How do people do it?
Tell the one they claim to love
That they're the only one in their heart
When they tell two or three others the exact same thing?
When I said I loved you with all of my heart
I meant every single word.
I put everything on the line
And yet this is what I get?
How do some people have the guts to blatantly lie
Right to the faces of people that genuinely care?
There's no reasonable explanation
Apart from
"People with old habits don't change in just a season."

My heart is racing,
Its about to burst out of my chest.
At one point I though this was a sweet dream.
The up's and down's kept me trying
The words you sung
Had me hooked.
Until I found where you kept your poison.
And I regret that I ever took a sip.

And that was it,
I woke up
Only to realise this was all a bad dream.
A very, very bad dream.

I miss that adorable gasp you do after i give you deep and passionate kisses.
It could be from the lack of air.
It could be from the overwhelming kisses.
Maybe a bit of both.

I miss seeing you wearing your funky glasses.
So fashionable.
So indie.

I miss holding your sweaty hand in public.
You get embarassed so you let go.
I don't really mind.
My hand gets sweaty too.
Sweaty hand couple.

I love wholeheartedly.
I love recklessly.
Thats just the way I am.
We only have one life.
And i believe if you let opportunities pass you,
They may never come around again.
I've had past regrets.
I don't want any more.
But what if they're right?
That I'm actually bad for you?
That I'm actually doing more harm than good?
What if I'm a hindrance to your actual mental progress?
Happiness?
I can't stand to have those thoughts....
Specially to the one I love and care for the most.

I didn't expect to miss that thing you do when you squat down and do your weird pose.


Kinda cringy.
Kinda cute.