Empty rooms
It’s all packed up
The old house
Cold and emotionless
Sad forlorn
Needs a heart
Sweet sorrow
That we have to part


The new house
In comes life and love
Rooms filled
With stuff
The heart beats
Once again
The home comes alive

The laughter of my children
Will always make me smile
No matter what I’m feeling
It melts away for a while

If I said that I was crazy
Cause my friend you cannot see
Does that mean I am enlightened
Not as crazy as I seem
For my friend is wholly real
Not a figment as you think
As he keeps on the right path
Far from standing on the brink
He is my voice of reason
In this god forsaken world
My forgiveness in my turmoil
My leading hand to hold

I sit with my friend and chat
Till days end we natter
Just chewing the fat
Does it matter we natter till
The end of all matters as his end
Already came and went

How my life has turned out
I never could have dreamed
The good and bad decisions
Have turned me into me
From growing up my choices
Have led me here right now
I can look at what I have
And you will not see me frown
My wife and children with me
There is no better thing
And from now until my last day
Only happiness they’ll bring

Bound, broken, bleeding
I lay there at your feet
You ask for what you need
But your eyes I cannot meet
I fear that I’ll disappoint
And that makes me pull away
I want to bear my soul to you
To show how I really feel
But even after all these years
I feel you might turn me away
Before my chances dwindle
And the time all disappears
Please know you are the only one
I could have given all my years
If there is nothing else to know
I hope you already do
I love you with all my being
And will forever more

Your radiance is greater
Than 1000 suns
Your beauty
Always leaves me stunned
Your grace would silence
Heavens angels
Your love
Will last throughout the ages
You are forever in my heart
Nothing will ever
Keep us apart

You are the one and only
That holds my heart and soul
Though when it comes to showing
I just really do not know
Although I tell you daily
I love you more than life
And I am truly honoured
That you agreed to be my wife

Next to you
Though miles away
Wishing that
I could just say
What’s going through
My troubled mind
The words to say
I just can’t find

Lotions, potions, powders and pills
Nothing I take ever cures my ills
The pain in my muscles
Fatigue in my bones
It seems at the moment
All I do is moan
The one thing I want
Above any other
Is to be pain free
For just 24 hours
That would be so perfect
It could be such peace
To not have this agony
I can dream at least

Is my pain reality
Or is it in my head
Will it disappear
Or stay with me till I’m dead
My existence is a struggle
Day to day a living test
But the love of my family
Keeps me trying my best

I sit alone
In my own company
Looking at my younger self
Through time jaded eyes
Wishing to give
Some learned advice
Wanting to share
The wisdom of age
But knowing
His time is past

The perfect day
What would that be
To lie in bed
Just you and me
Or in the park
With all of us
Watching the kids
Making a fuss
Walking the paths
Along the river
Holding hands
My heart aquiver


Maybe a perfect day
Does not exist
But putting the good times
Into a list
Can be stitched together
So throughout your life
That perfect day
Is all played out
Not all in one
But in small parts
And felt as one day
In our hearts

Perfection is unattainable
So everybody says
Then I look at you and fall in love
Each and every day
Your flaws are what make you perfect
Without them what’s to know
Your scars and blemishes and marks
From surface to your soul
The children you have given us
The house you make our home
Is full of love and happiness
Cause perfect is your love

Drifting aimless
Have no bed
Thoughts are swirling
Through my head
Could it be
I’m really dead
No one even sees me.

Drifting aimless
Town to town
If I’m seen
Always a frown
Don’t look up
Forever down
They know not what I’ve done for them.

Drifting aimless
In my mind
The gunshots ring
I try to hide
I see the bodies
Try to find
Some peace from all the memories.

Drifting aimless
Battling on
Feeling tired
No more can I run
Time to rest
Life is not fun
This soldiers time has ended.

In the gentle quiet
When most are fast asleep
The velvet night envelopes
The people as they breathe
The deep breath’s of the resting
The murmurs as they dream
As all the stresses of the day
Are melted right away

Rank bestows entitlement
So those with power think
To push around the lesser ones
Their right it is believed
But if we all just stand up to them
Don’t cower when they speak
Show them that we matter too
Power to the meek

See the bullets
Flying far
Through the night
Like shooting stars
Keeping back the enemy
Big bad men
You will not see
On the news the battle rages
The tv screen seen by all ages
Miles away the fight is fought
Once seen not given another thought
Except the men that fight and die
Have wives and kids in their minds eye
To keep them safe is their mission
They volunteer to give their lives
So you can stay safe with your wives
A debt is owed to all those men
Forever please remember them

For those that do not know me
I’m a man of little worth
I don’t have lots of money
And all I do is work
I have a quite large family
To house and feed and clothe
But none of them has wanted
For a home that’s filled with love
My family is growing still
My children having more
And all I have is theirs to have
As my love continues to grow
I may not have the money
To buy most everything
But believe me I’m the richest man
I love with all my being

We been sledging in the snow
Kids all shouting GO GO GO
Up and down the hill we run
Laughing as we have our fun
Sliding on the snow so fast
Wishing it will always last

Social injustice
It is a fact
The rich get richer
The poor get jack
To tackle this problem
We need a plan
That will actually benefit
Each working man

We are all made of stardust
That fell out of the sky
A sun that just exploded
After millennia burning bright
It floated through the galaxy
To settle on this planet
It’s journey never ending
It’s inside each and everyone
It’s rest our beginning

Where or why the tears flow
I have no control
They seem to come from nowhere
Mostly when I am alone
Many people stand around me
Not seeing all my pain
I want to scream aloud
Although it would be done in vain
My ailments are invisible
You cannot see what’s wrong
And every day I wonder
Can I keep on being strong

The tears flow freely
The pain is a thief
Tearing away my sanity
Piece by little piece
Will there ever be a time
When there is no pain
That I do not cry
Will I be insane
There are no words
to describe my plight
But for now at least
I survive to fight

Will the soft dark take me
To slumber so sweet
The oblivion of dreamlessness
Wonderment of sleep
A dream so close to take me
From my painful daily world
And wrap my mind in velvet
Till the dawn reclaims it’s hold

The fight has gone
I have no energy
To even move is effort
I’m overcome with lethargy

Work is hard and long
It drains the life out of me
When I finish for the day
By darkness I am claimed

Arms and legs are dragging
My head throbs aching
Is there an end to this grind
The light I cannot see

The human condition
Is dealing death
No understanding
Just extermination
If it is different
It must disappear
Why can there be
No acceptance

As they stand there
In skimpy clothes
Ignoring the letching
The leering
Calling to the lonely
The lost the sad
The desperate
The depraved
Are you looking
For a date
A good time
Always in danger
Taking the risk
To earn the
Money for the next fix
The next meal
The babies clothes
No one asks their
Stories

When I look into the mirror
Am I happy with the man
The life I’ve lived the deeds I’ve done
Could my life be just a sham
I’ve done some things I’m proud of
Others not so much
But I’ve been around the world
And seen some wonders and such
Although I’ve enjoyed my time away
My heart is in my home
With my wife and all my children
When my travels are all done
My wealth is in my family
My riches are their love
So when I look into the mirror
I thank my lucky stars above

The mask adorned
I start my day
From dusk till dawn
The mask is away
They would be shocked
If they only knew
The real me hidden from view
The laughter hollow
Just for show
Very few people really know
The pain I suffer day to day
A price I know that I must pay

If you could see me
for who I really am
Do you think you would love me
Or turn round and run
Could you accept the monster
That is lying inside
Capable of anything
It sits and it hides
Waiting and watching
Scenting the air
Poised to attack
Any threat that is there

Are you willing to wash
All the blood from my hands
When I reign in the violence
I cannot hold down
Will it make you proud
That I can hurt
Another person
Regardless of worth
Could you listen to tears
That fall to the earth

My demons are caged
Though they only get stronger
Don’t know if I can hold them
For very much longer

Why do I feel so strange
When I look in a mirror is that me
Is this a borrowed vessel
Is my mind separate
This body someone else
When I sleep who uses it
If I forget something is that
The other waking
Taking over for a moment
If I die does he carry on

The point I try to make
Is that there is no point at all
When you are gone from this world
You are gone and that is all
You may be remembered
But that will not be for long
So I repeat
The point I try to make
Is that there is no point at all

Everybody needs it
For one thing or another
If not from a professional
We get it from each other
We talk and laugh and joke
About the things that are our troubles
To lighten our minds
And stop them crumbling to rubble

The scars are there
For all to see
On the outside
A version of me
In my heart
My family
In my soul...


My misery


My love for you
Never question
Your compassion
My constant lesson
Everybody else
Forgotten
I live for you


My loves fountain

The truth is that
We are finite
One life we have to live
To fill the world
With love and light
Not tarnish it with hate


The truth is that
We are human
Each and every one
So teach the next generation
To do better than we’ve done

That man you see
When it’s dark
Upon a bench
In the park
Without a roof
Or room to stay
In all weather
Snow, wind, rain
Served his country
Proud and true
Came back broken
Can’t fight through
Society looks down on him
Don’t see the man
Or what he did
They see a drunk, addict, ***
A down and out
Use to no one
His family a distant dream
His end will come
Cold alone and lonely.

Why do the voices taunt me
They whisper all the time
I’m never free from noises
That try to control my mind
Sometimes it’s hard to tell
If they are from inside or out
So from time to time to silence them
I have to scream and shout


Will I ever fold and listen
Or can I stay forever strong
These voices getting louder
Might take me over before long
I hope and pray my barriers
Will last and drown them out
For I fear for my sanity
Will leave me left with nought

The voices speak
Some are not friends
I sometimes wonder
When is the end
I go to sleep
Awake each morning
To the clamour
Of them returning
Never knowing silence
Can I ever know peace

I want to give you the world in box
Tied with a beautiful bow
To give you everything you could ever want
Because I love you I hope you know
Every star twinkling in the night
Would be yours in the blink of an eye
The diamonds from every mine in the world
Would be worthless if you weren’t mine
With you at my side I am happy
I walk around lighter than air
But the day that you’re gone
Is the day that I die inside
Swallowed by endless despair

Mothers and daughters
Fathers and sons
Brothers and sisters
People each one
Died by the thousands
Killed for a cause
A madness for power
A sick holocaust

The whole world fighting
With guns and with bombs
To stop the destruction
Yet causing their own
And returning from battles
Fought ******* the field
Find they are isolated
Can’t express how they feel

The hunger for power
Is what fuels war
Will forever enshroud us
Keep us on our knees
As a man and a soldier
One thing I would plead
Fight no more with weapons
Use words and treaties

When will the hurting stop

Never

The loss is raw
The pain is real

When will the pain go

Never

The memories remain
The loss is unbearable

Until

Every day sees something good
The love is remembered
The pain is rendered
To bearable again

Time is my friend
Enemy, lover, fiend
It gives you everything
Also takes it away
There is never enough or
Is there too much

Time is a healer
Builder, destroyer
Makes you whole yet
Takes away your soul
With it’s inevitable passing
Till you are lost in its depths

If time is healer
As they always say
Why does  it still hurt
After all these years

The loss of love
Is never replaced
No love is the same
From another’s face

Each love is different
None are the same
So the hurt from a lost love
Still feels fresh through all time

To be in love is freedom
Your heart and soul will fly
Around the world and back again
Till back with them they lie

To be in love is solitude
You feel so all alone
Unless you’re with the one you love
Only then does it feel like home

To be in love is anguish
Whenever you’re apart
And when you are together
You feel one beating heart

To be in love is wonderous
No matter what your age
You feel just like a child at play
Free from times locked cage

If I ever seem a burden
Please remember what I’ve done
Taken care of you and loved you
Since you popped out of your mum
I worked all hours just to feed you
Keep you clothed and toasty warm
Held a job to keep you sheltered
Safe and dry against the storms
I missed maybe a birthday
Or a play in which you starred
But my child I’ll always love you
Which is why I worked so hard
I know you have a life and family
And you work all hours sent
To keep your children’s bellies full
And make the money for the rent
Please remember that you’re doing
All the things that I have done
I hope that now you realise
And that you understand

Shattered, smashed, broken
All I feel is pain
Nothing ever helps me
Will I ever be whole again
My mind a torture chamber
Faces, voices, smells
Set my mind to wander
In my own eternal hell
To sleep relieves exhaustion
For shorter and shorter times
As the nightmares fuel the demons
Behind my crying eyes

In the darkness of my mind
I wander
Of the nature of mankind
I wonder
If the truth is ever present
Why deception

Through the **** of everyday
Into the pit of disarray
To pay the debt we all must pay
Is there any peace in death

The world we look at is so stark
From every person there is a mark
Whether light or if it’s dark
It’s there for all to see