it's not that
you claim it

rather it
claims you

it's not the box
on a customs checklist

it's the island
calling you home

I've been losing my mind
When I meet somebody new
I question if they actually exist
Or if I'm finally
Completely
Bat **** bonkers

When I wake up
I don't get a good morning
Or even
A hello

I get a "why didn't you turn in your library books yet?"
"Go clean your room"
"The way you're eating is disgusting"
"Look at all those horrible zits on your face"
"You're so lazy"
"Why haven't I seen [insert friend's name here] in so long?"
"No."

When I wake up
I don't get a good morning
Or even
A hello

I laze around in bed
And don't get up anytime soon
I laze around in bed
And don't get up until somewhere close to noon

You come upstairs and say, "Why are you in bed? Get up"
"You're being lazy again"
"Stop going on those stupid websites"
"Finish something for once"
"Do you have homework?"
So?

And you wonder why I don't get up in the morning
When the welcome I receive is far less than heartwarming

The opposite of love is indifference
So when I tell you I hate you
I still care about you
I just have no room to love you anymore
Because all I have done was get hurt by you
So this is my way of saying
Goodbye

I want to ease you out of the mess you've gotten into.
I want to be the one to save you from it.
I want you to not have to worry about deceit or suspicion.
I want you to snap out of your 3 year coma.

If I could end it all for you, I would be the happiest I've been in a very long time.
Your beauty is only matched by your strength to endure and your blind loyalty to a man that doesn't deserve it.
I have more respect for you than all of my friends for that.
I wish I could have that much devotion in my life, with my relations.
If only I had you.

You are so ****** unique, so ****** beautiful.
I want to end your pain, but I don't know how.
I cry for you.
I cry for the day you wake up.

When you're not with me
time slips away, ponderous,
pleased with itself
pretending you don't exist

Then reality strikes
as I hear your key in the lock
For a moment, I am panicked
checking... preparing for your mood

I am a forest creature
hiding in the bush
listening to your footsteps
crush the leafy floor