They keep asking me would you take him back
would you take him back if he did change his mind
Reluctantly I respond yes
reluctantly I know I'd forgive him in a millisecond
if given the chance
which I know will never come because of my
drinking habits
and reluctance to be alone for more than a couple nights;
I still can't eat
I still can't sleep
will this ever change or will I forever regret
letting him slip away

NO

no
            no
     no                 no
                    no                       no              no

no                                    no
                  no                                 no
                                                                                                                      



                                                                                                   ..no..


                        ..please..





                                                                no..

When we were knee high we couldn't wait to be where we are now
high school didn't matter but god did we ever
stress about the little things that weren't so little in our eyes.
School was just a thing we couldn't wait to be rid of
our friends were gonna last forever no matter what our parents said
we had our lives all figured out.

Now we're college drop outs paying bills in apartments
you picked out with that person you thought was the one
left at square one wishing for your youth back
so you can shake your ******* teenage shoulders
and scream to smarten up cause they were right.
They were right.

*******
He isnt cheating
He isnt doing anything wrong
He's your man
He's your love
He's your life
And everythings ok
Ok
Ok
Ok?
Ok

The drugs have made it through my body
(both prescribed and not)
and the last bits have been swept out
through sweaty pores
Reality, the daunting thing
is now here before my eyes
bills to pay, life to conquer
how to conquer I ask, I ask
with desperate thoughts bouncing around
amplified by sobriety
my dearest self stay strong
for this is only half the battle

No one makes me feel so small except for you
The little ticking time bomb ready to burst
Medication just makes it worse
he's upstairs with his friends
and you're about to burst
about to burst

My mind is maddening
stuck in daydreams so vivid
I'm in a room full of people but I'm
headed for the kitchen
grabbing a knife and rope
to sink my boat

While kids stare on no one the wiser
that this girls no longer afloat
legal meds lock me in this box