hearing crazy stories

- [ ] 103: Telling crazy stories

- [ ] 104: Treehouses

- [ ] 105: Starbucks

- [ ] 106: You’ve changed someone’s life

- [ ] 107: If you’re gone how will you achieve great things?

- [ ] 108: Everyone has talent including you

- [ ] 109: Eating crazy food

- [ ] 110: Hanging out with your friends

- [ ] 111: Nobody could ever replace you

- [ ] 112: You have so much to live for

- [ ] 113: Your dreams need some fulfilling to do

- [ ] 114: Living life to the fullest

- [ ] 115: Heck, I would miss you like crazy

- [ ] 116: Your family and friends would be devastated if you were gone

- [ ] 117: Someone out there is constantly praying to meet someone like you

- [ ] 118: Your future

- [ ] 119: You could save so many lives

- [ ] 120: You are too beautiful to disappear

- [ ] 121: You are bigger than any of your problems

- [ ] 122: You are never alone during this struggle

- [ ] 123: Tomorrow is a new day!

- [ ] 124: You are worth more than you think

- [ ] 125: Last but not least, the final and most important one is, just being able to experience life, because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, anything could happen

Be kind and humble. But not with everybody:
One of the most common traits in people who did extraordinarily in their lives is that they are all humble and kind. These days’ people don’t believe in these moral values but no matter what the trend becomes nothing can beat the power of kindness. Kindness is the essence of our existence and if we sustain it, we can make huge impacts in the lives of other people. However, I believe not everybody deserves our kindness. Some philosophical minds are of the opine that we should be kind with everybody no matter what. For some cases it is true but for others it isn’t because there’s no wisdom in making a fool of ourselves. The best way is to stop being anything with them. The best way is to stop exhibiting any emotions with people who can’t value kindness.

When you wake up, just know
That you have a reason to live
Maybe you won’t know it yet
But you’ll soon.
You aren’t useless nor worthless
Treat yourself good
Apologise to yourself
You didn’t help yourself
When you needed it
You didn’t give enough time to yourself
So, give yourself some time
And love yourself like
You deserve to be loved.
Know your worth and enjoy life
Even if it’s not going as planned
Know that life is full of surprises….!
Be happy and
Love Yourself

What if we feel alone because we are terrified of being intimate with another especially ourselves…?

You aren't too emotional. You aren't too sensitive. Your heart is constantly at war with all of your emotions; each one fighting to be dominant. You feel the energies of others. You feel it when they are happy, sad, angry, fake or truthful. You know it when they're using you and when they're being genuine.
You aren't weak. You are gifted with the ability of heightened intuition. You anxiety is nothing to be ashamed of; it's a reminder that you have a gift if empathy. Not many posseses this rare trait because this take a special kind of strength, not your weakness. Own who you are. You have a beautiful and a brave pure soul....!

You’re helping the healing of generations of pain, and this is why it hurts so much.
Don’t give up….!