He calls me a Purple Sky
Glittering with pinholes of light
His Sunflower Girl,
Rising with love to cure the world

Vibrant like the Earth in May
Stole his heart, his mind, his games
A song waking up in the morning
That he sings until the evening
And will hum every day forward

He talks about running barefoot into the Forest,
Through prickers, past chipmunks
I say, “Let’s go, forget the discussion.”
He has work to do, he just likes to think about it
Tantalize himself with the idea of being carefree

Money won’t bring you freedom
It will twist and tie you into a knot
Climb a tree with a good book
See how it feels to be one with the earth
As a human

God forbid I hurt your feelings, so
I'll say this once, it was fun
...maybe, when? I was a kid
No longer do you make me happy
Not so sure you ever did

Leave me on, the coffee stays warm
Keep good watch, it's boiling hot
Wish you'd slip, I'd burn your skin

These things don't make us happy
They only numb the pain
Indifference got me good, thanks to you, babe
I wrote a poem about you
Here it is, your claim to fame

My brother, he was small once
But I don't remember that
I'm tough and he's big
(good thing cause in reality I'm freaked)
I love him even though he stinks
and on my birthday he dropped my cake
Mom shouldn't have given him the responsibility, what with his webbed hands and feet
He'll never forget it, neither will we
My brother, King of Swampy Pond
My brother the hippopotamus

I know how to tell a story, spin a web of half true truths
Catch a thousand flies with each and every ruse
Not wanting to tell a story to you, I have to find a way to say..
Last night after you left,
I hopped out of bed and got dressed
Scribbled on some eyebrows and lips
Went on my way with a guy I just met
Stumbled back into bed around six
Brushed my teeth when I woke up at ten

This is what I planned to say

Today,
You came over to shoot the ****
and I lied to your face about all of it

Today I met a man named Jim
He asked about the holes in my skin
I said, "Needles *****, I'm a sick kid"
An intense conversation for having just met
Jim told me there are angels on his shoulders
They keep him steady like a candle holder
He doesn't daydream about leaping from the Sears Tower
Year after year, he's maintained his power
He should be afraid of the things that I say
"A risk you shouldn't take, you'll shoot me in your veins.
I'll eat you alive and you'll never be the same."
I'm baffled that he stays.

In my head, each day gets colder and colder
The walls raise taller, hope shrinks smaller
Addictions expand and I'm feeling older,
I've got a question for Jim, for he is still here..
Sunnier than ever and growing a beard (a contrast to my naked fear),
"Why did you ask about the holes in my skin,
Why do you feel you need to be a part of this?"
Jim takes a moment to think, Jim finally speaks,
"You are beautiful and a lovable being regardless."

There is a place in my mind
But oh, how time flies
So I'm left to think
I’ll never get there
Been feeling this lame winged way
Since I first heard myself say
“Move at your own pace,"
My face sits against the window pane

There’s that bird,
Perched on the other side of the glass,
Worm in mouth
How is he going to figure this out?

Trapped with the fear of losing his dinner
Hopping from one branch, back to the other
My insatiable heart sings, sun shines through
We see the world beyond the trees, nest in view

I'll never get there
The feathers fall
He’s ****** too.

Lights glow an alluring orange
Cast on me, bestow faith
In your face, I see redemption
Close to perfection
Familiarity
You can feel my fingertips
Tracing your fingerprints
This story sustained
By the never ending gain
I love you like a rainbow
After the rain

I suppose I’ll stand
With smiles and plans, shouting in my head
"I'm here, I'm here
Don’t forget, can’t you hear?"
You treat me like a child
Playing with his friends
You don’t want me, till you see me
In some other mans hands
Well, I suppose I’ll wait
Entertain myself
With a variety of mistakes
But I'm still here,
Can’t you hear?

I hope you reach to take a bite off my fulfilling plate
I hope you never feel so foreign
So misplaced

Staring at this drink,
Waiting for an answer
Nothing feels better than you touching me
I'm briefly elated
Then your bright green eyes pierce through
You're hesitating and I'm searching
For words you'll find convincing
I realize that
After little deliberation
You're leaving too

Abandoned, transplanted,
Cursed, watching time in reverse
Feeling my frail white bones sink
To where my thinks don’t think
Now I hesitate,
Staring at this drink

Girls with mermaid tails wear lipstick
Know which mistakes to fix
And fix them
They laugh at easily entertained boys,
Never care about butterflies
And swim faster than the fish
I
Broke out of a cobweb town
Bought a princess crown
And lately been trying
Not to lie and never be afraid
Life is not a stage and I want to tell you all
Play no predestined role
Fear is a wall that you can demolish

The water in the sink is an ocean
To be conquered by explorers
The explorer is You
Deep sea diving for lost treasure
Pots, pans, a cup for measure
The soap and I will conquer you

Your back arched against my nose
The softness of you melting into my bones
I'm sure you're alright, I'm sure all is well

I wish you could tell me where you go at night
The morning light would be much more sweet
Without the worry and curiosity
Of your whereabouts and moral ambiguities

You and your bones are stretched across my bed
My black cat in the afternoon
Careless, magnificent loon
I could have sworn